I don't know how people can be so happy all the time.
All that happiness is too long gone.
All my smiles are so fake,
I don't know what I should do
or what I am anymore.
l am fake,
losing faith...
As l walked down the halls l see all the beloved ones laughing,
and as l smile at them, they smile back at me,
only wishing l was truely happy.
Chorus:
I am fake,
losing faith,
afraid.
My smiles are so fake
and I'm losing so much faith.
I'm so afriad.
Am I fake?
Heaven knows we all have our troubles,
but who's to say when these troubles will go away,
even if they will EVER go away.
Billy Corgan even said,
"No more promise no more sorrow".
lf only life was easily done through words.
Don't wanna explain anymore,
I wasted too much of my life,
trying to show my feelings,
trying to be something that I'm not,
hurting every day.
l feel like the dead stone that sits there everyday
next to the shade
but the shade isn't covering me up
not at all.
l only get burned more each and every day
and l can still hear the voices in my head
yelling at me
for everything i do.
And i'm just trying too hard to be happy
Chorus:
I am fake,
losing faith,
afraid.
My smiles are so fake
and I'm losing so much faith.
I'm so afriad.
Am I fake?
Now I know what I am not able to get away,
because they never left me alone,
or took the time to understand my problems-
the unnoticed problems that only l knew about.
So hard to talk to anyone
because the ones who are supposed to be my parents dont listen to me,
and never even cared about me.
l feel like a dinasour
mass extinction
coming our way
closer and closer
l might die today.
Will the world end in firey astroids?
Or will all the plants die?
we may strive,
we may starve,
but the one thing that will always remain is
the pumping of my heart.
Even if the rest of my life died away
my heart will keep on pumping
because I know I will survive,
without you
but with myself.
l will stop asking for your pity,
you never wanted to pity
me.
