MORNING RUSH

by Carol Torre

    DO we really know what life is?

    Life is a maze, they say. But do we really understand it? We thought we did. We felt so secure and so confident in everything we do, giving it our best shot. Everything is programmed. Ours is to work for it with a target to hit.

    Then, all of a sudden, we just wake up one morning only to find out that all the things we have planned have totally changed, feeling that someone had rearranged our lives. And that's what happened to me. I came to realize that we can never have plans of our own and of other people as well. There is the Mighty one who has His own perfectly-made plans for each one of us.

    Years and years ago, I always thought I was on the right track since what I was doing pleased and satisfied me, thinking I was gradually hitting the point I had in mind with an overwhelming joy and fulfillment. All those times I have proven my worth. I felt secure of what was going on in my life, having the confidence I had that had continually brought me to the true meaning of life. But there came this day when one man had reorganized my life which was placed in chaos.

    Then and there, I learned I could never enjoy the sunshine without the rain. I had experienced getting months when what I needed was a pair of ears. Becoming the object of criticisms shook me, even threatened me. Yet, never did I give up.

    It's about time that everyone must know the course my life has gone into, my family and friends in particular. I did this, not for you to understand, but for you to accept the reality which I never wish to escape.

    I don't just need him because if I do, I'll put him in the prison of my needs that only the eyes of faith could see, nor want him because it's unfair for him. And that, too, would lose his value to me. So to speak, he's more than anything.

    I maybe am blind, as far as my vision is concerned. Yet one thing is certain: there will always be change, either for a stronger feeling or the other way around. I may be misjudged by the people who know the real score, but as long as I'm not stepping on one's toes, I'd go for what I believe in. I have to discern, for I am afraid that the time will come when I may lose respect for myself.

    Life is so short. We have to make the best out of it. Let us live a life closer to what God has always wanted it to be. Search for the real meaning of life and you will find it as you journey towards it.