All my attempts at happiness failed
My fantasy of happy endings faded
My perception of the game of love now jaded
All my dreams and all my hopes now shattered
I thought I had been the one that really mattered
The beauty of my love grown cold and dying
My heart killed cruelly by your lying
The faint hope to which I'd clung slipped, unexpected
My soul now raw, exposed and unprotected
This loneliness kept locked inside exploding
The pain of disillusion quickly growing
In my deepest secret soul I always loved you
Always hoped someday you'd rise above this
Always dreamed that in your heart you truly loved me
Now it seems you never even cared about me
My white knight stained and beaten down
My prince only an actor with a crown
My hero just a coward like the others
My lover but a liar undercover
Through all these years I clung to words you spoke to me
For all this time believed the words you wrote to me
You spouted words and rhymes of love undying
And I believed as truth your expert lying
Not knowing if our lives again might ever
Cross, and find us once again together
Yet clinging always to promises you made me
Words that in despair once served to save me
You swore to me that you had always loved me
That you would love me throughout all eternity
That you never stopped and that you loved me still
But now those words bring just an empty chill
I had such dreams for you, such aspirations
I had such love for you, sweet adoration
And you so brilliant and so bright a flame
Yet your choices leave me so ashamed
My mind tries hard to understand your thinking
How could you choose this life in which you're sinking?
I feel your judgments like an icy breath
Somehow your failures have become my own regrets
My soul your ghost has taken up for haunting
Your dedication leaves me sorely wanting
And into the darkend shadows of my mind's walls
It hurts to see you never loved me at all
Around you I had built my own sad world
And what was I to you but just another girl?
You were the handsome hero of my story
I was just one more conquest for your glory
I find our story ended quite abruptly
I find the ending different than I'd wanted
So here now ends the fairy tale of you and me
A story sad, a beautiful tragedy
Heather Dawn Morrison