A forced smile,
A questionable love,
A meaningless existance,
Constantly Ignored,
Tired of trying,
Leading a life of total waste,
Motivation dissapearing,
Not ready to be old,
Curiosity of the future,
Fear of living it,
Emotions constanly sway,
Don't want to be alone,
Tired of feeling lonely,
Need to learn independence,
Wanting to feel love,
Trying to deny reality,
Want to wake up,
Want to see,
Time to let go,
Time to be alone,
Time to smile....
April Wynne
I don't know what to do,
I don't know what to say,
I try to understand,
I try to relate,
I keep telling myself,
That it's just myself,
But i won't listen to me.
I ask you what's wrong,
You always reply nothing,
When your eyes tellmore,
Sadness? Anger? Dissapointment?
I wish i could understand,
I wish i could help,
I wish i could take the pain away,
You have been hurt somuch,
You have been fucked as hard,
How do I let you know,
I understand,
I can relate,
I know the pain,
I know the nothingness,
I am only here for so long,
I want to make it the best,
I want to help you find happiness,
To take the pain away,
To let you know you're not alone,
To help you feel love again.
If you'd let me.......
I would love you,
But you always pull away,
So i tell myself no,
That I need to just go away......
I consider it......
NO
I don't want to lose you.
So this is my resolution,
What I want to be....
Please let me keep you,
Let me love you, let me stay.
April Wynne
I wake up and see,
What my life has become,
And i relize i am happy,
But not
I am loved by many,
Hated by few,
Moneyless all the time,
Feeling like a leach,
Jobless due to lazyness,
No motivation,
Kidless due to stability,
Unimaginable pain,
Mindless due to maturity,
Nearing the breaking point,
Used for my kindness,
Patients running thin,
Love keeps fucking me over,
Peices remain,
Memories coming back to haunt me,
Pain, pain,pain.
I need to get my mind straight,
I need to make the pain go away,
I need to get a job,
And a place for me and my bebe,
I need not worry myself with love,
Or let people take advantage of me,
I need to find myself,
And smack her in the face,
I need to wake up,
Need to relize,
It's time to grow up
Be an adult
Start life over
April Wynne
