Broken Hearted 

I sit here thinking while broken hearted,
Wondering if Karen will finsh, what others started,
Killing my heart, and killing my soul,
Leaving me nothing by taking my all,
Burned and scarred, yet it isn't the same,
Like being dumped and left in shame,
I feel like a computer, and my mind being hacked,
Showing how I have felt I have always lacked,
I have been trying to do a lot of changing,
In turn, my life has been frequently rearranging,
My true self, I fear I have lost,
I realized that true love, really does cost,
I now have figured out love, I will not find,
Though, it won't stop me from being so kind,
I am going back to the way I was, kinda shy,
I'll be different, unless I realize who am I?,
In the past two years, I became such a flirt,
Which has caused me, and maybe others, some hurt,
Lower than dirt, its how I have always felt,
I wish I would have had a different hand dealt,
Will I be like this until I see the end?
My farewell, will I soon enough send?