I wanted  

I wanted to laugh, but I was too sad,
I wanted to smile, but I felt too bad,
I wanted to apologize, but I had too much pride,
I wanted to be strong, but I hurt so much I cried,
I wanted to be dead, but I still live this life,
I wanted to be free, but I recieved more strife,
I wanted satisfaction, but I only got more pain,
I wanted happiness, but there's nothing to gain,
I wanted love, but all I got was a broken heart,
I wanted to stay together, but I had to part,
I wanted to have faith, but I always kept a worry,
I wanted to go slow, but I am now in a hurry,
I wanted to keep quiet, but I just had to tell,
I wanted to go to Heaven, but I will burn in Hell,
I wanted to keep that hope, but I had a fear,
I wanted us together, but I didn't live near,
I wanted to live there, but just visited the town,
I wanted to have joy, but just got more down,
I wanted an acquaintance, but have not a friend,
I wanted a family, but I will soon see The End!