this is the latest ive stayed up since the first night
and i dont know but it just doesnt feel right
ive sighted things i should have never seen
and the lightning rod is still a bit too close to me

the clock ticks by
and i dont know just why i wont move
ive always known inside
that it would behoove

am i stubborn?
or lazy?
or just too damn crazy?
what is it with sex and my inferiority complex?

why cant i just be like everyone else?
why cant i just be better than everyone else?
why am i alone, lower than everyone else?

why am i not pretty?
why am i me?

6:07am 2-22-04