Chapter 15
It turned out that Jessica was 4� months pregnant and we found out that it was going to be a girl. We were so busy during the next
few months getting ready for the baby to come that I didn�t have too much time to think about Brian. Since I never returned his calls,
he eventually quit calling me after a couple of weeks. Work also kept me busy and was able to help keep my mind off of my personal
life.
Occasionally, Brian would pop back into my head. I still loved him, I knew I did, I couldn�t help that. But it was impossible for me to
forgive him for what he did. I realize that a kiss may not mean anything. But that�s just what I walked in on. Lord only knows what
else they had done or have been doing since I caught them. I tried hard not to think about it, but for some reason my mind would not
let it go. I spent most nights in bed crying. That was when it was worse. As I lay there trying to go to sleep, I had nothing else to do
but think about him.
Jessica had been really supportive of me through the hard times. I was thankful that it didn�t seem to effect Jessica�s and Brandon�s
relationship. Jessica tells me that they don�t talk about it much. At first they did with Brandon trying to get Jessica to talk me into
talking to Brian, but she was siding with me on this and would hear nothing of it. She did tell me about what Brandon would tell her
that Brian told him. Things like it was all just a misunderstanding and that he still loved me, etc.
I was getting ready to leave work when I got a frantic call from Brandon. Jessica was having breakthrough bleeding and was rushed to
the hospital. The doctors were talking about doing an emergency C-Section. She was already 8 months pregnant, so the baby�s life
would not be in danger, it was just frightening that this was happening.
Even though the hospital was a good hour away from me, I got there in just over thirty minutes. I rushed in to the maternity ward and
saw Brandon sitting in a chair with his head down in his hands. As I was walking toward him, he looked up. He got up and gave me a hug.
�Thank God you came� he said wiping his tears.
�What�s going on?�
�They have her in surgery right now. They couldn�t stop the bleeding and she wouldn�t dilate, so this was their only option.� I could see
new tears welling up in his eyes and gave him another hug.
�She and the baby will be okay. I know it.�
Brandon looked up and parted from me. �Hi dad� he said as he went over to give Brian a hug.
I turned to see Brian looking at me while he was hugging Brandon. He stepped away from Brandon and came over to give me a hug. I
stepped away not wanting him to touch me, so he backed off. I could see the rejection in his face, the face that I loved.
The tears started forming in my eyes and, not wanting Brian or Brandon to see, I excused myself to get a cup of coffee. But instead I
went into the restroom and cried. Was I ever going to stop loving him? Will the hurt ever go away?
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