One is born with a certain destiny

And one takes that destiny in hand

To walk the roads of life.

Strengthened by that knowledge,

One never tires and with every step thinks –

What are a couple more steps?

At the end one will find light,

One will find happiness,

One will find love.

Those jewels are the ones

Which light the consuming darkness. 

But somewhere along the path

My feet begin to tire.

That same hope that had allowed me

To take one step at a time

Now begins to fade…

I sit to rest and attempt to regain strength.

Soon I find my sanity has left me

I see those around me calmly passing me….

Content with that which was destined for them.

I realize there is something lacking in my life

And I vainly try to find what that one thing is.

Familiar faces lend no relief,

For they come and go

Yet never linger long enough to lend any support.

Losing the willpower to keep trying,

I close my weary eyes.

But even in my land of dreams

Those memories that I had locked away inside

Return to haunt my soul,

Threatening to take away the hope and light in my life.

I open my eyes and realize

That everyone has move ahead

And I am left behind. 

I look behind me and see only darkness.

I look ahead of me and again,

I only see darkness.

I realize what it feels like to be alone.

In my solitude,

The love that I harbor inside

Brings all the faces to mind

Who at one time formed the circle of my existence.

In these faces I had seen hope.

In these souls I had placed my trust.

In these hearts I had placed my happiness.

I call out into the darkness

Hoping someone may still be there.

I wait for some faint reply,

But there is none –

Only silence.

 

 

It is said that if the heavens will light,

Then the lights will burn even in the stormiest of skies.

Perhaps the heavens willed otherwise for me.