We left prom after getting pictures taken and a couple of songs. Long before this I had figured out that I didn't like Travis, and I would unintentionally ignore him. Well, Britney remembered that she had to pick up her friend Aaron, who is a sophmore and couldn't go to prom, so he could "party" with us. We did so, and went looking for a friend of a friend's party. We couldn't find it, and Britney was getting mad at Brennen because she thought that he was hitting on me, so she drove to one of her favorite spots in town, which is a park with a pond. She and I went off by ourselves, and were talking and crying (her crying made me feel so terrible...) when the guys came over. Brennen drug Britney off to talk, and Travis and I talked. I apologized for ignoring him, and told him that there was nothing against him, but... (I didn't actually come out and say that I didn't like him, although I should have, goddamnit...) We called Aaron over because he had no one to talk to, and Aaron and I began comparing our mothers to see which is the worse one (I still don't know who won...) and we "bonded" over that. Britney wanted to go to a different park, so we all got into her Jeep thing and drove across town to the other park, with a quick pit stop at Travis's because he wanted to get beer (he had been saying how he was going to get drunk off his ass). So Brit, Brennen and Travis were drinking their beers (and Aaron's and mine because we couldn't bring ourselves to drink it) while Aaron and I were making out. We got to the other park, went down the big curly slide (four of us went down it at the same damn time) and then the guys were playing on the merry-go-round while Britney was sprawled across my lap. Aaron and I apologized to Travis, wo then went off with Britney to talk a bit, and Travis realized that he didn't have his keys; he had dropped them at the other park. We hopped back in the vehicle, drove back to the other park, got out to find his keys, found them, and lo and behold! Travis runs off back to Britney's to get his car and drives off. We looked for him for over half an hour before we gave up because we had to take Brennen home. Afterwards, we went to Britney's friend Lacie's, where we were until Meg, Travis's older sister, came and started yelling at everyone because Travis got drunk. Britney and I left, and went back to her house where I stayed the night. Yay.
I'm going to see Embodyment on June 29th, goddamnit! Adam--I hope you're there! I wanna see you again! -hugs her Burn Out- He's awesome. I don't know why I'm writing this as if he's reading it... it's not like he even knows that this site exists! If you're from my area you should go see Embodyment because they put on a great show. The lead singer is awesome too. Miranda!! You have to go!! You're my Foxtown concert buddy! But yeah. Go if you can.
May 20 - J-Dub, I fucking told you! I KNEW he wouldn't do it! I fucking knew!!!! He's a fucking liar!! He does it all the time! "I'm grounded and I have to to straight home." Right, Matt. Right. But you can still give Shelli a ride home. You told me you'd give me a ride, but you didn't. It's not like it's out of your way! Bastard. JW, didn't I tell you? You saw how long it took him to come around the first time. I guess I just got my hopes up. Why do I tolerate it?! Why?! FUCKING WHY?! It hurts. I'm always second best... and sometimes not even that. I'm never treated like a human being who has feelings. As much as I like Shelli (she's sweet, nice, funny), I'm so unbelievably sick of how he treats me when she's around. Even you do it, J-Dub. I hate to say it, but you do. The world stops for you both when she enters the room. If I wanted to get ignored, I would go to Algebra 2 class, where Dodson is so absorbed in basketball plays that he doesn't bother to pay attention to other people or teach. That's how it feels. Maybe I'm jealous. I think I am. But I have feelings! Don't they count? Evidently not. Bastard.