i always wondered what its like
for you to come at me from behind
i always wondered what it felt like
to be drenched in the rain of a million men
i have kinda wondered what i looks like
to have guys look at you full of lust
im somewhat curious
what its like to completely give up control
and sleep on the floor

so im still sitting here
no guys
no girls
no rain and no lust
no, nothing but words
words
more words

its nothing
its a fantasy
its pornography
its everything but me

im still curious what its like
to live in the real world

4:30am 2-22-04