5.28.2004
Before I ramble on about anything in particular, I shall attempt to update you on any information about this site. I am going through the process of updating it, if you haven�t noticed the little �website editing� meter on the front page. A website is hard work, and with under 20 minutes of internet time a weekday, it�s very difficult to work this thing. Mainly I�m fixing the stuff that I already have up before I put new and better stuff up. Sound cool? Thought so.
Since I haven�t written since I started high school, maybe I should ramble on about that. High school is nothing what I thought is was going to be. Cheerleader�s controlling the mass population, jocks beating up people left and right, and tremendous peer pressure are just a few of the things that were no where to be found, at least in my world. It�s crazy, I can be as much as a loser as I want, and no one beats me up or makes fun of me. I don�t see what people�s big deals are. But I have noticed some things�
Guys. They are the most desperate, most stupid, most pervert freaks alive. And girls, they are the most catty and vindictive bitches alive. So what about me? I don�t know where to place my self. I�m not a guy, that�s for sure, but the way guys are able to be friends without fights, I have that going for me. I have not gotten into a single fight ever with any of my friends. And girls, well it�s kind of obvious I am one, without the emotional baggage attached. I suppose I have my own category, unable to place me in any group. Which is good, because if I�m not placed in a group, nobody can stereotype me.
Let me speak now of the guys at my school. There isn�t a single hot guy in all the four grades at my school. Not ONE! And next year, there will only be 3 classes to chose from because I refuse to go out with a lower classman. I can�t believe that there isn�t a single guy there that looks like Justin Berfield!(AKA: Reese off of Malcolm in the Middle) Next they are perverted and desperate. I group those two descriptionary words together, usually since if they are desperate, they are even more perverted than they normally would be. And all of a sudden guys that I�ve never seen before or I don�t even know their names start waving to me, saying �what�s up� with that high five thing, and just all out talking to me like I KNOW them! And I DON�T! And the only guy that I actually would get with is so STUPID because he doesn�t realize that we have everything in common and get along so well, and that�s more important to me than looks, and it�s not like I haven�t given him any chances either. All I know love is not for me, hence I never had a boyfriend. And that�s fine by me.
Alas the girls. My friend�s are cool, since I picked people like me: don�t like fights, down to earth, like anime, and never had boyfriends. The rest are just horrible to each other. Take today for instance. There�s this girl on my bus, I sort of know her, she gets on at my bus stop so I sort of hang out with her. Sort of as in not that much and I don�t really talk to her. But other than her I�m alone, which doesn�t bother me, except when this guy talks to me, which then I like having her there. Another girl that gets on at the 2nd bus stop and this one guy were being jerks to her ((which I don�t think that�s how friends should treat each other)) so my friend got pissed. Her pissed-ness just grew and grew and today it exploded, and of course all the guys from the bus were there to egg her on. I got out of there, I don�t want to get in trouble! Whatever, I�m just saying let�s just have some love and peace people. Love and peace. More peace than love. Love sucks. It should be more like respect. Respect and peace.
I promise I will try to work on this site more!
-Holly Fine
You know what, the last newsletter I wrote was over an year ago! Talk about really getting behind, eh?
