| Journal Entry March 25, 2001 12:18am Written by; Heather Lynn Stone [email protected] |
| Never have I been faced with a decision as difficult and overwhelming as the decision forced upon me today! I am being torn between the two most important people in my life and it is absolutely killing me inside. I am lost in so many ways and I can't seem to find a way out. I've always had a way out but now I don't even know the first place to look for a release or way to come to a conclusion. I've always loved having something going on in my life to spice things up or give every day a meaning. But now I don't feel that way. I wish this confusion would disappear and somehow I could find my way back to a simple life but we all know that what we ask for is rarely what we get. Therefor I have to try and deal with this on my own. Only I can choose between the old or new and god only knows which is the right choice. The choice that will set me free form this guilt, sorrow and pain that is slowly creeping up on me. I need to catch it and do something about it before it eats me alive. I just wish I knew how. But who knows anything anymore?! "Goodnight, good night. Parting in such sweet sorrow that I shall say "good night" till it be morrow" Romeo and Juliet |