sometimes i wonder if im going to be waiting for the rest of my life
i spend so much time being depressed
being alone
every time i see someone hugging
or kissing
it hurts

and every time i see a pretty girl
i get so wrecklessly jealous
sometimes i just want to hurt myself so bad
so i can forget the pain

its so hard to find strength these days
so hard to keep trudging through the mire
but i will keep on
for now, i will keep on

after all
one who thought she was so ugly and so alone
is now married
i cant give up yet

not yet

12:52am 12-21-04 Erin Roberts