An epiphany
Slamming full force into the confusion of my mind
In the soft morning light I stood
Depressed at the blackness of my soul
A blackness descended here so long ago
In a time despair reigned over me
I was willing to do anything to save the love
We shared
Willing even to cloak myself in this blackness
Which surrounded you
Hoping that somehow making myself more like you
Would draw you closer to me
Make you want to stay
This darkness that covered me so completely
I held tight to it, cloaked myself in it
Hid away in its shadows
Presented myself to you changed
Dark like you were
You left anyway
For all this time now I have kept myself
Wrapped in this darkness
And suddenly one day wondered
How I lost myself
And where to find me?
I didn't know
Until today
Staring into my reflection
It occurs to me
I'm tired of this darkness
It doesn't suit me well
I am a creature of the light
I let the sun cover me with its warmth
I let my soul come peeking out
Blinking in the brightness
I looked around and the world seemed changed
I looked back at my reflection
and smiled
There I was
Beautiful and glowing radiant
The girl you loved
The girl you left
The girl who'll go on living anyway
Heather Dawn Morrison