What a boring day at home!  But where else can I be? What else can I do?  Nothing...not a thing...So sitting at home all day, mostly in front of the computer, in front of icq.  But still don't see the person I want to see...sigh...even if I widen my list to people that I want to see, they're not here either! :(

Well good to find people signing my guestbook!  A's message was so nice! :)  And my son too!  Haven't seen my son for ages!  Really hope I can see her soon!  Really hope to see A too! :)

Once again being called pk by my mother...what a mother I got!  Does all mothers call their daughter pk?  I really want to ask her what the fuck it is she wants from me!

Was talking to someone about Andy today...makes me think again where you are and what you're doing?  And also make me want to find you again, but of course that'll never happen coz I don't know where to look.

Tonight I feel alone again, feel that no one understands, no one cares...but I really hope that what A say is true.  "Remember, you are not alone in this world!".  I really hope you're right A!  Sitting here online, with no one on icq to talk to, nothing to do, listening to songs. 'Can't we try', I really loves two of the lines "My life is changing so fast now, leaves me lonely and afraid."  I don't know if my life is changing fast or not, but I do feel lonely and afraid.

The world is so big, has so many people...of all those on this Earth, who would care, who would know what I'm feeling and what I'm going through?
 

Not much mood to write anything more here today...see how I feel later on tonight.