one time...
i closed my eyes
one time...
i hid my fave as i slowly cried
once before...
i was behind a closed door
once again...
i wish the pain would end

it seems as if nothing goes right
it seems as if this struggle is an unwinnable fight
it seems like i will always be sad
why is it that my life is so bad>

what's wrong with me?
what causes people not to care?
what is it that i've done wrong?
lie and unused building
i am always torn down

i wish i knew
would someone please explain why?
is something wrong with me?
would people care if i just disappeared?

would people miss me?
if i were to die, would people cry?
would someone mourn?
or would it not matter...
would a substitute be born?

who can answer that?
who really knows?
it doesn't matter either way
i am still alive and i am still alone

death would not help me either
nor would it even enter my thoughts
out there somewhere is a person that understands
maybe then, i would not be on my own

i know it's not true
but maybe there is no hope
if that was the case...
then that is exactly with what i must cope

so alone i stand...
no one by my side
only friends that pretend
i beg for the pain to end