| "Relieving the Pain" ~Sara Montey~ I cut to relieve the pain The pain caused By so much more Than a knife The pain caused By years of suffering And self hatred The pain caused By guilt and shame Sometimes this pain Is so unbearable It's almost as if I'm living In a different world Everything surrounding me Is so unreal I cut to know I'm alive I know my heart Must be beating By watching the blood Trickle down my body I leave my mark My mark of pain To show the world How I feel I cut to cry To feel alive Sometimes I cut To stop my cries The physical pain Erases my emotional distress I don't cut Because I want to die But rather the opposite I cut To stay alive So I don't disappear Inside myself |