Crimson Moon, Ltd. Spanking Party, July 24, 25, 26, 2003 Written By Huh Chuh, A Female Switch. Hello, Thank you for the great party Vince, Kerrie, Jon, Nanci, and the other fellow named Judge ButtBurner, I think. :P Thank you Mike. I'm still curious about your razor strop. Thank you for interacting with hotels and the mishospitality industry as a whole to provide me and us with a safe place to spank freely. Any place where a person is allowed to bare their bottom and have it spanked is special. Thank you for providing such a space for us. My own personal reactions to this latest party run to extremes due to a basic change of fantasies resulting in some simple inner turmoil. At this one year mark into the spanking and BDSM scene, I hope to share my reactions to spanking as a whole with you as well as a post party/scene report. On a side note, my commentary style is affected by recently listening to biographical and historical recordings regarding Tiger Woods and jazz music. I attended this event for about 2 hours Thursday night (24th), almost all of Friday (25th), all of Saturday (26th), until Sunday afternoon (27th). At the party, I found myself filled with a restless energy of desire gone wild. Things which once satisfied; no longer satiate me. I want to orchestrate my desires and needs more intentionally instead of swaying in the winds of emotions, activities, and reactions. I want good feelings of happiness and security. In order to gain these, I must allow myself the pleasure of thinking happy thoughts (which it is easy to forget to do when busy with life). I enjoyed role playing intentionally this last weekend. We giggled and laughed and enjoyed the scene of student and Dean. I felt relaxed into the role of student. I love the giggles of a high during a spanking. Simple social protocols perplex me at times. I like who I am, most of the time. Is it alright that I'm rude sometimes? Does a person need to always be polite? And how does one honor one's own emotions and still maintain politeness? I suppose I know the answer to most of these questions, yet I still wonder at times about these simple things. I loved seeing and meeting everyone. I loved talking with especially women this weekend. I learned about myself and feel as if I'm growing positively due to exposure to this group of individuals and spanking. There were lots of swats and court and snacks. Thank you Maria and Nanci and Kerri and Mike and Jon and Vince and everyone for the good food this weekend. Thank you all for keeping the main rooms clean by picking up after yourselves and others. Happy Birthday to Kerrie, Yoni, Lynndy, Mandy, and one more at least who's name I've forgotten for now (sorry). Happy happy Birthday Spanks for All! :) Thank you for treating people with kindness. I appreciate this. I enjoyed standing up in court and throwing myself into the role of the accused and admitting that I was guilty of bratting the folks by the pool from our room window upstairs. I stuck my tongue out at them and waggled my fingers near my ears. Wow. I had forgotten how much fun I had had doing this. I didn't expect that anyone would notice me. I enjoyed swimming with Lisa, Tanya, Nanci, Sassy Lady, Lynndy, and all. It's amazing to learn about the guts of a person, about pieces of what makes a person go and how they think. Each person is different and unique and beautiful. It's funny how it's easier to see others than it is to see me. It's fun to observe the outer and inner beauty of a person. I wore out my arms and cheeks at this party. I was pooped both Friday and Saturday nights, but didn't want to sleep. I stayed up way too late wandering about and keeping myself awake. I did most of my spanking on Friday and dwindled down to nothing on Saturday night and Sunday morning and day. There was another role play that I did where I was a child-adult who didn't want to be spanked yet was spanked warmly. I enjoyed it thoroughly. Oh! I got to try this portable spanking horse equipment that was fun. I like spanking equipment. Thanks for that experience! I'd read about such equipment and wondered how it felt to interact with equipment and spanking. Very nice. This weekend, I found that the most effective spankings engaged my brain before they engaged my bottom. Those spankings which failed to engage my brain in one way or another, bored me because the spanking sensations felt either too sharp or too dull. My brain gets in the way of my pleasure. Does this happen to anyone else out there too? I enjoyed sensation play with Princess Gail who most kindly allowed me a turn over her knee. Thank you Princess. :) Oh, and wow. I remembered another good scene with two women topping me and all sorts of sensations attacking my bottom and my brain was fully engaged and wondering and never knowing what would happen next. Wow. That was sooo much fun! Thank you for spanking me. That was amazing. By the end of the weekend, I was one grumpy tired little girl. My bottom was sore and my arms hurt. I couldn't remember anything good except for worries that were to come during the next week. I felt scared about future events. It's hard to be comforted when I'm afraid and worried from the inside out. I drove my friends a little nutty with my behavior that day. Sorry. I'm more rested and more woman now than I am little girl. It's neat how I as a woman can be little girl, lady, and woman simultaneously. It's fun, most of the time. About post party depression, I wonder if Hungry, Angry, Lonely, and Tired (HALT); play a large role in that drop in mood and emotion after a party. Quite often after a party, I am hungry, lonely, and tired. Sometimes I am angry too. So, perhaps, the drop in mood and emotion is natural after such a spanking high. Sort of like eating a lot of sugar at once and then experiencing the free fall of emotions and (sometimes) tears afterwards. That's about it for now. Huh Chuh, A Female Switch.