always soemthing to complain about
this time im not bleeding to death
its about my appearance again
i dont know why i want to wear a dress

and i dont know why i want to have breasts
but everything is going in the opposite direction at the moment

im sure i can try to take steps to change
but i have no self-control
i try
but i have so many other things to do

i guess im still learning
how to take care of myself
maybe someday i'll know
i'll never be complete in this life though
i guess i should learn to accept that

12:25am 1-25-04