| -My head spins almost as consistantly as the Earth spins. The seconds tick away as I make each innocent penstroke, one moment bleeding into the next. Life confuses me as it does everyone, but love is a whole different matter. Following no guidelines, it carries us over hills and valleys using our instincts as its compass. Through this method of path creation, we hold complete control, but also posess none. it is chance that allows us to either have intents that coincide with those whom spark our genuine ineterest, or more times than not, causes a conflict of intentions. We are all, if 100% human or even 90% human, searching for the same thing, the same resting place. Our roads differ, our means differ and our preferences as well do differ but our destination will almost always be the same; happiness through understanding and intimacy. As each moment passes on to the next expereinces change, and we come closer to that moment where everything seems right. Time can definitely be dangerous of not dealt with appropriately, but when given the right amount for reflection and to encounter life, we come closer to self realization and the realization of how we would essentially like to sculpt our futures. I enjoy these encounters, because some rarely are given the opportunity to take part in them. Through deception, miscommunication and pain along with happiness, closeness and trust I am growing through this everchanging state, and Im grateful for it all. Im becoming more aware with the realities I'm presented with, and I'm learning to deal with them more consciously. I think, or even more so hope the pain will never out do the mind. Im staying strong to the end. until then, the seasons will circulate as will my experiences. I will always love as if I've never felt pain before, and live like Ive never lived before. Thats the key to ultimate happiness. |