Apologize (My apology for my suicide)

To all of my friends I want to apologize first,
I hated the way my love life was cursed,
My second apology goes to all the rest,
I am so sorry to everyone for being such a pest,
I wasn't strong enough, I let life defeat me,
I hated the way some people would treat me,
I lived and died the way I was born,
I felt so alone, so not one person should mourn,
As I burn in Hell, I will remember the good times,
All the fun, friendship, and even the crimes,
I want you to rejoice, and stop the tears,
As I grew I obtained more and more fears,
I tried to be strong, but wasn't tough enough,
My life was a puzzle, everyone knowing different stuff,
"This is all about me", "Eternally Tired," "Why life,"
"Why I'm dying," "I wanted," and of course "Why"
These are the poems that describe me the most,
It is said sad people that die, turn into a ghost,
So maybe I might stop to see you, and say "hi,"
I didn't want to be stopped, so I never said bye,
I am so sorry everybody, Thanx for being my friend,
I guess this is goodbye, for my life has hit The End!