im supposed to grow up and be a family man
im supposed to not ever want to be feminine
im supposed to learn to control my rage
im supposed to always try to act my age
im supposed to be grateful for my sisters and mom and dad
and when they hurt my feelings im supposed to not feel bad
im supposed to not like ska, its gone out of style
im supposed to not like you, or be enchanted by your smile
im supposed to fit in, yet still try to be unique
and i have to know what to say when im supposed to speak
im supposed to get a good job and be comfortable
and try to forget those who make their homes in the rubble

supposed to?
ive failed
im sorry
but im not

supposed to?
i dont think so
im not worried
a deviant

id rather spend my nights playing pokemon
id rather make hot dogs and draw hearts with crayons
id rather write letters to you when we cant be together
id rather get married and hold onto you forever

4:47PM 10-29-04 Erin Roberts