3 years ago--today
my life was changed

Take all of this upon yourself
tucked in, wrapped so tightly
within this heinous blame
Take your seasoned hands
cover my eyes
through the cracks in your fingers
rushes vapid light
and leaves so many splinters
upon memories of the night

you gripped me with all of your might

violation leaked through

my veins agelessly polluted,
with the likes of you,
your incurable contagion.
shame becomes me

acid left
by your touch
bites through my skin
leaves bones to rust

All of this I do not want to recollect

tears that leave hell to cry
black, all over, bruised
fucked up, destroyed, sullen
because of you

screaming until they hear me
must break the silence and shatter ears of the deaf
eternal beloved silence
nothing new

wasted away

I will grant you death
hang you by my odium noose
choke, cough up your blood
drink it out of me

pain will outlive you

3 years ago--today
my life was changed