GOD IS SO GREAT. HE LOVES US NO MATTER WHAT. HE FORGIVES US FOR EVERYTHING AND ALWAYS TAKES US BACK HOME. AT THE AGE OF 7 I GAVE MY LIFE TO GOD. OF COURSE AT THE TIME I DIDNT KNOW WHAT THAT MEANT BUT I DID IT BECAUSE MY MOTHER HAD. I WAS A DEVOUT CATHOLIC WHO DID EVERYTHING I WAS SUPPOSE TO DO. THE ONE THING I DID NOT DO WAS TAKE MY WALK WITH GOD SERIOUSLY. THROUGHOUT MY TEEN AGE YEARS I BATTLED WITH DEPRESSION, A LOW SELF-ESTEEM AND SUICIDE. EVEN THOUGH I KNEW I WAS AT MY VERY LOWEST I NEVER WANTED TO GIVE GOD MY ENTIRE LIFE. I FELT THAT I WASNT READY FOR HIM. I DIDNT WANT TO BE ANOTHER BORING CHRISTIAN. I WANTED TO HAVE MY FUN. BECAUSE OF THIS MY PROBLEMS ONLY GOT GREATER. SEVERAL TIMES DURING MY ADOLESCENCE I ATTEMPTED TO KILL MYSELF. BUT FOR A REASON I DID NOT KNOW AT THE TIME GOD DID NOT ALLOW ME TO SUCCEED (THANK YOU GOD). AT THE AGE OF 19 I DECIDED TO GO TO A PENTECOSTAL CHURCH WITH MY MOTHER. IT WAS HERE THAT I DISCOVERED WHAT IT REALLY MEANT TO BE A CHRISTIAN. I ALSO REALIZED THAT IT WASNT RELIGION THAT SAVES A SOUL BUT OUR LORD JESUS CHRIST. STILL, BEING THE STUBBORN PERSON THAT I WAS, I DID NOT WANT TO GIVE MY ENTIRE LIFE TO GOD.EVENTUALLY, AFTER SEEING SO MUCH HYPOCRISY IN EVERY CHURCH I WENT TO I LOST MY FAITH. I WENT ON MY OWN WAY. OF COURSE ALONG THE WAY I DID STUMBLE AND FIND MY WAY BACK TO GOD BUT AGAIN I JUST WAS NOT READY TO BE FULLY HIS. I STARTED SINGING IN A BAND AND MET SOMEONE WHOM I BELIEVED TO BE THE MAN I HAD BEEN PRAYING FOR ALL MY LIFE. MY LIFE WAS FINALLY PERFECT. I FELT THAT I HAD EVERYTHING I NEEDED BUT, I HAD PLACED GOD AT THE END OF MY LIST. THIS TIME WAS THE LAST TIME. ABOUT 5 YEARS AGO MY LIFE FELL BEFORE MY VERY EYES. NO LONGER WAS I SINGING AND I FOUND MYSELF HAVING TO CHOOSE BETWEEN A MAN I LOVED AND MY LORD. I CHOSE THE LORD. THAT WAS THE TURNING POINT IN MY LIFE. I COMPLETELY FELL. IT WAS A PAIN SO EXCRUCIATING THAT I FELT I WAS GOING TO DIE. BUT THIS IS WHAT MADE ME FINALLY TURN TO GOD. I WENT TO CHURCH WITH MY MOTHER ONE NIGHT AND HEARD A GIRL SINGING A SONG THAT SAID, " YOU WANT ME LOVE YOU MORE THAN GOD AND GIVE YOU WHAT I CAN NOT BECAUSE I AM IN LOVE WITH GOD" IT WAS A SPANISH SONG. IT WAS AT THAT TIME I BEGAN TO CRY. I COULD NOT STOP. IT WAS AS IF THIS PERSON KNEW EXACTLY WHAT I WAS GOING THROUGH. GOD WAS SPEAKING TO ME THROUGH THIS SONG. I FINALLY GAVE MY LIFE ENTIRELY TO HIM. THAT WAS THE BEST CHOICE I COULD HAVE POSSIBLY MADE. ALL MY DEPRESSION AND SUICIDAL TENDENCIES WERE WASHED AWAY. GOD FORGAVE ME. JUST LIKE THE LOST SHEEP HE FOUND ME AND CARRIED ME BACK HOME.
ALL MY LIFE I HAVE LOVED SINGING. MY MOTHER HAD ALWAYS WANTED ME TO SING FOR GOD BUT I JUST DIDNT WANT TO. THROUGHOUT MY LIFE PEOPLE HAD ALWAYS PROPHESIED TO ME THAT I WAS GOING TO HAVE A MUSIC MINISTRY. NOW I CAN SEE THAT GOD'S PROMISES ARE BEGINNING TO HAPPEN. HE GAVE ME THIS GIFT NOT FOR MY GLORY OR THE GLORY OF OTHERS BUT FOR HIS HONOR AND GLORY. BECAUSE HE DESERVES THAT AND MORE. I PRAISE GOD WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL FOR HE HAS TAKEN ME FROM THE DARK AND GIVEN ME EVERLASTING LIGHT! PRAISE HIS NAME ALWAYS!!
JESUS CHRIST IS AND WILL ALWAYS BE MY HERO! |
