| Dear Sisters Have you ever felt that there was so much to do that you didn't know where to start? That you would NEVER get all that you had to do done? Have you ever felt so burdened with the emotional weight of the world, that you've thought that you would NEVER ever feel as you once did? I have. Many times of late. In fact, it's a whole new way of life, just recently. I am excited to do what I have to do - but - the actual part of getting it done is so overwhelming. I love the people we know - our friends and our family - but - sometimes, when sharing their problems, along with our own get overwhelming. Have you ever felt that you want to curl up in a ball - and hibernate? It's times like these that I head to my bedroom. (The children watch me go there!) I close the door and go to my familiar spot on the floor in front of our bedroom window. I cry out to the Lord. I ask Him firstly to forgive me for things that I have done, thought, felt. Also for things that I wasn't even aware of - which may have displeased Him. I ask Him to help me with this great feeling of overwhelm. He hears me. I know He hears me. His Word says He does! Sometimes, I don't even know what to tell Him. Nor ask Him. But you know - He sends His Holy Spirit to intercede for me. In times when I'm without words, it's the Holy Ghost who carries all my heartfelt messages to the Lord. This never fails to overwhelm me! My Father is just pleased that I go to Him in my trouble. He wants it that way. He wants me to be dependent on Him. Hallelujah! I know it's much harder to tell a human this, but it is oh-so much easier to tell my Father in Heaven. Sometimes I just sob before Him. I lie there - helpless - a picture of pathetic brokenness. Calling to God. It's not always immediately. Sometimes, half the day has gone before I feel the peace. Before I make it my own. But it is there. Always. Without fail. His perfect peace and assurance. The burden starts to be lifted..... There is much to do here at home. My husband is due to move his business to our houseblock, here in country Australia by January 2001. My brother, his wife and two daughters are expected within the next month, having 'fled' South Africa. They will be living with us indefinitely until they are settled. We are running on the grace of God. I often wonder why things happen all at once, but after receiving the peace of the Lord, I know that ultimately, God's timing is perfect. Everything happens for His glory. May we always be reminded of this. When we reach that pit of despair, in whatever we do, in whatever circumstances we are in. May we never forget that He will never leave us nor forsake us. May we continue to call on Him, in our darkest hour. Call on the Father - the One Who first loved us, Who was serious about His love for us, by the sacrifice He gave us in His Son. To God be the glory, Love Helen |