Thought they beheld your form
this afternoon
My heart pulsed faster in my breast
My stomach churned and roiled
it wasn't you
Half of me thanked God it wasn't
Half fell, sank back slowly down
wished it was
I saw you once, you didn't know
Walking down a busy street alone
I drove on past
You looked the same as always
Clouded eyes and arrogant half-smile
perfect
In that one moment I regressed
Back to times your eyes had looked my way
I shivered
Sometimes I wish I'd see you
Observe your moves and actions
as before
Sometimes I wish you'd see me
Get that look in your eyes again
awed by me
I wonder what your thoughts would be
If you could see me now
so different
So much like the girl you first loved
Yet so much more than ever before
a woman
No longer the child you manipulated
No longer the girl you left sobbing
heartbroken
A woman whose beauty and poise
Combine in such perfection
it scares you
I hope someday you will see me
Be so moved by the sight of me
That you burst into tears
That your heart shatters
That you die inside
Forever
Heather Dawn Morrison