| "That Night" ~Sara Montey~ I didn't want to do it... I told myself I wasn't going to give in... I thought I had my morals... I wanted to wait until I was in love... I wanted it to be special... I wanted it to mean something... He was persistent... Kept asking me like deep down he knew I'd cave... I was weak... I should've been stronger... How could I have even put myself in that situation? I knew what I was doing was wrong. But at the same time... It didn't matter... I didn't care if I did anything wrong... I had lost complete respect for myself... Why am I so weak? I give people whatever they want... At whatever expense to me... I need to grow stronger... But not for anyone else... For me... I know I will never get back What I lost that night... But I hope to gain back the respect for myself That I lost somewhere along the way. |