Rant archive:

October 6, 2005

So it's been a couple months. I've been busy, and lazy as well. So anyway, I've moved. I now live in lovely Twinsburg, Ohio. I got a roommate too. Those of you in the know know who she is. But I know no one cares about that. Onto the feedback!

Ok, so it's pretty much been negative feedback. Lets start with the comments. At first I was gonna just delete those two comments. I have to admit, it pissed me off when I first read them. But I have decided to let them stay. I mean, it's feedback anyway, and it gives me something to go off about here, lol. First of all, if you are gonna be a bastard and write stuff like that, at least have the common decency to leave your name so I can hunt you down and bea-er, thank you. Of course, this little bastard/s is a coward, and didn't do that. So lets get into what it said (I say it since I have no clue what left them). I said I liked the design, I never said it was good. And by the way, this is, in fact, MY site. I made it for ME. I am just about the only one that sees it. So I don't care if it doesn't measure up to your design standard. Now the second comment. I am also very glad it didn't get a degree from Kent. Why you may ask? Because then I might have had to suffer through a class with the thing. Yes, it is true, I don't know how to write HTML. Let me explain why. I am a lazy bastard that never got motivated enough to read a book or search the internet to learn. I have nice little tools to help me. Why didn't I learn it in school? Simple, none of the classes I took taught it. I wanted to take the web design and programming classes, but since my last name starts with a J, I was never able to be one of the first ones to register for classes, and those ones filled up in like an hour. So in conclusion to the comments, I just want to say this. If it thinks my page/me sucks so bad, let it go ahead and make it's own page. I'd love to leave a comment in your guest book.

Next, I have actually received a rant in the mail. It comes from my sister. Here you go:

June 3, 2005

Ok, I got a mix of a few rants today. The first one is of my current state of being. Tired and worn out. Now, I wonder how I got this way? Let us take a tour of my past couple weeks. So inventory was last week. So you know what that means. The week before I had a 50 hour week. Fair enough, gotta get ready for inventory so I can get a decent raise. Then comes the week of. Wednesday was inventory. So explain to me why the hell I had to work 55 hours that week, and all day Friday? This kinda pissed me off. So I wrote off this Thursday and Friday. IE yesterday and today. I figured I'd be able to rest and relax. Like hell. Evidently, it is the perfect time to get gravel and redo the driveway. 31 tons of rock. Of which, I had to move and spread 15-20 tons. So yeah, I'm kinda whooped, and I still gotta go in and work all day Saturday, Sunday, and 15 hours Monday, then 3-9 Tues and Wed. Uggg. At least since Wal-Mart opened, it has slowed down a lot so I don't have to kill myself as bad. Then again, it gives me time to think.

Which brings us to the second part. The thinking. This wears me out possible more than the physical labor. You see, the only other person to have ever submitted a rant to this page has asked me if I want to get a two bedroom apartment with her in July. It's a big decision for me. So I've been thinking about it a lot. I think I'm gonna do it, but I really need to sit down with her and talk about it. I was going to on Thursday, but between her going to see her boyfriend, and the mountain of rock, it didn't happen. I really do need to get out of this house though. Ever since Kent didn't schedule any classes for Scott to teach in the summer, he's been home all the time. And mom's been taking time off of work too. Needless to say, this has pretty much driven me insane. I like waking up and not having a house full of people. True, I would have a roommate, but I think it would be better somehow. So anyways, even though I haven't made up my mind 100% since I still need to talk to her, I decided I should start looking at places on the internet, since July really isn't far away. It's very difficult to find places around the area I was looking at. Especially ones that allows 2 cats. A lot of places will allow one, but not two. Then try to find a place where the bedrooms are around the same size, not a giant one and a tiny one. Then try to find one within a reasonable price range. Not very fun. I've found a couple possibilities, but like I said, I still gotta talk to her. And I know there are more places that are not listed on the internet. Oh well, I should get ready for bed since I gotta work all day tomorrow.

Mike

May 1, 2005

I got nothin at the moment. Oh wait, I know. I just got pissed off! Yeah, my misery provides you with reading material. Ok, we all know I'm a lazy bastard. We all know that I am using dial-up to access the internet. We all  know I always say I'm gonna get dsl or cable or something. We all know that's not going to happen. So the purpose of this rant. Using dial-up, there can only be one person in the house on the internet at one time. Supposedly you can share that connection, but I've never been able to figure out how. This never was a really big deal before. Mainly because I used to be the only one that used the internet on a regular basis. Not any more. I've got to share it with everyone else in the house. So I set up an unofficial time-table. I haven't told anyone about it. The way I see it, I can use the internet when I am home alone, and when everyone else is asleep. Sounds fairly reasonable to me. So I set my computer to shutdown at 4:50pm, and 7:00 am. This way it'll be off when everyone else gets home from work, and when they wake up before they go to work. Everything seemed ok. Until recently. It is now almost 1:00 am, and I still cannot get on the fucking internet! I want to do stuff, and maybe, just maybe, start posting v3.0 for no body to see it. GET OFF THE FUCKING COMPUTER! GO TO BED! Grrrrrr. But I can't really go tell them that, because they are actually doing work. ARGH!

January 4, 2005

Ok, so I never did finish the update I was planning on in october. I didnt even do a rant. I'm still working on that idea though. So what has been going on with me? Well, for starters, am a college graduate now. Finally, I am done with the hell that is KSU. Well thats about it. I'm gonna forgo the typicaly New Years sucks rant. It wasnt really that bad this year.

Now for site news. I'm still planning on that update I mentioned.But I decided to put it on hold for right now. I've got something else in mind now. I just realized that I have Frontpage just sitting on my computer taking up space. So I decided I would start using it just a few minutes ago. So that means I am going to be able to do away with the crappy pagebuilder tool that Geocities provides. IE, I'll be able to work on my pages offline! and I can actually organize my files into folders so that it's a little easier to keep track of. What's this mean for you? Well,for a while, it probably wont seem like much is changing while I am learning frontpage and getting all the pages and files on my computer. However, once all this is done, maybe I'll redesign the site. Maybe I'll add more features. Maybe I'll actually update more! I think that the main reason that I don't isn't that I dont have time, but it is because I am a lazy bastard, and I hate waiting for pagebuilder to load, and then half the time it don't even work right, or it crashes just before I hit save. Speaking of which, there, I just hit save. So until then, just keep doing what you always do, and don't say anything of use or encouragement.

By the way, Thanks Melissa for at least writing down your name and such. Although I have no real clue who you are, Thanks.

Mike's feeling ambitious for once and updated!

July 4, 2004

Wow, that's a record! Two updates in one day!  Anyway, you cant really tell except for my word and the fact that July 4 appears twice for the same year. But yeah, I decided to get rid of my last rant. I wasn't in the right mindset for it. It was a true rant of a crazy person. And as I looked back over it, I realized a couple things. One, it might get me in a shitload of trouble if someone actually read it, and two, well, it was just repetitive. So anyway, now that I have blown bunches of imps into meaty little gibs with my trust rocket launcher, and watched some violent movies, I feel better. I am now in a more proper mindset to rant. 4th of July. Yippee. I can still hear the illegal fireworks being shot off. And I am alone. No surprise there, that is how holidays go for me. I almost wish I had to work today. Then again, I don't really need my brain to work, so I still woulda been thinking about the same thing, the same person. Plus, I woulda been in major pain since my chest is burnt to a nice pink. You cant even see my nipples anymore. They just blend right in with the chared remains. Lovely visual, isn't it? Other than that, I guess the only real news is that it is less than two weeks now until Evanescence! YEAH! Well, I am starting to fumigate myself, so I think I best be going to the bathroom now.

July 4. 2004

Deleted to protect my sorry ass

June 13, 2004

Who the fuck is using a Mac to access my site????? I just checked the stats, and someone is! Fess up, you ass backwards hippy. Apple sucks! Anyway, thats the rant for today, or is it? You must read on to know for sure, bwahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaaaaa!!

Anyway, yeah, what happened to the updates that seemed to be comming so quickly? One word. Work. Well, that is the primary cause. Since moving up to assistant manager(oh yeah, my first day back I had keys, and I haven't even had time to look at the books yet), I have been making slightly better money. Unfortunately, I have been working a lot more too. Alot of that has to do mainly with the fact that I am no longer covered under my mothers health insurance, and in order to get it at work, I have to be a full time employee, not part time anymore.  Thus I have to work more.  But that is not the only reasons the updates have been delayed. Another is the fact that I am not on the schools internet anymore. I am in 56k land, and it takes so damn long to load anything. I really need to call Altell up and get DSL, but I am such a lazy bastard. Which is another reason why I haven't updated.

But anyways, what has been going on in my life, because I am sure all of you are just dying to know the events a complete stranger is experiencing, otherwise you wouldnt be reading this, now would you?? Ok, I have been working. Thats a given. What else? Well, on my few hours off (I rarely have a full day off anymore, it seems), I have actually been getting out of the house! I finaly got fed up with my car radio, and went to Best Buy, and got a new one. I finally have a cd player in my car that doesnt rely on the tape deck! I also bout a game, Civ 3, because Kiyoko told me too. Very addicting, but I dont like the turn structure to it. Umm, I went to the drive in with Kiyoko, after spending hours finding out that the Movie theater in Mentor closed, and getting lost trying to find the other one.  And I've gone to a couple movies with Johanna. Umm, I've mowed the grass and done laundyy and cleaned the gutters. Hmmm, thats about all. What an amazing life I lead. Why dont you tell me about your exciting lives so I can see what all I am missing, lol. As if anyone is going to read this. Maybe I should tell Kiyoko to change the link on her site to the home page,not the index page.  There was something else I wanted to say, but I cant for the life of me remember what it was. So maybe if I ramble on a little longer I'll rember. Ah yes, that's what it was, but you know, as I am typing this, I just dont feel like writing it anymore.

Oh, and if anyone want to know, and didnt get to read the quick update I did before, I got 5 A's and a B Last semestere. I am now guarenteed to graduate Summa Cum Laude. Big whoop.

Well, I put up a new link, to the webcomic Something Positive. It's actualy quite amusing. Not for kiddies though. I'll be in Columbus July 16-17 to go see Evanescence. So if you are there, and happen to recognize me, stay far far away. It would be just freaky if someone came up to me and said "Hey, arnet you that guy from that website? You rock/suck!"

There you have it,
Mike

May 6, 2004

As I stated on the home page, this hell semseter which broke my spirit is going to be over. Thank the lord. But here's an update on my current situation grade wise, because I know you are just dying for me to tell you. One grade has been posted. I got an A in compilers. Yeah! A lot of people were saying that the teacher never gives out A's, so that makes me feel good. Then on the Database project, ours was the most ghetto piece of crap up there, but we wound up with a 91% on it. And the final for that class was take-home, and basically straight out of the book. Which was cool because we got the solutions manual for the book a while ago. IE, well, the project presentation went good today, but the final was a pain in the arse. Software Engineering, I probably did ok on the final, even though I didn't study an ything from the first test, so I didnt know it. Then tomorrow I have the Java final, which is going to be a bitch. I also have to turn in the take home Systems admin final. I said fuck it to that final. Ruttan is a bitch and didnt teach us anything in the class. He gave us homework no one understood, then based the whole final on that. So I just wrote crap down, didn't implement it, and am just going to say screw it. I thing the worst I can get in that class is a C anyway, though it may be a D. No matter what, I will still have an excellent GPA.

Ok, thats the school front. Now the work front. I get to go back Saturday, 12-9. Fun fun. At least Inventory was this week, so I got to miss that. I'm not sure if I mentioned this or not, and to be honest, I am too much of a lazy bastard to go back and read the old rants, but over spring break, I asked about the possibility of me becomming and assistant manager. Well, all I got to do is fill out the stupid books, and I got it. I think that kinda pissed off the one of the current assistants so now she is quitting, claiming personal reasons. Oh well. More hours for me, thus more money. Of course, that also means more work.

Now some random stuff. First, Happy Birthday on the 8th to Kiyoko, Happy Birthday on the 10th to Johanna. Happy Mother's day to Mom on sunday. Happy whatever to whoever on whenever.

Second, now that I am getting kicked out of the dorms, I am no longer going to have the nice network I have here. I'm gonna be stuck on a 56k modem. I really need to do something about that. I'm thinking the best option for me is DSL since they don't offer cable internet out in Hicksville. And this is really going to suck because I have gotten interested in a couple new shows that are still airing. Which means I will have so much trouble trying to download them over the modem. These files are 150-250 MB in size. And I have to share that 56k line with at least 2 other people. I really need to do something about that. Well, thats about it. I really should get back to studying JAVA now.

Mike

April 20, 2004

I've given up caring about this semester. Thus, another update, in the same month none the less! I just don't wanna do any work right now, even though the deadlines are fast approaching. Luckily, a couple have been extended, thus the reason I am not doing them right now. But as I was saying, I've given up on this semester. A couple days ago I was really stressing out over all the crap I had to do. Then the asshole teachers kept giving more. So I came back to my room one day, almost in tears.I got on Web For Students, and opened up their little GPA calculator. If it isn't lying to me, if I get all F's this semester, I still have a 3.4. Sure, I'll have to take everything over, but that is not a bad GPA at all, really. Sure, it's no 3.942 that I have now, but it's still good. If I get all D's, thus passing the classes, it's 3.5 something. Well, I know a couple classes I am doing good in, so I decided, screw this semester. I'm not going to worry about it anymore. And I feel a lot better. A LOT. I'm still thinking about the stuff I have to do and all that, but the way I see it, I'll do what I can, and that's it. All that worrying was getting to me, and not in a good way either.

Another thing. You know those lovely webpages I put up for my System Admin project? Well, the teacher is being the typical asshole bastard he always is. We have to actually give him copies of the webpages. We can't post them on the web and give him a link. His reason? "If you control the website, then there is a possibility that they won't stay up long enough for me to grade them. And I won't be able to tell if someone next semester uses them as thier own." Assmunch. Well, being as how I don't know, and don't feel like learning HTML right now, he got an even crapier version made in MS WORD. Yup, an even crappier version. I bet you thought there wasn't such a thing, did you. I'm gonna leave them up though, just outta spite. Oh, and if you wanna see the crappier versions, I put them up as well on my school site, www.cs.kent.edu/~mjonath/sysadmin.html

And now, finally, the explanations you were promised on the home page. Like anyone read that. As you may have noticed in my links page lately, I've started watching fansubed anime. Yet another thing to make me a bigger nerd, right? But come on, you know you like it too.He He. What you may not know is that I have also been experimenting with remote connections to my desktop. You see, I got a lotta crap on this here computer. And I don't have space for it on my laptop. Also, for the moment, my desktop is connected to the school ethernet, thus faster downloads. Sometimes when I am at home, I need to do something, and the program is on my desktop. Or I want to download something big, and not spend weeks doing it over a 56k modem. Also, I got a wireless card for my laptop, since sometimes the wireless network works at school. I looked at the remote desktop thing that comes with Windows XP. Well, I don't wanna mess with having to add passwords and everything. Plus, the way I understand it(I could very well be wrong) you can only do it between XP and XP. So I looked on the web and found a nice little program called TightVNC. It lets me do the whole remote desktop thing very easily. Just run the server on the remote computer, then run the client on the computer you are currently on, type in the address of the remote computer, and your in(or you can put a password on that too). So thats all fine and dandy. But then I got to thinking. I want to transfer some files between the computers. I couldn't figure out how to do it with TightVNC, asside from emailing. Well, some of these files are over 200 MB. So that aint happening. Then I got the idea of FTP. After searching the web, I finally found a completely free FTP server, written in JAVA (comes with the source code too, so I may look at it sometime and educate myself), and is less than 200KB. So I got it and set it up. Very easy to use. All of which brings me back to the point I was trying to make. What was it again? Oh yes. I've decided to share the wealth. I'm gonna add a link to the links page. To my own computer. To all the anime I currently have on it. It's mostly the ones I am currently working on getting(IE, still airing in Japan). I have some complete series as well, burned to CDs. So what does this mean to you? Well, it means that you can download the Anime I have, directly from me. Now for the disclaimers.
1) I did not subtitle these animes. The credit goes to the fantastic groups that do this for us for FREE.
2) I am currently on the schools ethernet. This means I should have a good upload speed. It also means I have a static IP address. This will all change in less than 2 weeks when the semester is over and I move back home, back to 56K modem land. (I'll have to see about changing that pronto). So don't expect this FTP server to stay up for long.
3) I am doing this out of the goodness of my heart. However, the FTP server requires my computer to be on in order to run (the fans are quite noisy and make it somewhat difficult to sleep when it is on). It also means I actually have to run the program, and loose precious space on my taskbar ;-( . Therefore, it will be up entirely at my discression
4) If you do decide to download from me, and the server is up, please, send me an IM, or email. Tell me that you are downloading a file, what file, and what time you started downloading(preferably in Eastern Standard Time). This way, I'll know if some one is downloading from me and don't arbitrarily shut it down.
5) If you are on a 56K modem, NO. I feel your pain, but these files range in size from 100MB - >300MB. And odds are, you won't get them in one session. Therefore, you won't get them from me. I suggest visiting those lovely links I have posted to the BitTorrent sites. Those allow you to resume downloads, and are much more reliable than I am.
6) Be warned. This is not a reliable thing. I may turn off my computer or shut of the server at any time I feel like it. Do not whine to me. This is FTP. You either get it in one shot, or you have to do it all over again. You may be able to use a download manager to resume, but I just tried with mine and it said no.
7) Be nice

Kiyoko, this may help you with your hotbar space problem as well. You can host the old ones on your computer. Just put up warnings, like I did on this page. Leave the new ones on your site so they can be accessed anytime.

Well thats all for now. I think I'm gonna change either the text or the background on this page because it is kinda hard to read, then I am off to put up the links

Mike

April 12, 2004

Well, I can't believe I am updating again, in the same month none the less. Wow. But don't be looking for another update for a while. Here's the deal. I have a project in my Systems Administration class. Basically I have to make 10-15 webpages describing some unix package. I picked Mondo Rescue. Big whoop. I was debating where to put these webpages though. There is no way in hell I have enough time to do them all nice and fancy. So they are basically going to be all text. Because of this I was thinking of just putting them on the school server. But I don't really know html. Sure, it's probably easy enough, but I have negative time right now, which is another reason I am surprised I am updating. So I decided that since I already have this site, and I got plenty of space, and Geocities has the nice page builder tool, I am just adding those pages to this website. I'll just give the teacher the address for the those pages. Anyway, heres the hell schedule for the next few weeks, as it stands now:

April 16: software engineering test
April 19: Systems Admin project
             Systems Admin homework
             Compilers quiz
April 21: software engineering programing project
             Java Homework
April 22: Database Project
April 26: Compilers Final
May 3:   Compilers Project
May 3-7: Finals week
And somewhere in there Internet engineering homework and project(writting a http1.0 compliant browser from                 scratch)

And the asshole teachers keep adding more by the day. What I dont get is why is every damn thing due next week? Why can something be due the week after? That would be soo nice right about now. Oh, and those projects, I've barely started on them, and they are worth anywhere between 20 and 50 percent of the final grade. So yeah, negative time. I gotta go.

Mike

April 3, 2004

Ok, so you probably want the semi important site related news, right? Well, I was a lazy bastard again, and stupid too. I had this nice long update all typed out. But did I hit save? No, of course not. I told my self I should hit save, but then I said, "Self, why hit save? It'll just take forever because You got Yumeria 10 downloading on Azureus, and you are on a crappy 56k modem. why don't you finish changing the background and font color on this page before you do?""You know what, you are right self. Let me do that now. WTF!! Explorer cause an error in <unknown>?? WTMFF!!" Needless to say, the update went the way of the dodo, and since it is now almost 2 in the morning and I am really tired, I'm not going to try to recreate it right now. But I will tell you the jist of it. Basically, since I noticed that this page always gets updated, and that on the home page, I have not really left much space for update info/news/archives, I'll just post the real info here with the rants. Yeah. Then I did some complaining about how I never get any feedback from the site, even though I really would like some. Then I had a rant about school, and then finally I did the news update, with some humor added. I'll redo it as quick as possible, so don't expect the humor to show up again. If I remember, and am not a lazy bastard again, I will try to reupdate soon.

Well, here is your firstever news/update post-- again.
1.) Added a bunch of links. Because I am a lazy bastard, they are just text links. Maybe in the future I will put up the pretty buttons those sites provide.
2.) Updated the rants. Forgot to hit save. Cussed out Windows ME.
3.) rebooted
4.) rebooted again. Further swearing.
5.) updated the home page to tell you to come here
6.) changed the background and font here
7.) hit save!
8.) wrote this.
9.) going to hit save as soon as I am finished typing, lol

Well that's it for now. Just give me some feedback. I double dog dare you.

Must have precious sleep, Mike's mind keeps telling him

March 29, 2004

Well, I was told to updated my site. I asked what I should do, and in response, and I quote, "Something, Anything". Yeah, helpful, lol. Luckily I thought about some recent events and came up with a rant. I just thought about something else while I was writting that, but I think that is too personal to put up here, plus I don't really want to think about it. It makes my insides feel all squishy, and I fear I may have to run to the bathroom and vomit. Now that you got that image in your mind, lol, the rant.

GOD DAMNED DATABASE CLASS!!!!!!!!! I really don't think it would be so bad, if not for the teacher. She supposedly has 25 years of experience in this subject. Riiiiiiiiigght. She has no fucking clue what she is talking about. Take for example, a classmate asked her if she could give an actual example of something we were doing. You know, something with words or numbers or something of that sort, not alpha's and beta's and all that theory crap. Her response, and once again I quote "Well, if you take a look at the notes, you take alpha and beta...." Yeah. Helpful. Oh, and get this. We had our midterm like a week before spring break. We got it back the last day of class before break. I thought I did really good on it. Well, I get it back, and what do I see? 69%! I don't get 69%s!!!! As I am looking over it, I see that even though I did not do the questions the way she wanted us to, I still got an answer, which is right. But since I did it differently from her, it is different than hers. Therfore I got it wrong. So she decides that since the average grade was like 40%, she was going to let us redo some of the problems. Well, I took my test up to her after class, and asked her to explain why this one question was wrong. Supposedly there is only one answer, but I got a different one and proved it was correct in the process. Her response, which I managed to pick out amongst her stammering.. "Let me make a copy of it and I'll look at it later. I'll email it back to you." Which in my opinion means "I'll show it to someone else who has some clue what they are doing because I am a moron and don't know how to do what I am trying to make you do." Oh, and I still haven't gotten that email. Spring break is over. We have to turn in the corrected problems in class in the morning. Yeah. I hate that teacher. I cannot wait until evaluations this year. I've tried to get teachers fired before with those things, but with everyone that hates her, I think it may actually work this time, lol.

Well, I hope this rant is good enough for you, miss Icefaery2030. lol.

Mike rants because he has no other idea what to do for an update.

February 16, 2004

Hey, what do you know. I bypassed the annual VD Sucks rant. It's all been said before anyway. So whatever shall I rant about today? I mean, I've even gotten a couple visits to this site by people I don't know. And when they signed the guestbook, they actually said that they like this little POS site I have! I can't believe it. So I don't think I go off about that. I could go off about how school sucks. Which it really does. I gots me lots of homework and all that. But once again, that has been done to death. I had school today although it is a federal holiday. Hmmmm. I can never decide on these things. Well, lets see, what has pissed me off besides other than what I have already mentioned lately? You know, have actually been kind of mellow lately. I can't believe it! Ok, well, since I can't really rant today, has there been anything that has happened that actually made me happy that I can rave about? Not really. My mind is a blank. I am so sure that if someone would just suggest a topic, I could have such a comical rant written up in five minutes. But I just can't think of anything. So why am I even writting on this page today? I don't really know. I guess it is just habit whenever I do an update, no matter how small or pathetic it is, to come to the rant page and write something down. Well, in closing, I'd like to say give me your rants, or at least a suggestion of what to write about.

Mike

January 27, 2004

Hey, it's my first rant of 2004! Big freaking whoop! lol. Anyway, I dont really have anything to say.......

You should know better than that by now! Ok, hows this for example. I am currently a senior a KSU, right? I'm sure you have read all my old rants too, so you know all about how the Geauga Branch screwed me over with that class that they said would count, but doesnt. Well, now the Kent Branch has continued the tradition of screwing me over. They are offering NO classes I can take in the summer to cover those elective hours. Thats right, zip, zero, nada. Which means it will be December before I can graduate. Thats right, a whole 7 more months that I have to be a student.Could be worse, I could be like some of my friends who have to go for multiple extra years. Plus there is a class being offered in the fall that I was kinda pissed that I wouldnt be able to take because it actually sounded interesting to me, and would count as the elective I need, so I am going to take that. Maybe I should check to see if I can sign up now so I dont loose out. GRRR, I can't even search the classes being offered in fall yet. Oh well. But I do have to give Kent props today. They actually cancelled classes today, and yesterday evening!!! We had an ICE day today, which is good because I didn't feel like going to classes today. I thought you only got senioritis in high school, lol. So what did I do today? NOTHING!! Well, not nothing, but nothing productive. I could have worked on so many things, but no. Well, my mind isn't generating any thing else that I can write down, so I'll end this rant here.

Mike

ps: I know I am getting some more traffic to my site now because of Kiyoko's link. So all you new people, CONTRIBUTE, DAMMIT!! lol

December 31, 2003

Whoa!! 2 rants in one month? How the hell did that happen? Anyway, before I get started, an update. I wound up getting 3 A's and one B. So I guess the semester wasn't a failure after all.

Ok, down to business. The subject of the rant this time is what occurs at Midnight tonight, about 2 hours and 15 minutes from now. You guessed it, "New Years". First of all, what the hell type of holiday is that? If you really want to get technical, every day could be considered new years, because exactly one year has passed since that day last year. Why the hell even celebrate it?? Another excuse for all the achoholics out there to go out and be stupid and get drunk again, I guess. I really hate this day. A couple years ago I said screw it and went to bed at 7. Staying up to midnight or later is nothing to me anymore, so I don't care about that. To me, New years is the second worst holiday, right after Valentines day. I cant stand it when the ball drops, and all that they show is people kissing each other. Makes me feel that much more alone. Then I think about all my friends, who are with their loved ones cuddling up smooching and what not, and I cry. And before you say that it is my fault and that I should go find a girlfriend, just shut the fuck up now. I've heard it all before, I've even told myself that. It just don't happen that way for me.

December 10, 2003

Ever notice how people always complain about the bad things in life, but never praise and rarely mention the good? Ever wonder why that is? It is because people are pessimistic by nature. It is always so easy to recognize the bad. But when something good happens, you don't remember it. That's probably why this page is all rants, and no real raves. So here's another rant for the few that might actually read this. I just finished my last final maybe 20 minutes ago. God I hate those things. So much emphasis is put on one test. In many classes, the final is worth 30-50% of your final grade. So you could be getting a 100% in a class, bomb the final, and wind up with a C in the class. This semester, I think I did absolutely horrible on all of my finals. I'll be lucky if I get an A in one class this semester. In my eyes, that is failure. Sure, to other people, my grades could be considered excellent, and they would gladly trade grades with me. But I have come to expect so much from myself. I had over a 4.0 in high school, and was one of 3 valedictorians. Up until this semester, I have only gotten one B in college, the rest A's. I really feel like I failed this semester. But who knows, when my grades get posted, they may be all A's due to curves or luck. But I doubt it.

Oh well, it could be worse. Now I am going to do something different. I am going to try to look at the good things in my life. The evil semsester is over and done with. Now I get a month off of school until the next one starts, and it is a very much needed break. Sure, I am going to have to work my butt off over break at work, but at least it isn't like here. Maybe my eye will stop twitching. Oh, and my friend from way back when I first started this page is working there again. So that's another good thing, I hope. And my other friend that I wrote about recently is talking to me again. I've grown closer to a lot of people this semester. I don't feel as alone as I did before. I have a family that loves and cares about me. There really is a lot of good in life, if you just take a few moments and look for it.

Mike

November 20, 2003

Well, I am now 22 years old. Thats right, it is my birthday once again. Or as I like to call it, The Evil Day. Most people my age celebrate their birthday, maybe make a big deal about it. Well, go you. Me, I hate my birthday. No, really, I hate my birthday. Even though I try not to, it always makes me look over my life up to this point. And as the years start pilling on, I see more and more dissappointment and failure. My life, based on current life expectancies, is 25% over. And what have I to show for it? Nothing of importance. Sure, I was valedictorian in high school. But then when you consider it was Cardinal, Big freaking deal. No one cares about that anyway. I am still in school, still living at home when I am not at the dorm, still working at Family Dollar. I have never had a girlfriend, never even kissed anyone. I've only had a handful of people I would consider real friends, and only one of them is still talking to me. I always seem to to something incredibly stupid that pisses them off. Hell, only 2 people even acknowledged that today was my birthday, and one of them was my mother. I have done nothing that people will remember. I have made no impact on this world. If I never existed, nothing would be different. You see, that's why I hate my birthday. It makes me look at myself, and you know what? What I see is nothing.

October 21, 2003

Another month, another update. Basically my life has been crap since the last one. First I start off by pissing my best friend off without meaning to. I still havn't really gotten over that. But I'm afriad to try and patch things up because I don't want to wind up making her even madder at me. Then school has been hell. Last week was the test week from hell. Hopefully by the end of this week I'll know how I did. The semester is over half over already. Seems strange. Which brings me to the school screwing me over. I was trying to graduate and get the hell out of here by May. Well, the other day I got a phone call from one of the counselors down here, and she told me I hadn't even declared yet. It's all the idiots at Geauga's fault. They totally screwed me over. Not only did I have to hurry up and "Officially" declare my major, but I also found out that they had lied to me. Kent forces all freshmen to talk to someone in order to schedule classes. Well the someone I talked to told me to take this one class because it would count as an upperdivision elective. So I did, and I have been counting it as such since then. Well I just found out that it does not count. Which screws me because now I am going to be 2 credit hours short of graduating because I will need that in upper division computer elective. That is less than one class worth! I have already signed up for all the classes I can in spring. So guess what that means. I have to wait until at least August to graduate, that is if the even offer a class that I can use for those 2 hours in the summer. And finally, my mother's boyfriend is going to be moving in to our house. That shouldn't really be too bad. He's a good guy and all, but it's just going to take some getting used to. At least I am here most of the time. Some good has happened too. Not much, but I'll take what I can get. I've been having an almost existant social life. Sure, it is with a friend from High School and she is of course already involved with someone else. But I am getting out of the dorm every now and then. Wow, I can't really think of anything else good that has been happening to me lately. I guess it's just the pessimistic nature I have. Well, it's getting late, so I should probably be going to bed soon. Later all who might see this.

September 10, 2003

Ok, so it has been forever since I updated my site. Not like anyone noticed. No emails about it, no comments in the guest book. Come on people, I am starting to think that no one comes to my site. Oh wait, no one does! But anyway, I am back in kent, living in CCC, a new building that technically is still being built, lol. My internet connection works, but is crap and it would seem that modems would be faster. Anyway, nothing to say really. I just wanted to update so people don't think I just up and died.

Mike

February 12, 2003

I dont know what this is, really. But I need to get it off of my chest and out in the open. Last night I got a email from the girl I talk about on here alot. I dont know for sure, but I want to say I loved her. Well, in the email, she gave me some bad news. Well, really, it's happy news, but it's bad for me. She got engaged Feb. 10. Now, I never told her how I felt before, but I did mention it in my reply. I mean, I know it would have never worked between us anyway because she is almost 8 years older and has 2 kids. That's probably why I never told her. I was content just being her friend. And I am happy for her. This guy must be something special because a while ago she told me she would never get married. Yet at the same time that I am happy for her, I feel like vomiting. Litterally, I haven't eaten anything since I read that email for fear of throwing up. Thats how much she meant to me. In a way, this might be good for me though. No matter how much I tried before to get over her and move on, I always found my thoughts changing to thoughts about her. While I knew we'd never get together, she was the closest I have ever come to having a girlfriend, and somewhere in my mind I still held out hope. I never got that close to anyone else because I wanted her. Perhaps now that there is some finalization to that dream I can move on, and meet other people. That is, if I can ever be happy again. V-day this year is going to be especially bitter for me. Well, I got a crap load of homework to do, so maybe that will take my mind off of this for long enough that I can eat again.

February 5, 2003

Ok, enough of the mister nice guy stuff. Back to the fun ranting! And what ever will I go off on now? MY FRICKEN SHOWER IN MY DORM!!!!!! It has been nothing but a pain since I moved in here. I mean, granted, it is a brand new college dorm, and it only services 2 rooms. But still, with all the money I am paying, I would at least expect to be able to get clean with style. First off, it is small. No big complaint there. I mean, all you really need to do is turn around to be able to get clean. Next of is the water pressure. Or should I say lack there of. When I first got here, there was a dribble coming out of the head. I mean, I could piss on myself, and get more liquid on me at a higher pressure. Finally they go some new head on it that gives the illusion of pressure. But only when the nob is turned to cold. Not that there is really any hot water at all. When the nob is turned all the way to hot, the pressure is cut in half, and the water isn't even luke warm!!!. I am used to a shower that gives a good massage, and will scald me if I turn it past halfway. This sorry excuse for a shower sucks!!!

Mike

January 16, 2003

Another update. My life still sucks. But I am gonna try something new. Lets try a rave for once. While classes suck, so far this semester is going pretty good. My roomate couldn't afford to come back. So that means I have a big room all to myself. Even though some things still suck in it, like the hole in the wall, I am very happy. I prefer living alone rather than with someone I don't know. And that means that if I ever get any "friends", they can spend the night =D. And not only do I have a room to myself, one of my close friends from the Geauga branch is taking a class down here this semester. I haven't seen her for quite some time. Now I get to see her every tuesday and thursday. We spent a couple hours sitting in the math building talking to each other, until they locked it up. So right now, aside from being tired (it is almost 1 AM) I am in a fairly decent mood for once! YEAH! Just don't get used to it.

Mike

December 13, 2002

I am updating this freaking thing once again. I dont know why I even bother. It has been nothing but a pain for me. No one comes here, no one has ever sent me an email about this page. Wait, Kiyoko did send a rant a long time ago. But other than that, only Cari and Ashliegh have signed the guest book. You know, this page isn't much different from my life. Nobody would really care if I just up and disappeared. I mean, I have a couple friends that I talk to, but I don't think they would really miss me. And it seems like everything is focusing around relationships. Everybody is talking about how great they are, or how bad someone has hurt them in one. Well, you know what? SCREW YOU! At least you've had something special. I am 21 freaking years old, and the closest I have ever come to one is a freaking hug. I mean, I've literally spent thousands of dollars on this one girl, but nothing came of it. Except for "friendship" up until I ran out of money and a broken heart when she told me today that she found someone thats great for her. Everyone keeps giving me advice on how to pick people up, or telling me to go out and meet people. Gee, thanks. How about, instead of advice, you ask me out?? But all this relationship crap has messed me up. I've started to take a look at myself. And you know what I see? NOTHING! I cannot see one thing about me that is special, not one thing that is unique, not one thing that I can do better than someone else. So of course, why would anyone take an interest in me, if I can't even do it? This all has really depressed me. Nothing new, of course. But the real irony of all this is that I am the person people come to when they are having problems in their relationships and want advice. DO I LOOK LIKE SOMEONE YOU SHOULD BE ASKING FOR ADVICE????? HAVE YOU SEEN WHAT A CRAPHOLE MY LIFE IS? To quote one friend, "You need to get out and about and meet someone. You will when you least expect it." My ass. If that were true, then why am I lonely? I never expect to meet anyone. As for getting out and meeting people, I would except for the fact that I have problems talking to people I don't know.Because I am so non-special, I dont have anything interesting to say. And because I am so non-attractive, no one would ever consider coming up to me and saying hi. So screw it. Screw life. Screw everything to hell. If anyone can tell me something I can't see about myself, please, do so. Especially if you actually know me.


September 19, 2002

Ok, it has been a few months since I have been back. So I am lazy. So what. A lot has happened in those few months. I have been relocated to Kent State University. And my current dorm room will be the subject of many rants, for sure. So what aspect should I rant about first? How about this. Each and every room in this brand spanking new building is supposed to be equipped with ethernet access. Well, I moved in August 30th. I was finally able to get on the internet last monday. It seems all I needed to do was buy a new freaking computer since my old one decided to just up and die. Now of course, this is the ethernet. So you would expect extreamly fast downloads, right?  NO!!!!!!!! Oftentimes it would be faster to use a freaking 56k modem!! Oh well, at least I can finally check my email without having to walk a hlf mile to the library.  Oh well, the stupid pagebuilder is messing up and I cannot see what I am typing until I click out of the box So I am going to wrap this up with another plea for contributions! Do it now! It only takes a minute or two to put your thoughts down, and you will feel much better after you so so.

June 1, 2002

   GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR. I'm back. Why the hell do things like whats been going on here have to happen? I won't go into details because it is a private matter, but a friend of mine is going through some very difficult times. I wish I could help her more, but I can't. Oh well. Let's see, what else. Oh yes. Once again, the weather. After a crappy winter, once again, we enter a crappy summer. One day it is 35 degrees and snowing, the next the sun is out, and it is 95 freaking degrees. Why can't we have a decent, lengthy spring for once. Hell, I would even settle for a spring. Hmmm. Work sucks big fat hairy monkey balls as usual. People are freaks and the only reason some are alive is because it it illegal to shoot them. My life sucks... blah blah blah. Come on people, I am running out of things to say. You need to help me out here.

Grrrrrr. I am the only ranter left it seems.

May 1, 2002

  School School School, how I hate thee. Why do you have to be so difficult to all who go to you? I mean, for right now, the classes are not that bad, but then again, finals are next week, so my opinion is bound to change by then. But what I really want to rant about is next year. GRRRRRRR!!!!! I just tried to sign up for classes... and I actually managed to get into most of them. But not the one that I need. Sure, it is just french and was going to be an easy class since I had 4 years of it in hs, but nooooooo, all the classes are filled already. So now I have 12 credit hours scheduled for the fall, and I wanted 15 at least, but I can't find any good classes that I think I might be interested. You would think that with all the money I am paying to this damn school that they would at least have a decent schedule for me to choose from, dont you think? GRRRRR!!!

I am at school right now, again. GRRR.

March 2, 2002

Oh, whatever shall I rant about today? I mean, it has been soo long since my last one. I know, I'll rant about how I am currently feel. How is that you may ask? LIKE CRAP!!! I hate being sick. Sure, it is just a cold, and I dont even have a fever, but I still feel like crap. My nose hurts because it is all stuffy and runny and I have to keep blowing it, I am more tired than usual, and I am in la la land most of the time. But what makes it even worse is that I had to go to school and work today. uggg. And of course no one cares how I feel there. At least I didnt have to deal with one annoying person today because she didnt show up for class.

I feel like crap and so should you....  hyperkill

December 20,2001

What is it about me? Why am I so easily forgetten. Today was just another example of this. I was all set to go out with a friend. She said she would call me when she woke up.  Well, technically it is now tomorrow, and I still havent gotten that call. It always happens. I get my hopes up, and then who ever it is forgets about me. I just wish I knew why this is. But that is my life, and I have to live it.

Mike rants in self pity.

July 15, 2001

Laundromats. The devils creation. Strange topic huh? Now I dont personally use them. But a very good friend of mine does. And it so happens I was meeting her at one yesterday. Now I should mention that I went straight there from the cemetary where we finally buried my dads ashes. Anyway, she has had a very bad week already, but I wont get into that because it is kinda private. But about five minutes before I get there, she is rushing, and goes to get her laundry out of the washer. Mistake. The devil machine opens while it is still spinning, and twists her arm around. Well, I finally get there and she is almost crying she is in so much pain. We go to the doctors, and he says he thinks it is a sever sprain, but he needs to see her thursday to make sure. It is all the devils creations fault. But there is nothing I can do about it besides try to help her out. This sucks

Mike the ranter.

April 15, 2001

IGNFUGE IS A FREAKING RIP OFF SITE!!!!!!!!  Sure, they don't take money, but they do make false promises.  They promise to pay you for visiting their site.  You join up and all is fine.  You can even check the amount of money you have accumulated throughout the month.  BUT THEN, when it comes time to pay up, they convienently delete your account and say it never existed.  I wouldn't say this if it only happened to me, but it also happened to the person who refered me, a very good friend, whose birthday is today, so if you read this, HAPPY BIRTHDAY.  Anyway, this happened around the end of Februrary, but I havn't gotten a chance to update.  But now I have a chance.  I have toyed with the idea of making an Anti-ignfuge site, but I decided that would be too much work, so a rant should sufice.  But if you read this, spread the word!!

December 1, 2000

Akron people are stupid.....

Ok, we get 1 cm of snow and everyone flips out! They dont know how to drive
in snow.  All my friends seemed to have somewhere to go, but they were to
scared to drive. So huess what, I had to drive them around.Car accidents
everywhere and the roads are clear! Uh! Some one teach these people that 1 cm is not that bad!

Kiyoko, Queen of Flute

November 21, 2000

I just love this weather. Yes, I am back to the weather on the rant page.  The day after my birthday, ten after my dad dies, a total blizzard decides to rear its ugly head again.  All day it really isnt that bad.  That is, until after my english class which ended at 3:40.  My next class was at 5:45.  So I have to leave at about 5:10 so I wont be late.  Now, of course during that hour or so, it doesn't stop snowing.  The plows are afraid to come out..  So the roads are totally covered, and it is a white out.  And of course there is a ton of traffic, which makes it even harder to see.  Finally I get to college, sit down at my computer, and get ready for class.  I check my email, which for some reason I cant seem to get at home, and DAMN IT!!!!!!! the class is canceled.  Now I admit, this probably was my fault this time because I was stupid and didnt call school ahead to find out, like I had said I would last night.  So thats a new one.  I am ranting against myself.  Hope you enjoyed.

DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!! Mike is at school ritght now.  DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

October 27, 2000

I just looooove my life.  Not to mention my job.  I mean, If I am not at work, I am at school.  If I am not at school, I am at work.  And if I am not at either, then I am in bed sleeping.!! It is very rarely that I actually get a full day off, and then on that day, I usually am either loaded down with homework, or my parents have 20,000 jobs for me to do.  So you can imagine my surprise when I looked at the schedule at work a few weeks back and saw that I was going to have Saturday, Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday off of work!  Well, stupid me, I actually believed it.  So I am figuring I will slack off on doing my homework, since I will have a lot of time to do it.  Sure.  I go in today and someone quit, so say bye-bye to Sunday and Monday.  Luckly I am at school for like 12 hours on tuesday, so I still had that off, and I had to absolutly fight to keep Saturday off so I can cram the homework I was planning on doing over 4 days into one.  I was also going to try to go out and attempt to have a life, but that cannot be allowed.  However, I was amazed that last Friday, I had just such a chance.  I scheduled it off like a month in advance because I made plans to go to Six Flags with my friend. And I actually got to go!!  For like 2 Hours!!  Almost no rides were going, and they charged like $10 for a wristband to get into the haunted house(the wristband is only good for an hour, and the line was at least that long).  Well, after spending about a half hour trying to figure out what was still open, we wound up going to --- wait for it--- Wal Mart!!!!!  Oh well, I cant make this into a total rant.  That is because I actually got to see my friend who I hardly ever see anymore, and we had fun. Till next time, SEND ME SOMETHING, DAMN IT!!!

Mike (Dont make me hunt you down.  You wouldn't