| Drinking and My mind |
| As I sit here drinking my life away, Thinking of the date of Judgement Day, Will it be soon or will it be later? By then will I have completed my fate? Will I be famous, or will I be rich? Or will I just be another insignifcant bitch? As I sat there with him on the bed, I knew, at this rate, in a couple years, he'd be dead, And wondering what was going through his head, Realizing how very little he had said, A couple days later me moved out, Leaving his mom, so she could pout, Then I wanted to move out for a different reason, But I wouldn't move out til that next season, My most recent poem that I am writing, Wondering why the world is always fighting, I was always told that its' better late than never, So I guess this is it for now, but not Forever! |
| My Farewell (Suicide note) |
| This is my farewell to this horrible world, Llife was like a baton, continuously being twirled, It was way too confusing for someone like me, I guess me getting love wasn't meant to be, By the time you readin I will probably be dead, I hope you remember all the good things I said, I had love to give, but no one to recieve, I had more pain than you could ever believe, While you read this I will be burning in hell, I had secrets about me, I could never tell, I didn't get enough love to keep me from dying, Before I died my insides were always crying, I will never know if you all miss me, There wasn't one girl that would even kiss me, To my friends, my family, and all the rest, It wasn't your fault you were all the best, I just needed a girl that would love me back, Showing my feeling I would always lack, I wanted to touch lives but don't know if I did, To my family and friends, Farewell I bid, I hope now all your hearts will mend, You all have seen my life finally hit The End! |
| I wanted |
| To all of my friends I want to apologize first, I hated the way my love life was cursed, My second apology goes to all the rest, I am so sorry to everyone for being such a pest, I wasn't strong enough, I let life defeat me, I hated the way some people would treat me, I lived and died the way I was born, I felt so alone, so not one person should mourn, As I burn in Hell, I will remember the good times, All the fun, friendship, and even the crimes, I want you to rejoice, and stop the tears, As I grew I obtained more and more fears, I tried to be strong, but wasn't tough enough, My life was a puzzle, everyone knowing different stuff, "This is all about me", "Eternally Tired," "Why life," "Why I'm dying," "I wanted," and of course "Why" These are the poems that describe me the most, It is said sad people that die, turn into a ghost, So maybe I might stop to see you, and say "hi," I didn't want to be stopped, so I never said bye, I am so sorry everybody, Thanx for being my friend, I guess this is goodbye, for my life has hit The End! |
| Apologize (My apology for my suicide) |
| I wanted to laugh, but I was too sad, I wanted to smile, but I felt too bad, I wanted to apologize, but I had too much pride, I wanted to be strong, but I hurt so much I cried, I wanted to be dead, but I still live this life, I wanted to be free, but I recieved more strife, I wanted satisfaction, but I only got more pain, I wanted happiness, but there's nothing to gain, I wanted love, but all I got was a broken heart, I wanted to stay together, but I had to part, I wanted to have faith, but I always kept a worry, I wanted to go slow, but I am now in a hurry, I wanted to keep quiet, but I just had to tell, I wanted to go to Heaven, but I will burn in Hell, I wanted to keep that hope, but I had a fear, I wanted us together, but I didn't live near, I wanted to live there, but just visited the town, I wanted to have joy, but just got more down, I wanted an acquaintance, but have not a friend, I wanted a family, but I will soon see The End! |
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