Why?

I sit here and ask God why me?
Am I being worse then he or she?
Why do I endure so much pain?
Why does everything drive me insane?
Why can't I act like a normal guy?
Why can't I hurry up and die?
Why does my heart always get broken?
Why aren't there any good words I've spoken?
Why give me life when I want to be dead?
Why can't you get someone to shoot my head?
Why can't you kill me off on this day?
Why do you make me stay?
Why can no one understand my thoughts?
Why can't I be taking tequila shots?
Why am I depressed all of the time?
Why do I feel like a rotten slime?
Why is lonliness my true best friend?
Why can't my life just see The End?