well if you used to be a christian
then you never was
but i still dont know if im going to heaven
and i guess its just because
i still dont know for a fact
that Jesus died for me
part of me notices how much humans love a good fantasy

you hide from truth
whistle in the dark
there is no light that comes to save my blackened heart

well i was taught from a child who was on the throne
but i never realized
i'd grow up to feel so alone
and i guess its just because
i am still so full of sin
but i reallly dont know
where sin ends and uniqueness begins

i search for answers
i dont know where to start
the disparity in knowledge and truth is tearing me apart

they'll never see
i'll never be
i'll never live the life
or love you good
enough to make you all happy


2:40am 11-20-04 Erin Roberts