[FOCUS AND PERSPECTIVE] [HOLISTIC
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This month, we
take the perspective of distance to confront some of the shadows we carry
within. As each month, this is a reading meditation. As you read, there is a
re-wiring, an awareness, a going within. Read to yourself, tape the meditation,
and perhaps add music of your choice.
Thank you for
sharing this journey!
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�What If�, �What Did� - and �What Is�
The traveler comes
to a fork on the path.
The fork on the
left says �What If ��
The one on the
right is marked, �What Did�
The traveler wonders : Which one should I take? The one
about possibilities or the one about what has really happened?
What if I take
the one on the left? Will I be able to come back and take the one on the right?
And vice versa? Is what I do a one-way street, or is
there a coming back?
Is �What If� a
quagmire that is difficult to extricate myself from?
On a whim, or
perhaps feeling strong, the traveler decids to take
the path marked �What If�
Sit back, take
deep cleansing breaths, and read on. The deeper you can go into relaxation, the
deeper will be the meditation. As you read, there is a shift, a rewiring, and
voila! Possibilities, probabilities and phenomena will all collide.
As you take in
a deep breath, and take it out, say aloud if you can, or silently:
I breathe in
light, I breathe out doubt
I breathe in
light, I breathe out worry
I breathe in
light, I breathe out anxiety
And then take
the light breath:
I breathe in
light, I breathe out light.
I am surrounded
by my guides and guardians - �protected, cosseted, cherished.
One with the
ray of luminescent light, you travel in a soft, plush cushion. You recline in
luxury and decide to journey to the land of �What If ��
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As you drift
into a comfortable slumber, you see a moving panorama of the �what ifs� that
you have harbored in your life. Keeping with the light, the passing stream of
thought seems disconnected from you, and you look at it with gentle interest,
but no sense of ownership. Not my thoughts, but the thoughts of that shadow who is traveling that stream that I am looking at.
The shadow says: What if I lose everything I have built
up?
What if something happens that I have not foreseen? There
is so much that happens in life that we cannot plan for. I could lose my home,
my friends, my job, my life. Shouldn�t I be prepared for that? If I am taken
unawares, won�t I feel like a failure?
You find yourself answering the shadow: There have been
losses in my life, but I am not lost. There have been times when I have come
close to the brink, feeling that I am in a dangerous place. But I am still
here, hearing the tinkling laughter of my guides, their sure, gentle direction.
How strong I feel, knowing that I have overcome those troubles. Yes, my ego has
taken a beating, but somehow I can sense that deep, inner strength!
The shadow says: what if I can�t deal with a problem? What
about the time when I felt so frustrated, not being able to fight back? What if
that happens again? That�s humiliating.
You answer: True! It is a horrible experience. Not easy to
see the light in that situation. Ask your guides for their guidance. �What really bothers you � the other person�s action,
or your own inaction? The guides can give you tools to handle each situation. Somehow,
when I focus on the light, I find that it is not tarnished by these events. It
is still clear and bright!
The shadow asks: what if I lose control? Remember the
time when I really failed? I know I didn�t act my best. But I just couldn�t
help myself. What if that happens again? What if I am even worse next time?
You find yourself answering, striving to stay in the light: many
mistakes have been made. That keeps me from feeling arrogant about myself in relation
to others. �When I forgive myself, it
helps me to forgive others. Sometimes when I am hard on myself, the mistakes of
others help me to be kinder to myself! Maybe that�s why we all live together,
to learn from each other?
The shadow says: what if I never realize my dreams? I
will feel that I am a failure.
You reply: when will you pause to see which dream has been realized?
When you reach college? When you land your first job? When you get married?
When you buy a house? When will you tell yourself: now I have made it. I think of the times I have spent wanting something.
When I get it, I don�t spend time enjoying it, being thankful for it. I just go
on to the next thing that I want! But sometimes, I remember: be thankful. Stay
happy. Enjoy. And when I do, I feel so good! There is no self-doubt at that
time! Maybe I need to think of all the things that I am thankful for. Maybe I
need to focus on the dreams that I have realized. I need to honor them more.
The shadow says: what if I am very successful? People
will envy me. How will I deal with that?
You laugh: ask your guides! Define now, what you mean by success . and yes- enjoy each step
of the way.
The shadow joins in, laughing, and disappears. When we are
scared, how many �What Ifs�� �can pop up! �When a �What If �� �pops up, how scared we are! Each �What If�� �and its opposite can scare us: �What if I am
successful� is as scary as �What if I am not�!�
They�re really two sides of the �same anxiety: What if I don�t get what
I want?
�What If �� �is the path of
fear. It can be a region of hope if the traveler is in awareness of the
boundless possibilities.
There is a moment of epiphany. The traveler realizes that a part of the
journey is over. Both forks have converged into one path.
The fork in the
path leads not to two separate events, but to the same place, where two events
co-exist in time and space. That beautiful fork allowed me to watch my shadow
self, heal it, re-absorb, and heal : become whole. The
shadow in the land of �What If��� and I in the land of "What Did", have merged.
This is the reality of "What Is". And the path
towards healing goes on.
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Take a moment
to feel that inner strength that point of light within, that never wavers in
its brightness.
When you are
ready, slowly stretch, prepare for the land of action, and go about your day.