| "I Don't Want This" ~Sara Montey~ I need to let go... Everything in my life has become so unreal. It's all fake... A complete blur. I tell myself I'm happy... But I'm not... Not really... I've having fun...indeed. But at what expense...whose expense? Myself included... I don't even know who I am anymore... I've become the devil's puppet. I act before I even think it over... I know the things I do are wrong... It's so easy to just go with the current... I've fallen in this trap... I've become the person I never thought I could be... I'm rotting away... And I'm still alive... More like existing... For I am not really living life to its fullest. I've found my comfort zone... But I need to get out. It's eating away at my soul. The one thing I need to protect... And it's like it is being attacked... Attacked by all the bad decisions I have made. |