thanksgiving
alone
at home
at a place that is not my home

watching star trek
wasting money online
i have plenty of time
to not say goodbye

and everything is not ok
things like family just seem to fade
now
no one is thankful
everyone just wants MORE for themself

dragging eachother through the mud
thank you, i learned that i cant trust you
ends justify means, no longer is there 'good'
thank you, i learned that im self-destructive

i feel quite lonely
despite the fact that i saw my lover for the first
time in over a month for about thirty minutes yesterday

call it ungrateful if you will
sometimes i feel like trying my best
and sometimes i dont

happy thanksgiving
to all the loving couples that can be together whenever you want-
i hope you dont take it for granted

thank you
i'll try to come home soon

7:28pm 11-26-04 Erin Roberts