Juanita.
A male friend of mine introduced me to her...but not exactly. He kind of sent her my life story by email without telling me he was doing so...i mean not that i minded her reading it but damn he coulda let a sista know he was sending out my info and shit..but that's beside the point. He had casually mentioned to me that she was bisexual but i think i had forgotten about it (imagine that)..plus despite what some may think, i don't try to push up on EVERY chick that i find out is gay...ok maybe every OTHER one :-) But still. I wasn't checking for her.
i think we cyber-flirted a little..like i really wasn't paying that much attention...after a while we exhanged numbers and i don't remember who called who but we ended up on the phone one day...it hit me like a brick.
Wow.
Her voice.
Sexy as fuck...not like Jessica Rabbit/Marilyn Monroe breathy sexy...but that cute little voice..high pitched..almost innocent but still womanly. That i-have-no-idea-my-voice-is-sexy kinda sexy voice. THAT'S when i started checking for her.
so you know...i tried to throw my thang on her...i started flirting a little more. I kept it subtle cuz you know..she lives on the west coast and shit. (oops..guess i forgot to mention that part)...but she's from this area so i figured she had to come home sometime. Sure enough she tells me she's coming to town for her birthday and that she's staying with her best friend. I was like cool, let's hang out one night...well that one night turned into only 1 hour AND her friends were there the whole time...but at least i got to see her:
She was tall...bright eyes, pretty Colgate smile. long brown locs with sunlight trapped in them..we met up at some club and she came outside to get me so i'd know it was her...i just grabbed her and hugged her...said in her ear, "You are sooooo beautiful!"...in hindsight, i wish i'd have held on to that hug for just a bit longer...or knew somehow that i should have inhaled to see what she smelled like...or that i should have touched her hair or the back of her neck or SOMETHING...it happened so fast and was over just as quickly.
But i'm jumping ahead.
We sat there for a while listening to wack poetry..expect for the old white dude who talked black and had a duck who was online too much (long story and this ain't the damn Duck Chronicles anyway)...we chuckled and sipped at the bar..at one point I got down off the stool and turned around to fake-fiddle with something in my bag so she could see the tight pants i put on just for her...i was hoping i got checked out (later she told me she did)
*ok y'all...coming up is the part where i fucked up. see if you can spot it*
It's like 1130pm and its time to go...
Me: So why don't we all go somewhere else and have a drink?
Juanita: yeah sounds like fun!
Friend: Nah i really wanna head home...
Juanita: I'm staying with her so i should go too...
(i turned to Juanita...)
Me: Well you could let her and her man go home and we hang out for a while...
Juanita: Yeah but then i'd have to go all the way uptown on the train by myself late...
Me (with a fucking car sitting right outside and my lazy ass on the barstool): yeah...ok then i guess i'll catch up with you next time...
Cut!!!
Now somebody tell me why my dumbass didn't offer to just drive her home later? Gotdammitt!!!
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Juanita is back home on the West coast....but after seeing her that night, everything has changed...i really don't know how it happened but somewhere between talking on IM everyday at work and calling each other more and more frequently (damn near every night now), we actually have grown to REALLY care about each other. Its like to the point where i'm about to fly out there next month and see her....i need to find out what this is that's growing between us cuz it ain't no joke. I spend alot of time thinking about her..if i'm out i can't wait to get home to call her...once i walk in the door, i'm checking the clock, figuring the time difference and thinking damn should i call now?
Its amazing how similar we are in so many ways..both sappy romantic and sensitive...both love Maxwell and MJ (not the basketball one)...i hate to use a cliche but we just really "feel" each other...like i know the sex is gonna be really intense when i go out there..i'm almost afraid to feel that intensity again. I had forgotten what it was like to have a woman be very interested in me and treat me like i'm special..it feels sooooo great. Like she gets so excited when i leave messages for her or tell her i'm gonna call. Its so gotdamned cute!
There's only one wrinkle. I'm kinda in competition with 2 other guys..one I know! Yikes!!! Ok well she's talking to them too...none of us 'have' her but hey she's single and dating and i can't blame her...one dude is in the midwest...this is like a bad episode of the Dating Game:
Juanita: Bachelorette #2: If you could take me on an exotic date, where would it be?
Me: Uh, Never Never Land?
Midwest Dude: That is wack!! Who wants to go on at date at Wacko Jacko's house?
NY Dude: YEAH!!
*shuddering*
Back to reality...so in the meantime, NY Dude is TRIPPING..on some oh you should back off cuz i was talking to her first shit...i was like yo, i didn't know you were talking to her so its too damn late now and no I ain't backing off cuz i really like this woman alot and besides i know she wouldn't want me to back off anyway...i mean i know its mad uncomortable for dude cuz he and i are cool and shit but damn....no. sorry. no haps. I haven't had a beautiful woman really digging me like this in a long ass time...
*rolling eyes*
Anyway...Juanita. Wow. All i know is, March can't get here soon enough. *sigh*