Taking Chances
chapter 6
by Ritz
Hiei--"Impossible to Ignore"
Ritz's note: Yah! Last part of my fic!!! ^^ *grins* Once again, I want to say that I do not own Kurama and Hiei, they belong to Togashi-sama so please...be nice, don't sue! ^.~
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I huddled against the trunk of a tree, trying to calm my breathing and my heart rate.
It's happening! I thought, panicked. I can't let it--I can't let myself get trapped by that fox. I shuddered and closed my eyes. Involuntarily, flashbacks of our kisses, of Kurama's sweet tasting mouth, of his tongue twining with mine ran through my mind.
In an uncharacteristic move, I buried my head in my hands. I had been so close...so close to submitting to that fox, letting him take me right then and there, enjoying the way my heart beat faster, awakening feelings that I thought were dead.
I shook my head vehemently. No...no, I can't go back. I'll just get hurt again and not only that, that dumb fox will probably get targeted by one of my many enemies. I can't endanger him, just like I can't endanger Yukina.
Not only that, I told myself, that stupid kitsune will probably make me stay in the Ningenkai with him. That means I'll be stuck with all those stupid ningens and their idiotic ways. That also meant having to put up with that idiot Kuwbara almost everyday, having to face Yukina asking for her brother, and, and...
I stopped, scowling. It was no use. My body and heart still urged me to return to Kurama; no matter how much my mind protested.
"Stupid fox," I muttered, getting up and jumping from tree branch to tree branch, "he's trapped me already." He somehow slipped past my guard and awakened a part of me that I thought was gone. I can't get rid of him even if I wanted to because he's wormed his way too far under my skin, into my heart...
I found myself outside the fox's bedroom window. Peering in, I saw Kurama lying face down on his pillow, his shoulders heaving with what I knew were sobs.
I hesitated...Kurama's crying...could it be because of me? I took a few steps back. I had no idea that I could make him feel so bad. Maybe...maybe it's better if I leave right now. That way Kurama will have the time to get over me and won't be in as much pain as he is right now. That way both of us won't risk getting hurt. Both of us can forget each other much easier.
Besides, I reasoned to myself when my body refused to move. Why delay the inevitable? Kurama's going to leave me someday. They all leave. One day, he's going to decide that he's tired of me and wants another more beautiful, more lively lover. That's what will happen...it always does... So, really, this would be a good time to get out of this before--
Suddenly, the window opened and I saw Kurama's face peering out at me.
"Hiei?" He whispered.
I drew back reflexively, digging my back against the trunk of the tree, as far away from Kurama as possible.
"Matte, Hiei!" Kurama cried, his hand trying to grasp at my arm in a vain attempt to keep me from running.
I didn't move, staring at him, pasting an impassive expression on my face, hoping that it would cover the furious pounding of my heart.
"Hiei.." Kurama started hesitantly, "I, gomen nasai...I...I didn't mean to take advantage of you. It was just..the music...and then you... kissing me like that...I just thought that...well, you know." Kurama flushed, casting his eyes downward.
I watched him fidget, watched him try to stammer out apologies again, my feelings as jumbled as his words. "Kurama." I said suddenly, "Shut up."
Kurama stopped abruptly in his explanations, looking hurt.
I edged closer to him, close enough so I could feel his breath against my parted lips and slowly, I felt my hands reach out to cup his face. He gasped, surprised.
"Hiei, I-"
I kissed him gently, stopping his words. Then, I drew away. "Stupid fox." I told him, "I know."
"You know?" Kurama repeated hopefully, his eyes brightening. "So you'll--?"
I kissed him again as an answer, only this time, harder, more demanding. I could feel him responding to my kiss, his lips yielding and melding against mine. I gently pulled away, breaking off the kiss.
"I'll take this chance." I told him calmly, as if we had never stopped talking. "Besides," I added, making sure to keep my voice non-chalant. "you're impossible to ignore." I wondered if he would pick up on the double meaning of my words.
He did.
His grin turned mischieveous as his gaze dropped briefly to my crotch. Then he pulled me into his bedroom and proceeded to show me just how much attention he needed.
***OWARI TAKING CHANCES***
