well, i dont think i'm doin all the capitalization and punctuation and all that shit, am i?   if if was, i won't ... if i wasn't i wuldnt. how's that.

it's wednesday.  and i've done my video entry.  early.  all morning i've been basically celebrating the BM of the century.  i mean, this morning's drop was one for the books.  obviously.

anyway, just got a visit from a neighbor.  a neighbor who could whip any body in town ... with one arm tied behind his back.  a mean lil fuck he is.  and redneck to the core.  too much into drugs for my taste, but heh, i dont tell him, and he dont tell me.  i find its the best way to get along up here.

anyway, um, on to the event of the day.  my entry.  this is the blog where i open up, and without all the fluff or 'public' life, i tend to dwell on totally useless issues for other people, but in  my world, all the importance of a lover.

i don't have a lover.  rarely ever did.  they just weren't something i wanted in my life.  i dont know why, but it jus came out that way.  i was a whore in and out of drag.

but back to the subject of this entry - my fantastic drop at the toilet this morning.  i even tried to shift the pain meds around some... taking 8 when i should have taken 12. but i realized that this was not a good idea.  quite quickly.

i have an appointment with my doctor on monday.  i have to be ready an hour beforehand, cuz cerro gordo transit - the bus for the disaalbed - will need that much to get their act together - will pick me up at 1445.  a whole hour i'll have to whore around the hospital.  i'll probably have to rely on them getting home too.  god knows.

i'm really hurting today tho.  hurting in places that don't hurt much.  which leads me to ask, is this thing spreading?  or just getting worse?  it's certainly evolving.  evolving from what, to what, is the $64,000 question. it makes sitting down quite difficult.  i'd sure like to get speech recognition going on the mac.  my modem comes tomorrrow.  whoppie.  hopefully i'll get caller ID.  but i'll have fax. 

anyway, i've drifted off on too many subjects already.  spoke alot, didn't say much.