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30 June, Friday, +0145 hr, "SAF parade"

It�s been a long time since I woke up that early man. I woke up at 0515 hr this morning as there will be SAF day parade today and we got to reach camp by 0715 for standby. I was really dragging myself up this morning but luckily the mind was determined and disciplined to wake up. Therefore I lazily got myself cleaned and dressed up, checked the No.4 attire that mum had sewn last night(collar badge was a little crooked) and packed my bag. There were many things to bring like kiwi and brush, boots, No.4 attire, instructor admin attire, pt shirt, beret and belt. My bag was really stuffed. After that I left for camp. The journey was slow and peaceful until I reached Boon Lay interchange where you can see the crowd rushing to their destination. The pace was really fast, hectic and stressful.

I went to the rest room when I arrived at Headquarters. MQ, Ian, Azri, Ivan, JonY, Ken were already there. We were changing to our No.4 attire and MQ helped me to prepare my beret by fixing the crest for me as I didn�t know how to do it. I polished my boots also in there. Soon we were asked to form up inside the MPH. Kam�s discipline was really the worst. WO Ong was in a good mood but found Kam�s sideburn was really long and ask him to shave it. He reluctantly moved away. ZW was late and his beret wasn�t prepared. Mr Sharil quickly assisted him. Soon we were practicing basic drills as we are not specialized in foot drills compared to other units.

After practicing, we marched to the parade square where we formed up and did a rehearsal. We had a break in between before the actual parade and we went to the canteen to have a drink. I had iced milo as I didn�t have breakfast and relied on food drink. After the parade, we were briefed by Mr Ong on the afternoon�s event and we went for lunch after that.

We went back to the restroom to relax a while and lazed around. We then changed to our more comfortable admin attire. MQ, Ken, Ian, Azri, HR, Chia and I went to the SISPEC canteen for lunch. As I was saving money, I only bought a bottle of green tea and watched the rest eating their food. I also smsed DeaR. She said she did not have a good sleep as there was a funeral over at her area. Ty joined us after a while for lunch also. After lunch had a glance through the Gift shop and went back to restroom. The rest were watching vcd while I snoozing away on the sofa.

Soon Mr Ong called us to assemble in the Lecture room for the General Safety Instruction talk. I was really hungry during the boring talk as I didn�t have anything substantial except for drinks. I got no interest in the talk at all and smsed DeaR secretly. After the talk, there were refreshments for us. There were Fried Spicy Vermicelli, Spring Rolls and a few sweet items. I took a plate of Vermicelli. It was quite spicy but I didn�t care as I was starving. I took a copy of the schedule for next week and went back to the rest room to hang out until it was time for booking out.

As soon as I am reaching Boon Lay, I smsed DeaR and told her that I had booked out. 187 had already started boarding and I ran to the bus. When I reached home, I went to for a bath and had a little stomachache, I think it was because of the Spicy Vermicelli I had earlier. As soon as I am done with it, I went online and looked for my DeaRzZ to chat with. Hehez. I really can�t wait to see her during the weekends. We planned to catch a movie pass midnight tomorrow. I had a 2nd stomachache halfway in the conversation and visit the toilet again.

DeaR was alone at home and got to wait for her mum to buy her dinner after she knocked off. Her mum bought her duck rice and the day before DeaR had chicken rice requested for duck. Soon her brother also came home and he got nagged by her mother for buying a new pair of shoes for $60. The pair of shoes was special as the person her brother likes also had that pair. Aud also had a casual greeting and chat with me and DeaR. It is now already 0133 hr passed midnight. Guess I am going to bed after this. Haha can�t wait for tomorrow to come to watch Superman Returns with DeaR in the theatre. Blog again tomorrow. See ya! !

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28 June, Wednesday, 2359 hr, "China Town market renovated, Watch Hunt"

I was preparing to get dressed up for camp as usual this morning for 1000 hr lesson when I received a sms JonY that they had finished the mock grading during the 0800 hr session. Therefore I went back to sleep as the next lesson was 1500 hr at Panjang Camp. Luckily I had not dressed up and went out. Haha. I slept all the way until close to 1400 hr. Though it was a long sleep, I still got to drag myself up. Saw DeaR�s sms and replied her and also told her why I took a long time to reply. I got changed and left for Panjang camp but was planned to reach a little late as I thought I will be going to just help to assist a little.

Lesson ended about 45mins earlier. Mr Benny was on the way to pass the name tags to the 63rd batch juniors. We met him at the pass office. After that we went home. When I reached home, I unpacked my bag and sent some stuffs into the tubs for washing. I also took a bath and was preparing to leave home to meet DeaR. However I was stuck inside the toilet with a slight diarrhea. I left home a little behind schedule and sms DeaR to check her location. She had reached Toa Payoh interchange already but she said she would be late too.

When I arrived, I got no idea if she had reached. I went up the escalator and saw a cute girl with her top hair tied to a pony tail to the back. I looked again carefully and it was DeaR!! Haha remarkably she caught my eye straight away. Hehez. I think this was the first time I saw DeaR with her hair in that style. Hehe she looks fantastic. Haha. We walked out from the basement and DeaR bought Green Tea earlier again haha. We walked to Chinatown food market and before we walked in, DeaR introduced the Lotus Paste Biscuit that she and WeiWei loves and would buy everytime they pass by. We bought a pack and saved it for snack after dinner.

We looked around and sat at an open area in the heart of the food market. I realized that we were sitting in the smoking zone. Haha. We ordered Yong Tau Foo set, a bowl of fish balls, Xiao Long Bao and Sugar Cane Drink. We saw 2 incidents while we were eating. The first one was that one man in his 50s was quarreling with another person and seemed to be pushing forward onto his wife who was trying to push him away. Another situation was that a worker who was trying to return washed utensils back to the stores dropped some of them. I don't know if anyone knocked him but he seemed quite pissed off. DeaR said she likes the fish balls, minced meat noodle from the Yong Tau Foo store and the chicken rice from this food market. I also asked her if she was in the first situation earlier, what would she do. She said if her felt that her boyfriend is right in the situation, she will stand aside but if he is wrong, she will push him away. When we finished our dinner, DeaR realized that I was running out of tissue and refilled the tissue purse with her's. An old man was selling tissue in packs of 3 for a dollar. I gave him a dollar and gave DeaR a pack. While she was refilling the tissue for me, I couldn't resist the temptation of trying out the lotus biscuits and tried a piece. I realized that it was quite similar to the fish shaped biscuits given during moon cake festival.

After that we walked a bit of people's park complex and Popular bookstore before we took bus 190 to Orchard. We alighted behind Takashimaya building and went in it to use the toilet. When we had done with our business in the washroom, DeaR suggested of visiting Swatch inside the building. Unfortunately we weren't able to find the shop so therefore we moved on to Wisma Atria. We only explored the basement as there is City Chain. We looked around and observed more on Adidas and Smash watches. We proceeded on to Lucky Plaza through the underpass but the shops in there were mostly closed as it was 2100 hr+. There was a shop still open but it was so quiet and deserted in there that we decided not to go in. We got out of Lucky Plaza and carried on strolling along the street. We came across a traditional mobile ice cream bike just beside Lucky Plaza and got ourselves ice cream each. We bought ice cream with bread. Mine was chocolate chip flavor and DeaR�s was Chocolate.

Soon we reached the Heeren and we went use the toilet on the 3rd storey. After that we visited the Swatch shop. Dear likes a watch which has translucent strap with blue outlines. We went to Fossil next. Many of their watches were very nice but the price was all $139 and above which made us dropped the idea of getting Fossil watches. Beside Fossil shop was another City Chain and we stopped outside to view the watches they had displayed. DeaR pointed out to a Smash watch that caught her eye. We also did not see that design earlier. It is analog and from outside it looked quite sturdy to me. The strap of the watch is translucent white. I imagined it on DeaR�s wrist and I think I would look good, cool and rather outstanding. As DeaR�s shirts are majority black, I think the watch will shine on her. My t-shirts are mainly white but white with white will still bring out the watch�s shine. The white shirt and watch should reflect light together.

I knew DeaR really liked the Swatch more. However when I observe it earlier, the whole things feels fragile to me. For that price($86), I think it is really not worth it and the design is not really that fabulous. The price was really much more for what you are paying. It is highly overpriced. I bought Swatch for my sister once and the strap snapped when she was removing it from her wrist. Actually another incident was that I once bought a bangle for my ex and she fell for another guy after that. I don�t really like Swatch.. We carried on walking along the street while discussing about the watch. We arrived at Centrepoint where we saw another City Chain. A lot right.. haha.. DeaR suggested that we copied Aud�s style by requesting for a try on the watch and return it to them after it. We did that and left the shop. We observed the watch more when it was in our hands. It was lighter than I expected and they are having a 10% off now on the watches in conjunction with the Great Singapore Sale. The strap was also really sturdy and under normal conditions, it should last a long way. We fixed out choice on that but thought if we see any better options, we will change to that.

We were thirsty and decided to get ourselves a drink at 7 Eleven at Cuppage but they didn�t have any bottles of green tea left as DeaR wanted to have that. Therefore we walked to Plaza Singapura Shopping Centre after that and went in to Carrefour to get them instead. The weather was really humid and we needed to hydrate ourselves.

After that, we strolled back to DeaR�s home le. On the way, we chatted about our past on out encounters in nasty situations. I also shared with her my incident with ZS. That time I really flared up instantly and lost my mind. I couldn�t remember what I did and all the details were from my friends who watched what happened. DeaR also got physical with a few girls during her primary school days for the sake of her friend who abandon her in the situation and ran home. Soon we reached and I left to wait for bus after she left safely in the lift.

I waited quite long for 147 to come and I was having another thought in my mind when I saw 64, 139 and 65(cine), that I might as well go to YMCA bus stop to change bus to 106 and head home that way. It may be faster as those buses have higher frequencies, 106 has a shorter and faster route and I don�t have to wait at that miserable bus stand for that bus which was filled with old people or Bangalas most of the time. Dear called and we chatted all the way until I got home. Hehe the journey of the bus always seems shorter when she calls and chats with me. In the past when she did not start calling yet, I always look out of the bus window and thought �wah reach here only ah�, �I thought I passed here moments ago�, �sian still so long way to go�, etc. With her calls, those questions completely did not even flash once. Haha. Looking forward to see DeaR again. DeaR is always the best company and the best person I had met so far in my life.

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26 June, Monday, 2359 hr, "Tiong Bahru Renovated"

Today morning I carried on the last phase of duty. Opened the gym, scanned my breakfast, passed the keys to admin clerk and did some slicing of MSG Alan's name tags. A few of our guys booked in and Wil, who was supposed to take over my duty, was late for an hour and arrived at 0815 hr.

After handling duties over to him, I worked out in the gym with KenT and Azri joined us after that. I did abdominal exercises mainly. I also took a few photos of the gym, my favorite hangout, for putting on my website. We went to the SISPEC canteen when we had finished our workout. I had Pokka Green Tea and Hotdog as it is the cheapest, Azri had egg tart, beef burger, iced milo and KenT had You Tiao, fish burger and I forgot what drink he had.

After the breakfast and lunch combination for me, Azri and I left for home as we had lesson in the afternoon together at 3SIB. On the way out, we found some old version of Duffel bags and the both of us took a few.

On the way home sms chatted with DeaR. I also told her that I will be taking a nap at home. I slept until around 1400 hr woke up and went to Panjang camp. The juniors were all already there teaching. I was earlier than Azri even though late and helped to coach a bit of side break fall. Azri reached when we wrapped up the lesson. Azri's bus stop was the same as mine and he taking bus number 67. Sms chatted with DeaR also arranged the time to meet her later.

We met up at Tiong Bahru. I arrived first, bought a bottle of mineral water, went 2nd storey�s toilet and received DeaR�s call shortly. Waited for her on 2nd storey and we met outside Bata. She was wearing white t-shirt, the same color as mine. Hehez. We then walked to Tiong Bahru food Market but it was under reconstruction. DeaR said that it could have been shifted back to its old location and therefore we walked there and she was right.

The renovated hawker is much nicer and there are a lot more seats than the old one. However the ventilation still isn�t that good. Both of us were sweating. I bought Fried Oyster while DeaR had Fried Guo Tiao and the both of us had sugarcane drink. DeaR was funny as she had dark soy sauce remains on her lips after she finished. Haha.

We had got no particular place to go after dinner and therefore we decided to just take our time to stroll back to Bugis from Tiong Bahru. On our way, we had casual chats. From Tiong Bahru we walked passed China Town then to Clark Quay where we explore the other side of the Singapore River. We walked down and there were private apartments which seem really peaceful to live in. We proceeded on to PS after that explored the watches shops as we decided to see if there are any design we liked to replace our current as mine had stopping problem. We moved on and decided to chill in Coffee Bean at Rendezvous as it was still early.

I ran out of cash and DeaR footed for the White Chocolate Dream I ordered and her Pure Chocolate. I was really glad that DeaR initiated to pay and shared the load. I always felt that when she offered. I will also continue my disciplined budgeting in daily expenses so that I can have a lot to spend together with her and enjoy with her. Also got to try to save up for our new watches which will be quite taxing. We sat on the couches near the class window and chatted a little on the olden times. DeaR was saying that she dislike Starbucks as their drinks were too sweet. She mentioned that time on valentine�s day where we spent together with Ren, LA and Stan. We were at Starbucks Marina and she didn�t order anything. She remembered that I had something which was really sweet and I agreed with her on that day and I poured a lot of water of us. I was laughing at my own reaction on that day. LA also asked DeaR to write Aud�s card for friendship but having a lot of her own restrictions and comments.

Soon we left for her house and chatted about DeaR�s secondary school days on the way about the upper secondary student making friend with he. She also said that in primary school she alone challenged 5 other girls who tore her friend�s book. Disappointingly, when DeaR was helping her to reason it out, her friend ran away with her own stuffs abandoning DeaR alone with the students. DeaR also said she forgot to cut her nails. As she was saying her eyes got red and nose started to run. Her fringe was irritating her eyes and I applied eye drops to her them beside Fu Lu Shou complex. I was making fun that people around us probably thought that I bullied DeaR and she was dropping tears(eye drops). I was suggesting that she can try tying her hair back together with her fringe. Soon we reached her house.

After she went up in the lift, I went to the coffee shop next to her house to use the loo. I got a filled bladder to empty. Haha. I walked to the bus stop when I am done and received DeaR�s phone call when I reached the bus stop. DeaR said when she reached home, she also used the toilet. She was watching the traffic from the room behind her kitchen. To my surprise she could see the traffic of the road that I was waiting for bus. Soon the bus came and we chatted all the way until I reached home. On the journey, there were some disturbances by a chap who was speaking really loud competing volume with an old woman in her late 40s. I went to the lower deck of the bus when it approaches Commonwealth and continued to chat with DeaR. That irritating old woman alighted at Toh Guan with me.

When I reached home, I turned on the computer first thing, greeted DeaR and then change my clothes and send them for washing. Soon I went to bed after that.

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25 June, Sunday, 2359hr, "Sky Tower"

Went to sentosa today as DeaR's dad had some complimentary tickets from Carlsberg. Wore our Couple shirts and took a few pictures. Tickets were given to LA, Flor, Fran. After Sentosa DeaR went her Uncle's place and I book into camp for duty.

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24 June, Saturday, 2359hr, "The Birth Of Our Shades, Sat Duty"

I was told to book in to camp today though it was a Saturday as contractors will be coming to do some wiring in the new office at 0900 hrs. Therefore I reached camp and waited at the gym by 0840 hrs. It was quiet and peaceful in the morning and I watched programs on the television as I waited for the contractors to come. Haha nothing much to catch on the television, only watched kid's central.

It was 1030 hrs+ but there were still no sign of any contractors. I decided to take a look upstairs as I thought they might be there already and I was right. They were inside the room working on the electric. I thought how did they open the door and got into the room but couldn't be bothered. After that I thought that I might as well leave camp since I am redundant. My job was just to open the door for them and lock it when they were leaving. I was also instructed to stop their work by 1pm. I ask the foreign worker they said that they will be working until 5pm. I was thinking that since they were already able to access the room without me, I guess they could just do without me. As for locking the room, I could do it when I booked in on Sunday as no one will be so hardworking to book in on weekends to check the building anyway. Therefore I booked out early thought of meeting DeaR earlier. Hehe.

Sms chatted with DeaR and she said she will be going to collect her 5566 concert dvd with Jian Mei. She sounded very happy haha. Since she will be collecting dvd, I went home for a nap. I reached home at approximately 1330 hr and went nap straight away after turning on bit torrent.

I woke up at 1600 hr and saw Dear's sms that Jian Mei was going to JJ's concert and DeaR was going home. Therefore I arranged to meet her at Bugis. When to change and everything and went out shortly. When I was on the train at Clementi, DeaR was still on her way back. Haha just nice that way too. Initially I was thinking she reached home already. This way she won't have to go home and can meet me directly.

DeaR reached about 10mins after me. I just came out of the foodcourt toilet in the basement and she called. Therefore I waited for her there. When she arrived she also wanted to use the toilet. Hahaha. She passed me a bottle of green tea. Hehe just nice I was thirsty. After that we walked around to see shades. On of the stores in the basement was the friend of DeaR�s mum. We found a blue frame, bottom rimless sports shade really attractive and the rest of the shades they had immediately turned dull to me. Unfortunately they had only one last piece displayed there. They suggested another pair which is dark blue with dark lenses but DeaR and I wanted to look around first. Therefore we went to the Bugis Village and hunt around. After that we went to buy an adaptor for my ipaq and this time round they gave complimentary biscuits instead of mineral water. Nice service too.

After much deciding, we got the pair of shades then they recommended earlier. We then went to Taiwan Xiao Chi and got ourselves a plate of Shui Jiao(steamed dumpling) and Dan Zhuan(egg roll). I asked DeaR where she wanted to go after that and she suggested that we just roam around the streets with no destination. Hehe sounds fun and anyway, simple thing like walking with DeaR is really a pleasure to me already. I will definitely enjoy it I don�t know why. It is something that you couldn�t get when walking with friends. We walked through Suntec City then along the road to the riverbank in front of Marina Square. We slowly strolled the park and saw many couples sitting by the coast on the more quiet side of the park. We were discussing that we saw before couple of same sex hugging and kissing each other.

Soon we arrived at the Merlion area where we realize that it was under washing. We sat at the bridge and enjoyed the breeze as we chatted about changes of people like LA, JM, Ren, Stan in the past. It was really relaxing. I also took a few pictures with my ipaq. Soon it was getting late and we walked back to Bugis. The weather is turning hot and we drank a lot of water and visited the toilet quite often today.

On the way back DeaR also called YR to check for time that she will be meeting us and it seem that CY and her decided to go in the evening without lending DeaR know. That was really irresponsible. Soon we reached DeaR home and I went to catch a bus after that.

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22 June, Thursday, 1930hr, "AFC moving house, Christian Resurrected "

I left home at 0700hr today. Saw bus 187 leaving the bus stop as I was reaching. Therefore I thought I took train instead. Bus 105 was extremely slow that 183 overtook it and sped off into thin air. Sian shouldn't have chase after the 105 and board 183 which was just behind. The train took 4mins to wait and I was packed like sardines with the crowd in the train. As I arrived at Boon Lay bus terminal, I realized that they had shifted to their new terminal which is just on the other side of the MRT station. The bad thing is that the buses berth, 182 and 193 which go to Pasir Laba camp, aren't placed beside one another anymore. 193 came a minute after I queue for it.

I arrived at the camp 15mins late and they had already marked the nominal roll. JonL arrived after me about 10mins later. Mr Lim had finished briefing the rest and we got to start house moving after 12noon. Meantime we hung around in the store. I was called to see Mr Lim soon regarding that I was late. He didn't say anything much but I will take it as a warning to myself.

I went back to the store after that and played scrabbles with IBM, Es, Azri. Shortly MQ got us to have a snack at the canteen. After that, we got back to slag at restroom and soon a few juniors of 63rd batch went cookhouse to collect lunch for us. I was surprised that lunch was indented.

We had lunch at around 11am. When most of us were done, it was near noon and it is time to get cracking. The tonner soon arrived and headed towards Khatib camp. I changed to my pt attire as Mr Lim said it was allowed. I took the same tonner with MQ, HR, IBM, Alex, KenT, Azri, Rick. They were playing on the tonner when it sets off. HR was busy taking pic. I thought I took a few too with my ipaq. Haha. They lie down on the floor of the tonner to sleep one after another. The tonner traveled at a top speed of 50km/h. Therefore almost all of us soon fell asleep.

When we arrived at Khatib camp, we started moving partitions, tables and chairs. Got no chance to sms DeaRz.. After awhile, we were given a short break where we(Thng, Azri, CK, IBM, ZW, Es, MQ) went to the canteen. I smsed DeaR on my progress. A lot of them were eating roti john depth in a special sauce. I tried a piece, it was nice with this sauce which is their selling point but I did not buy any as I am saving up for the weekends to maybe get a pair of shades for DeaR and I each and we require meals too. Therefore I watched them and resisted the temptation despite Thng trying to influence me. Haha.

We moved medicine balls, sandbags, dumb bells and pieces of table. We loaded them up the tonner. When we had finally filled up the tonner, we headed back to headquarters back in tonner too. This time round I took the same toner with MQ, ZW, IBM, Wil, JonY, KenT, Es I think.

When we got back, we just move all the things up to the 3rd floor and some to our store. I not going to describe in details as manual labor isn't interesting. When we finished, we still couldn't book out. We wait for some time. Some of us were so tired that Thng yelled at TimJ for disturbing his knee. The rest of us were just standing around. I went to a corner and smsed DeaR as earlier we were talking halfway. She was still out with LA as JM had already left and they were waiting for YR to arrive.

As soon as the signal was given to book out, all of us rushed to get changed and waited for the shuttle. I sat with Thi and we chatted about RuLang and he said that it is really busy as they got to teach even on sat and sometimes sun. We reached the interchange terminal shortly. I boarded 187 and smsed DeaR when I am almost reaching my stop. She was still with LA chatting at the coffee shop since JM left. I was quite worried if LA will use her methods again to influence DeaR. This time she probably go soft approach. But I guess I will leave it to DeaR to make her decision and choose her priorities ba. I trust that she should have no problems de.

I went to bathe the first minute I reached home. I was tired and felt really sticky sia. The bath was really rejuvenating but not for long. I heat up the pot of soup which shall be my dinner and logged into msn while waiting. DeaR came online and wanted to go for a bath but her mum was using the bathroom. Therefore chatted with her while having my soup and she went bath as soon as her mum had done.

We continued chatting on msn when she is back and she told me what she and LA talked about while they were waiting for YR at the coffee shop. They talk about Ken n Tir, Jer and pastor.

Ken and Tir were having a little problems. It seems that Ken had spent mo time with friends more than with Tir. Priorities seems to drift to friends more. Tir is feeling that she is losing her position in his heart.

Nextly, LA said the Jeryn had changed a little but her working attitude is still the same. LA too felt that bonding of the cellgroup is thus weaker. Cellgroup also had dropped from a time that was close to multiplication to a present strength of less than 10 members. Many had lost their fate under her leadership. LA said that she too felt a little drifting apart especially when most of her closer friends had left and Stan is in Thailand. She told DeaR she doesn't want to leave as it was DeaR that pulled her back in that time and she hoped to be doing the same for Dear too. She also said that she believe DeaR would not had leave if they were still under Grace leadership.

Lastly pastor of DeaR's biblestudy class asked LA about DeaR. She said that DeaR could have consulted her before she came to her present state and decision. After all the points spoken basically still on church no matter how you see it, DeaR said she is going back to Grace's CG and asked if I would join her for CG sermon but she will not go for church. What do you guys out there think? You all can share your opinions with me if you see me in msn. Meanwhile let me tell you my opinion presently.

Church teaches on how to handles thing encountered in life were mostly good and practical but not all. However their teachings on how to treat your life, living life are nonsense to me. Their teaching is that basically you are made from god and that everything you do are predestinated from god and wasn't by chance. God were the one given you the things they want you to do with life. You were born for a reason for god and he/she wanted you to achieve it. I don't like it. The Buddhist�s teaching suits me more as it teaches me that I control my own life and if you choose to do something bad, there will be retribution. Certain things that you encounter may be predestinated but how you work it out, faces it or choose to ignore if it isn't important to you, is all up to you as you control your own life. The Buddha�s presence is just to watch over and take care of you. Supports and listens to you when are lost and prayed to him. Offering boxes are placed near the altar and true hearted souls were to go forth to make your offerings instead of envelopes being passed around and using the pressure of glances from people around you for donations and at the same time pastor explains and psycho for more. God's challenges for ties are crap. Meant to tell me if there isn't money I won't get blessings? Materialistic. Need to go for church n CG weekly, participate in church activities, events, ministries. Worshipping for no meaningful reasons. They are all so bounded to god. It is like the olden times girls born to be sold as prostitute without a choice. Worshipping in Buddhism is just a simple offering of some fruits and incenses but the actually the fact of incense was just to calm people's minds in the temple. These are just the basic reasons and I shan't touch on the advance if not probably you guys out there who are freethinkers will simply exit my blog haha.

However my decision will be not to touch christian for the rest of my life. I used to tell my mum I was quite curious of christianity for the reason to go church but I guess I will not say that anymore. I think I had seen enough and christian is definitely and clearly not for me. I can't live my life bounded to anything. I prefer freedom, carefree and a happy life. Just like the Buddhist encourage as we release birds bounded to cages, fishes from tanks. I will no longer be Henry and don't know or control myself anymore if I will to be a christian. DeaR's return to Grace's CG or church eventually will be something she got to face without me. I promised her though to go with her but I guess it will only be the first few trips so that to get her rolling, respecting her mum's decision and hope she receive happiness from Grace too. In the past christian had gave me enough obstacles between she and I. If because of christian that we may drift apart, I must not have regrets as we started from there too.

After our conversation, I left for bed at around 2300hr as I am on duty the next day and can't chat past midnight. Hopefully everything will go smoothly tomorrow and book out on time. I am starting to yearn for the weekends as I kind of miss DeaR and want to see her soon.. Haha. Goodnight.

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20 June, Tuesday, 2359hr, "Fat people, peaceful stroll on Clarke Quay"

Today�s first lesson was 21SA in the usual smelly MPH right at the back of Kranji camp. I was a little late as I felt that there were very little people for that session and there are more than enough juniors around to get the job done. Hehe. We(WL, Thng, SQ, Wil) went lunch after lesson and as usual I watch them eat while training myself to resist temptations. Received DeaR�s morning sms and kept myself occupied to wander away from the food temptations. Soon a few of them(WL, Thng, SQ) left for 24SA at Katib and I went to 4SAB to sleep. Wil stay with me and took a nap too as he also having 4SAB lesson here later. Shortly EZQ and Joe arrived. 4SAB did not have head gears and tatami mattresses required for training therefore it took about 15mins for one of the Sergeant to call their stores and retrieve a few of it. Soon they were able to get what they needed and lesson went on as usual.

After the lesson I rushed home as I am meeting DeaRz later in the evening. When I reached home I realize mum had prepared dinner for me and sis. I didn�t want to waste her effort which she woke up earlier, sacrificed sleep for preparing the dishes therefore I ate some. As soon as I finished, I went to turn on bitorrent and leave it to run while I bathe and prepare myself to meet DeaRz. Hehez. I left home shortly leaving the comp on.

Called DeaR and told her to meet me at Stamford junction instead as I am not clear on the Sim Lim junction and didn�t know how to describe to her. Hehe she wore a white long sleeve top which I don�t remember I seen it before. Hehez happy to see that. I guess she was afraid that she would feel cold as the weather for the day was cooling to me. We went Fuwell at Sim Lim as usual and they still didn�t have any stocks for SD card. But the store attendant promised me for a change on my next visit there so he went to find stock and borrow from other stores or something. He took quite a while therefore me and DeaRz feeling really bored. Another one of the attendant attended to me. I don�t know if he is trying to entertain me or check on the spoiled SD card or whatsoever. He used my cam with the spoiled SD card inserted and tried playing with it. I couldn�t be bothered with him and just hold on to DeaR�s hand. The store attendant finally returned with a Kingston mini SD card and I got to topped up an additional $2. we left the shop after that and went to a game shop also within Sim Lim as DeaR was helping to get maple value cards for her brother. We got no luck as they weren�t selling them.

We went for dinner though I was already full but DeaRz hadn�t eaten. She took sometime to decide what to have and settled on Mee Goreng at an Indian store across Parco. We went to buy Bubble tea before that and tried new flavors. I got myself Oreo Chocolate which taste and look like shit. DeaR got herself mocha which left her gas in her stomach after finishing it. It was a bad plan to try something new.. While she was eating, I used her phone and tried to Bluetooth something over to mine but it failed again. The other time I tried using my sister�s phone to send but failed also.

I suggested going Clarke Quay after dinner as we didn�t finish walking the other day. Along the way we visited 7 eleven convenience store to get maple cards but they were sold out so we just got ourselves a bottle of green tea each. We walked to Bras Basah, Raffles, Funan then to Clarke Quay. Along the way I talked about things like secondary school days and I also asked DeaR what happen if I turn back fat one day and if she would mind. Haha I also didn�t know why I got that idea all of a sudden but it was also a topic to talk about. However as I used to be fat in the past and encounter relationship problems with people therefore just talk about her opinion of fat people. She said she wouldn�t mind if her boyfriend is or turns fat and that the heart is the most important factor of all. However the world is very realistic now and Singapore is one of them. It is better to keep myself in shape to avoid the past from returning again. However as I had experience the taste of being a fatso therefore I got nothing against fat people. I will try not to be fat anymore. Fat people experience biased treatment from friends and I also got rejected by MY when I finally got the courage to ask. After that incident I got so depressed lost courage to like anyone else. Haiz. But those are the past and hopefully it will stay as past forever. DeaRz and I are a miracle.

We reached Clarke Quay and arrived at Riverboat or Riverside, I forgot, and found a small 7 eleven there. We thought that they would not sell initially as it was just a mini store. But I thought that since we were already at the doorsteps, might as well try our luck. It paid off as they did sell them. We also got ourselves ice cream. Haha watching DeaR peeling off the wrapper was really funny. Haha she looked like a small kid who was happy to have a cone of ice cream and peeling the wrapper happily. Luckily I didn�t help her to peel if not I would have miss this scene. DeaR looked really small and cute when she removes the wrapper. Hehez.

We carried on walking and saw a field where some people were flying some remote control kite or something. They watched them with the LEDs connected to the kite as it was dark in the night. We crossed the bridge and strolled the shops behind the bars and restaurant. Soon we decided to leave and we walked back to her home through PS. As we walked to a junction near the Imperial Hotel, DeaRz finished her ice cream and there are leftovers around her lips. Haha really a small kid man. Gave her a tissue and laughed at her. Saw a church near Imperial Hotel I took a couple of shots with my ipaq as I felt that churches looked fabulous at night. On the way DeaR also explained the routes to Mohammad Sultan and the places she will pass by in the bus when she traveled back home from school. The entire district seems to be a clear map written inside her. I will never be afraid of getting lost anymore with a girlfriend like this who seemed to have GPS equipped in her. Haha.

Soon we arrived at the road across the park which Giraffe was located. That time DeaR used to called me a pervert back then when we were with LA and Stan. As we were walking to the underpass to PS within the park, a group of youngsters were dashing across in front of me screaming and puts me on high alert. As we crossed the underpass, I felt my bag vibrates and it was DeaR�s mobile which she had left in my bag with her wallet. We sat outside the MRT station near HSBC. The mother of the child who she is tutoring called and discussed about the following day�s lesson with DeaR. When the call ended I got back to the topic of fat people as I saw a fat guy with a small girlfriend and talked about them with DeaR again. Haha I think she got bored of that subject already but I guess it is tough for me to get rid of that paranoid. I wasn�t treated well in the past. After that we strolled back home on the topic of our mothers giving birth. I was telling her I actually get to have an elder sibling ahead of me but mum lost it accidentally. She was saying that her parents actually wanted to have her earlier but was planning to get themselves settled and stabilize first before they had her. She was saying that if they had her earlier, she probably will be closer age to Andy more compatible with him. They would most probably be together then.

Soon we got back to Bugis area and the topic was camping during out school days. She was telling me that she couldn�t sleep that time when they are sleeping on hard flooring and I was telling her about my field camp as it was really tough area to sleep too. They had treasure hunting at night at that time and weird things happened as their torch will seize to operate if they flash it up into the ceiling in a certain area in their school compound. Wow what the hell man. That�s scary. We reached the street across LA�s granny�s house and DeaRz was telling me about that monkey in her class during sec school who is playing mysterious on msn the past few days asking DeaR to guess who he is. Dear said she used to bet with her classmates to see who the top in position in the class is. Dear was the one and got to treat the entire class a pack of vitasoy each. There were a total of 21 people in the class including herself. That time her result wasn�t so bad and I felt should qualify to be transferred to express classes but her selfish school did not help her to. I felt it was really a pity. Really wasted.

Soon we reached her house and she left. Then I left for home. Took 147 about 8mins to come and DeaR chatted with me all the way throughout my journey until I reached home. She was using the phone at the room right at the back of the kitchen, hiding behind the fridge. Haha. I was saying the whole world seems bigger from the perspective of a small person and that she could hide in areas like that. For me I think I�d probably suffocated in that confined space. Soon I reached home and went online to chat with her. As soon as I entered the house, mum shouted �pat tor ah� but I went into my room and ignored her. Irritating mum. Used my computer and insert files into my new SD card and load into phone. However this time round I still talked to DeaRz even though I am occupied by my phone. Hehez. Got to learn to cure all the bad points so that I won�t upset DeaR. Any way DeaR is more important than phone. Hehe. Soon I went to bed.

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18 June, Sunday, 2359hr, "The Clarification, Silent Hill, Clarke Quay"

Today's morning was fairly disturbing as some groups of Malays were having ktv session in the neighborhood. They were screaming in groups rather than singing. I get out of bed at 1115hr with a residue in my mind. I was able to get rid of almost everything except this thing.

As you all knew, DeaR was angry with me yesterday. We did try to solve it through sms last night. Though I had fault for getting too busy with setting up my new phone and paid slightly lesser attention to her. I need to take note on that one however, as perhaps I didn't notice this fault. But yesterday night when I was busy helping dad and sis, Dear thought I was playing with phone and completely didn't bothered to go online to chat with her. How can I possibly do that.. She got angry by herself. Luckily Serene called to warn me about it and find out what am I doing. Therefore I did as fast as I could to finish everything. Because of that sis got angry too as I did everything to what I want and ignored her ideas and suggestions.

When I got online, DeaR was still not very chatty and happy after I told her what I am doing earlier. I try to ask her if she had any doubts so that I can clarify to her. However she expects me to know as she replied that I should have already heard from Serene on what had happened. To me, hearing from serene is a different thing as an outsider's word has no substance to me. What I want is to hear honest words from DeaR as I feel that our problems are better to asked, clarify and solve within ourselves instead of relying on outsider's assistance. If we always got to rely on others, we will never be able to solve anything by ourselves if anything happens in the future(touch wood). I was lost for words after she gave me that reply. Went to sleep thought that it would left me but it didn't.

On my way to meet DeaR I was really trying to forget it but I couldn't. I can�t help thinking why outsider was able to sms me and even called me to find out what's happening while my own DeaR wasn't able to. Means to say that there is a gap or distance between us? The more I tried to forget it the harder it strikes back. I became really low spirit.

I met DeaR outside NTUC. The moment I saw DeaR, I thought if she is really my DeaR. If yes, why is there such a distance to find out the things she wanted to know and yet outsiders can just casually and simply pick up the phone and face my voice. If she called, she could solve everything easily. I was very confused, disappointed and furious. What is our future going to be like for we are unable to clarify small things by ourselves. I felt miserable and tried to ignore to avoid further pressure to the mind. After we bought pancake flour and some things that her mum had asked her to buy, we walk back to her house. On the way back, I dare not face DeaR afraid losing control of myself..

Her family was all around at home. I sat in the living room and DeaR prepare to cook with her mum. Her dad was scrubbing his jacket or pants at the washing room. The dough was soon ready. I joined in the fun with DeaR making the pancakes, all about the size of a tea plate. Then we tried sizes of weiwei's creation, that DeaR had seen him make last time, and a giant one that appeared in DeaR's dream. The small one(weiwei's) was not a bad idea for lazy people like me who wants to put the whole piece into the mouth at a shot as it is bit sized. The giant pancake did not turned out very well as there isn't enough oil on the pan which had already absorb to other pancakes. I ended up slicing it into smaller pieces with the spatula. We ate them with honey. Haha her mum also tried a piece. Her mum also made lunch for us.

We went to Sim Lim to change my twinmos 1gb SD card which I bought the other day from Fuwell on Friday. On the way there, I still couldn't face DeaR and eventually she asked me what was wrong with me and why am I giving that kind of attitude since we met up today. I decided that she deserved all the rights to know as she had asked what was wrong and I told her everything on my mind and left her to think why she made herself angry for no reason, mad about me for things that I didn't do, required someone else to clarify things for her. Soon we arrived at Fuwell but they had got no more stocks for SD card to replace mine and suggested that I come back the next day when their stocks arrives. We left Sim Lim after that and carried on on solving our problems and eventually we did. I do hope that DeaR understands that it is for our sake in the future. Soon I disposed all issues and try to return to normal.

As soon as we reached home, DeaR went to bathe, change and we leave for Orchard. Before that DeaR gave me a can of coke. Hehez. Her dad went out just before us. We went to the 7 eleven which is near to her house to get ourselves a bottle of drink each. We got drinks of Allswell as they are having promotion of 2 for $2. I got a water chestnut and DeaR got Longan. We carried on walking and DeaR realized that her drink was leaking inside her bag when we reached the street across Sim Lim. I help her carry her umbrella and her drink while she used tissue to wipe her bag and the wet patch on her pants. Haha she really looks like small kid. I was laughing in my mind. I squeezed the bottle of her drink and realize that the cap cannot be shut tight as the treading is broken. We carried on walking and finished our drinks when we got to Parklane.

We arrived at PS and used the toilet as DeaR wanted to clean up her bag and pants a little while I try to dispose unnecessary weight. Carrefour was having some technological fair in the heart of PS. We saw a booth on Sony Ericsson phones too and DeaR said her parents suggested that she might as well get w810i instead. Starhub shop still has w800i selling at $398 for a 2 year plan but I think they also have limited stocks left as the other shops have stop selling it. Therefore I think that probably it is out of production already. DeaR�s parents asked her to get it next year and using the N70 at the meantime won�t kill her. Hehe. We decided to walk down to Orchard as there is nothing much in PS and I thought that DeaR had just been there the day before with Serene and might be bored of that place. So we headed down, bought some finger food at Old Chang Kee(Squid Head, hehe DeaR�s favorite I think). Bumped into a person requesting for donation for Drugs Rehabilitation Families. I donated $2 and given a pen as appreciation. I gave to DeaR and she suggested giving it to her dad. We arrived at Cineleisure and shopped at World of Sports. We looked at shoes as year end is approaching soon and I may need to use my Sportslink Vouchers ,that I got from SPT, soon before they expire early next year. After that we continued to walk and stop by shops selling gifts, toys and gizmos. Our last visit was to More than Words before we realize that we have got no more time left to hang around already and we got to rush back to PS.

we went to Carrefour and got a packet of Lay�s potato chips and a 1.5 liters bottle of green tea. After that we rushed to the toilet at the GV level, collected our tickets and rush straight into the theater. Luckily the lights had yet to be dimmed. We found our seat and settle ourselves down. Beside me was another couple.

The movie went into the town called Silent Hill abruptly when a mother realized that her daughter had split mind and kept repeating �Silent Hill�. Her mum then researched �Silent Hill� and decided to bring her daughter there to find answers ignoring her husband advice to consult the doctor instead. Halfway through the journey, her mother resisted a police�s check and sped off into the route to Silent Hill. The police went after and the both of them had a slight accident. They were shifted to another dimension. When the mother regained consciousness, she realized that her daughter was missing and she went into Silent Hill to find her where she realized that spawns of hell walks Silent Hill. During the movie the lady of the couple beside me screamed a little and scared DeaR while I was laughing at her and DeaR. The movie was rather pleasant as there were no irritating people who kick the back of our chair or big and fluffy hair to block the screen. Enjoyed the movie with DeaR hehez. However DeaR is heavier than I thought when my arm got numb when holding her. Haha that�s good.

We slowly strolled to Boat Quay after the movie. Discussing about the movie and talked about courses to choose and why choose. DeaR likes media stuffs and even dream of setting up a broadcast centre training her own artists when she was young haha. We reached boat quay and I made a lousy suggestion to walk along the shops as the entire stretch is restaurant and the servers were all trying to welcome us into their individual restaurant. We got no chance to be left alone. Haha. we reached MacDonald�s and dine in for dinner. We got a set meal of fillet and an extra fillet burger. DeaR paid for these hehez. Glad that she helped me to lessen my load and being understanding. We started eating and talked about things like where we sat when we last dine in with Grace, how her bro and the gal he like(jiawen) happened in the past, took a picture of us with my ipaq(Dear took the pic and for a person who uses it the first time, it was really well taken, gifted sia) and describe a bit of church stuffs like when she joined(jan of 2005). DeaR could finish her Fish Burger while I was also very full and ate real slow. In fact we were both eating really slowly and the packet of large fries already took us quite a while though we were sharing. We left after that as it was getting late already.

We walk from the back of the stretch of restaurant this time along the bars and pubs to Clarke Quay. I think probably it was a Sunday night therefore there were not much crowd around the pubs and bars. However there were a few sports and �ah beng� cars around. As we strolled I also asked DeaR how she managed to patch with Nick that time again after they once broke up and for what reason. We reached Clarke Quay and DeaR realized that she had a few bites from mosquito. I was saying that her blood is too delicious as she probably ate too much sweet food like chipsmore. DeaR also said that in the past I think Primary school days she manage to eat 10 bars of chocolate a day. I was out of words. We didn�t finish combing Clarke Quay as it is really getting late. Therefore we walked to the bus stop between ChinaTown and Clarke Quay. Hehe had a great time with DeaR though it was just a casual walk with DeaR and was able to completely drop every unwanted things off my mind. This is the magic of my DeaR. Hehez. We reached the bus stop soon and DeaR was saying that time when I was alone with Aud walking the CNY night market, they(LA and DeaR) actually didn�t want to come. But they came eventually but very late. Aud flood them with calls at that time too. She was saying that time I told her how come they come so late throwing me alone with Aud. Haha she can still remember that whereby I had completely no recollection of it. I also told DeaR that next year cannot throw me alone le and accompany to catch the new year spirit together. Hehez.

Bus 51 came shortly and on the bus we were talking about Sentosa. She said this Wednesday she probably will be meeting LA before her tuition to pass her the tickets as LA wanted to go in the afternoon while the rest of us in the morning. DeaR was saying let she and Florence meet us later in the afternoon while we probably leave at around 2pm+. We also thought the same to Rendell, to pass him the tickets if he couldn�t make it for Sunday. I also said that we have a lot of couple items and at Sentosa we could wear the sleeveless t-shirt that we have and wear similar shades. Haha DeaR said she had a blue one but she can�t remember where she places it. It took 51 just a short while to reach our stop and DeaR was describing the distance she got to cover in the past when she took bus home from school and walk to LA�s granny�s house. Soon we reached her house and I left for home.

Bus 147 was taking a long time to come and I am getting really nervous as it was really late and I am afraid that I may need to take a cab home from Clementi as I am not sure if there will be any more buses. DeaR called me after 147 came and reached the junction before Sim Lim Square. We chatted all the way until I reach home. In between her parents were playing with language and her dad came home midway of the conversation. Wow her dad went out longer than us. Haha. When I reached Clementi, I check the timing for the last buses. The time for last 105 was 0050hr. DeaR told me that that timing was the approximate time the last bus reaching that particular bus stop as all the way I thought that timing was the time the bus leaves the interchange back in Serangoon. Soon bus 105 came and sent me home in less than 10mins. Went online to chat with DeaR once I reached home. Think that is where my brain stop taking in things already as I can�t remember what I chatted about. Haha tomorrow DeaR going Suntec to get chair with her mum. Her mum reprimanded her for not taking the lunch she prepared earlier and told her to have it tomorrow for lunch instead. Also her Bro will be taking her laptop out therefore DeaR won�t be able to use it until he returns. Haha think this is the longest article I have so far since I started this blog haha. Enough already if not think you all read until see vomit in front of your monitors haha. See you!

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17 June, Saturday, +0206hr, "A day that rather not have"

I woked up at 1100hr. Thought I would sleep pass 1200hr. Maybe something is bothering me ba.. Am I abit too much.. Nvm. Since I can�t bring myself back to sleep anymore, I smsed DeaR good morning message. She said her woke up long ago le and doesn�t sound pleasant. Soon stop smsing already.

I went online and surf the web a little and find some shows to download. Time flies and it was already 1259hr when I came to realize. I quickly rushed out for Clementi MRT station to meet Ken and the rest at 1300hr(those who know me well will know my watch is 30mins faster then universal, therefore I still made it on time.)

Ken was the only one there but soon Boey, Spen arrived too. We waited about 10mins for SQ to arrive. After that we left for Clementi camp in bus no. 189 heading towards Jurong side.

Geo, JW, Es, ZW, Wil, Ty were already there in the MPH changing when we arrived. Geo saw my phone and snatched it to play but luckily DeaR smsed and he returned it to me reluctantly. Haha DeaR is really my lucky Star and Savior. I bought a big pao for my lunch(cheaper hehez) and made an excuse to the toilet so that I could reply DeaR in the toilet cubicle.

Soon we were in the field teaching them. We are teaching reservists who are all in their mid 30s. All uncles haha. We were split into 4 different groups. I was partnering ken and Spen. All of us tried our best to teach very fast so that we can book out earlier. Last session I was told to teach 3 men take down method with all the 4 groups combine together(100men+-). I got to teach as I was the only one specialize in that field. Sianz. Demo with Zhen Wen on Geo. I use 80% of effort and was rewarded with applauses from the crowd who are restless initially. Haha felt satisfied. The rest of instructors suan that I did it too seriously on friend. We manage to end at 1545hr and I reached home at 1638hr. Called Dad to inform him that I am home so that he got a rough idea what time to come home. We going to celebrate father�s day and more importantly my mum�s birthday.

On the way home I smsed DeaR. Hehez she was in PS with Serene shopping. Sms chat with her. Asked her if she will be bored of PS as we will still be going there tomorrow for movie. Hopefully she will not get bore in that place. Family reached home le and we discussed where to dine for dinner. Felt a little headache and dizzy also and guess that it was probably caused by the sun and the physical stuffs that I did earlier during the lesson.

I took 2 tablets of panadol. Felt better by the time we got to Sakura International Buffet Restaurant at the Omni Theatre. Sis�s recommendation was lousy. We waited 1 hr to queue for 4 seats. By that time it was already 2000hr. The food was average only. Not really that fantastic. The total cost was $104 shared between my sister and me. Sian althought I was on my plan on saving money from meals and luxuries with friends so that I could spend it for me and Dear, this meal had took away almost all my efforts. Oh and by the way on that plan, it was going smoothly. It has been undergone for half a month le and I manage to spend almost nothing on weekdays apart from transport and haircut. This way i will be able to save more le. hehez..

Received sms from DeaR saying that she spent $10.10 at coffee bean with serene for chocolate cake and ice mocha blended. Faintz haha she more powerful than me man.. I was quite shocked as she dun seem to do that when we are out together. Sometimes really don't understand her.Family keep disturbing me after that. Therefore i told Dear that i will talk to her when i get home instead.

Once I reached I went online to find DeaR but Dad asked me to help out with packaging. Therefore before the computer boot up, I got to help him le. I tried to bring in to my room to chat with DeaR and pack at the same time. But after I greeted her, I need to go to the hall to snap photos for his products as Sis wanted to sell online.
Got no chance to talk to DeaR =(

After finishing taking photos for bags, I went back to talk to DeaR. I just typed back, I was ask to photograph wallets. Sianz.. Restart com as it hung and when back to help. Meantime, serene told me that DeaR wasn�t very happy and she thought that I was playing with my phone. What the hell.

Went online and talked to DeaR. In between when take medicine as stomach don�t feel very well from the food earlier. Wasn�t as strong as before le I guess. The fat times and strong stomach. Haha. After telling her what I am doing earlier liao she still moody and don�t want to tell me what she is angry about. No energy to spend le as earlier got camp, the food earlier doesn�t suit me, got chores to do, and sis nagging me for router.. I think I go sleep le to refresh myself and solve my problems tomorrow...

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16 June, Friday, +0300hr, "Short Weekend.. Sianz"

Today�s TKD lesson only got 1 miserable guy attended as ZPC had OPS and the rest of SB men had meeting. The rest went for lunch after the lesson while I went to get accessories for my Ipaq(which i redeemed at Rewardlink yesterday) at IMM.

Reached HQ at around 1400hr and we moved a lot of things. Sian don�t feel like describing it. I also learned that East team had appointed Alex as team IC to help Sharil. They said I could be IC for North. I was wondering if that is a good or bad thing as in the past team IC had chances to skip lessons but there will also be more responsibilities. Slag around after that and booked out at 1700hr. We took private bus to Boon Lay and I rushed home as I will be meeting Dear after this.

After I washed up and changed, I rushed to meet Dear at Bugis. I forgot to shave as I was rushing. Hopefully Dear doesn�t mind me rugged. I went to buy bubble tea for the both of us at Parco and met up with her at the junction next to Stamford Primary.

We went to Sim Lim as I wanted to get a SD card for Ipaq. Bought a 1gb miniSD at $37. Dear was shivering as she felt cold therefore we left Sim Lim immediately after I bought the card. We can�t recognize which exit to use as usual but solve it eventually.

We had duck rice opposite Parco and went Cold Storage to get a bottle of Green Tea for each of us. Haha I thought Dear would get coke again. Haha turned out she wanted green tea which I was relieved. We walked around Bugis, stopped at one of the shops to look at soft toys and jig saw puzzle. Dear also said that she once helped her bro and did a 1000 piece jig saw puzzle.

Soon it was getting late. I walked her home and left for home. We were chatting on msn when we are back. I realize that the SD card which I had just bought had a little problem. Sianz It cannot hold data in it. Really sickening. Dear went to bed at around 0100hr. She said I was busy with the phone and she went to sleep first.. I wonder if she is angry.. Haiz hopefully not.. haiz.. stupid SD card. Went all the way to sim lim to get one which can�t works.. sianz.

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14 June, Wednesday, 2359hr, "2 months later"

Hehez guess what man. Today is 2 months anniversary with DeaR. Hehez. I will be meeting her in the evening later today. I was late for mock grading at 41sar today. Got reprimanded by some of the seniors but couldn�t care much as I am not going to let anything spoil my mood today. Nothing will be able to affect my mind until evening. Hehez. After the mock grading, I was to return to HQ again.

I was going to work out in gym again as usual as I feel like jogging on that day but all of us were called to the office to shift the white board and internet computer table away as the construction workers will be breaking the wall for windows. We are having renovation work at that place, as soon other officers and whatever thing will be moving into this building but I couldn�t really be bothered.. haha. Therefore there are many things to move around and readjust.

After we are done with moving the things, I went jogging with course team. We jogged all the way to the ammo dump and back to HQ. As usual I tried to jog breathing only through my nose without the use of mouth. After the jog, we did 5 sets of 20 knuckle push-ups, 5 pull up and running up the stairs of 3 storeys. I booked out after training as it was passed 1700hr already and I rushed home to wash up and changed to meet Dear.

She went to her uncle�s place today to check on the leaking pipe and to see what her grandmother brought over for her. It was a kampong chicken which is Dear�s favorite dish. I didn�t really try before but I heard from my mum�s stories that it is really delicious. She hanged around a while and took bus number 66 to Jurong East to meet me.

She reached early and I asked her to wait for me at Popular bookstore. She was on the phone chatting to Serene when I arrived. Hehez although I was tired from camp, but she holds the magic to temporary gave me energy to stay alive. Haha my brain was still able to function relatively well. We had dinner at the foodcourt which is on the second floor of Jurong Entertainment Centre. We had Black Chicken Herbal Soup, Steamed Dumplings, a serving of Siew Mai and 2 serving of Har Gao(pai sei I dunno how to call it in English hehe). We went to buy Bubble Tea from Sweetalk located along the stretch of shops just beside Jurong Entertainment Centre when we finished dinner. I had chocolate milk tea and Dear had her usual(Honey Green Tea).

We walked to IMM after that. We visited Daiso to walk around and playing with some of the stuffs inside like the big flower pot which I recommended Dear to get for her Bro as his rice bowl, I used a rake to scratch Dear�s back, etc. After that we visited TS to search for the movie that Dear wanted to get for her mum to watch. We learned that the Movie title was �Ah Shu Qu Lao Po� (I think). Unfortunately they were out of stock. On the way we talked about that time that Dear did Blood Transfusion with her mum. I was kidding her that lucky her dad�s was incompatible, if not probably she will got more male hormones and might have a moustache like her dad.

We went to Giant after that to walk around. Dear bought a pack of white coffee for her mum and shampoo for her hair. She also thought of getting toys for her cousin but gave up the idea eventually. It was quite late after that and we walked back to the interchange where Dear realized that there are many buses that could reach her house. Besides bus number 66 which we all know, 197 and 51 could also reach Bugis at alighting near Stamford Primary. She took 197 home and I took 105 back home after that.

I went to bath as soon as I reached home and called Dear to chat with her to check if she got home safely. She was already at Bras Basah area when I called and she was shivering inside the bus. Shortly she reached home and I told her I turning in for bed as I have got grading the next day which I will need slightly more energy. Hehez really enjoyed meeting my cute Dear. This is how I spent our day that completed our 2 months together. I believe there will always be chances for us to celebrate days marking our times together far far ahead. Hehez I love my Dear.. Sweet Dreamz..

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12 June, Monday, +0021hr, "Haircut, IMM, MSN"

Today is the second week I am on my restriction plan for saving money. Last week was rather successful and fruitful. I was able to manage the days I met up with Dear fairly well. Reached camp at 0820hr, 41SAR men wasn�t there yet. Found EZQ, WL, ST at the canteen. The men came 20mins later. WL and I conducted pugil stick sparring. After the lesson at 0940hr, ST and WL went to 4SAB MPH to sleep while EZQ and I went home to rest. Woke up at around 1315hr. Received Dear's sms knowing that it is her time of the month. =X
I was still feeling very lethargic. Dragged myself up and headed for Headquarters. Chatted with DeaR on sms. Hehez. that really made the day better.

I arrived at around 1420hr, went to the gym to play with the sandbags and smsing DeaR. After that we were called by Ong(my boss�) to the office. He asked us to reach early tomorrow as the CCO jog starts at 0730hr. I told Shafi that I wanted to cancel the Pioneer magazine which is useless and only increase junks to my house. Ong overheard it and I got teased for being miserly. He teased for about a whole 10mins and announced it to everyone in the office. I was completely stoned and wondering if I had committed a crime by just plainly not wanting to have junks sent to my letterbox..

After I booked out, I went to Jurong Point to get a Hair Cut. Went home after that to have dinner then went Giant with parents. We walked to Giant today. Walked around and I was looking at furnitures with dad as I wanted to change my room a little. We also went to the fruits and vegetable section. We bought banana, vegetables, a carton of pineapple juice, potato chips, chicken wings, potato slices. Sis bought a vcd starred by k-one I think. I bought cereal. After Giant, dad went for haircut, sis looked at foot wears while me and mum sat at bench and stone.

Went home after that and went online to find DeaR immediately as I wasn�t able to sms her just now with parents as they will tease. Hehez we talk about some casual stuff. She moved her lappy back into her room. We also talked about on which one to choose between religion, friends and relationship.
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11 June, Sunday, 2359hr, "Xmen 2 at DeaR's house"

Yesterday was a tiring therefore today I woke up very late. Haha. The late morning was raining really heavily out there so therefore I slept all the way until 1430hr. When I woke up, I smsed DeaR and told her that the moment the rain gets lighter, I will head down to her house. Today will be the fifth day I see her consecutively but I still felt really excited to see her. Haha. I went to prepare after that. As soon as I am finished washing up, I exited the bathroom and realized that the rain has turned lighter. Therefore I quickly got dressed and headed to her house.

When I reached clementi, I smsed her that I am on my way already. Soon I reached Bugis MRT station and strolled to her house. It was drizzling lightly there, therefore I didn�t use my umbrella and kept it dry in my bag. Reached DeaR�s house shortly, her dad was watching the television. Greeted him and Rad opened the door for me. Nothing much to do as Rad was playing warcraft on the computer and her Dad was occupying the television.

As soon as Rad finished, DeaR tried to transfer the photos Stan took the other day at Jaq�s birthday and outing with Gra to my SD card. However it didn�t work and DeaR burn it into a cdr for me instead. After that we played the yahoo game that DeaR introduced. It is something like picture find and quite tough.

Xmen2 was about to start soon on channel 5. DeaR gotten me dinner and the family watched the show together. Her mum came home when the movie is ending. After the movie ended, I left for home.

Along the way home, DeaR called and we chatted until I reached home. Haha. I was grateful that DeaR accompany me until I got home. Hehez. I went online to chat with DeaR. Aud also chatted with us today after a long time. I think she just knew that DeaR and I were together and she was teasing DeaR before that.

Rendell came online after that and DeaR was discussing with him on when to go Sentosa. DeaR said that he will be bringing along a friend. Soon, I went to bed. Tomorrow is back to misery. Haiz..

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10 June, Saturday, 2359hr, "Cars, Birth of the Watches"

Today is an exciting day as I will be spending precious time with DeaR againz. hehez though seeing each other for so many days but i am still really excited and really looking forward to the day. Meeting Dear at Bugis MRT station today but she was late. I walked almost the whole Parco already but she still hasn�t arrived... Got bored, brain starting to get into hibernation and bubble tea getting to room temperature. She finally arrived at 1340hr.

We went to Suntec function room 323 to sign up and collect modem for my maxonline. After that we went to KFC(Suntec) to have buddy meal. Haha. DeaR was nice and offered to pay for the meal as I am running low on budget already reason being we have spend a lot of days out. I made fun of her as the container for the chicken seems to be bigger than her head. After lunch, we rush to her house to put my modem to remove extra load and she left her umbrella back home.

We took bus 139 and rushed down to The Cathay as the movie will be starting soon at 1650hr. As soon as we reached, we went level 5 to get ourselves popcorn (family size) and head into the Grand Theatre. It was really huge but as we are slightly late, they had dimmed the lights and made it quite difficult for us to find our seats. Especially when that theatre is quite huge. We got seated in our couple seating, 2nd row from the back. I realized each couple seat is limited to only one cup holder.

The movie is in digital format. About half the theatre was filled. Cars started off showing Lightning McQueen competing with 2 other cars. Although he was only a rookie, he was already quite cocky and cared only for himself and not others. Most of his pits crew left him after that. On the way to California, he insisted the trailer, which is transporting him, to move on instead of resting for the night. An accident happened, he was unloaded from the trailer, got lost and ended up in a quiet and rundown town. From that place he learned the moral values in life and met Doctor Hornet, 3 time champion of the Piston Cup. Got back to California and the story continues.

It was about 1920hr after the movie. We shopped PS and had a break at the roadside hawker as I got tired suddenly and thought of freshen up myself with a drink and wiped my face. DeaR had Luo Han Guo and I got iced tea. DeaR received sms from TR asking if we could meet up with her and Ken for dinner someday. She was also kidding by saying that Ken and Hen rhymes..

We strolled the streets of Orchard and walked the basement of Takashimaya. HS called and ask me if I want tickets to Music Festival. DeaR went to Watson to get lotion for her mum�s cracked heels. Haha so caring to her mum. We went back to surface to the streets and we were attracted to a street store selling watches. DeaR suggested to get a pair of couple watch and she paid for it for $30. I was pleased when she offered as she showed to be willing to share the expenses and load. i was really grateful and touched. Actually those watches with white straps attracted her but went I tried it on myself, it really looked girlish on me. I think DeaR realized it too and changed her mind to getting a metallic watch with a white clock face which I felt is quite unique too. The only thing I was hesitant was that I didn�t tried watches with metal straps before and don�t know if it is going to suit me.

We went to Cineleisure after that as DeaR wanted to do a withdrawal for the watches and I needed to use the loo. After that we carried on our journey to the Dim Sum shop near her house to have a light dinner as we were quite full from the popcorn.

On the way we had a light topic on DeaR�s past relationships. Jim�s sensitive questions popped out on my mind when we are talking together the other day and I asked DeaR about the closest things she had done in her past relationship with her boy friends. Jim deduced that since DeaR is attracted to comics with adult contents, she must be interested also to try with her past relationships. His words made me curious and I thought I might as well find it out from DeaR and face any harsh reality even if I have to. Anyway which person won�t cared about such thing unless if the person isn�t serious on the relationship. I had also thought before in the past when we weren�t in a relationship yet, that DeaR is really attractive and had near to 10 past relationships. I am really afraid that I may not be good enough for her. Jim had negative views on that issue. This is one of the reasons I gave up courting her as it is really pressurizing. Things turned out phenomenally in the end. Haha aright enough of it. Haha.

Soon I sent her home after the dinner. When we reached home at around 1150hr, her mum was asking why we came home so late today. I don�t really know how to answer haha therefore I just smiled at her. After that I went home. I got the time all wrong as the new watch wasn�t adjusted to my time which is about 30mins faster than the correct one. Therefore I ended up walking all the way to the bus stop near Cineleisure to catch a nightrider. In the mean time I tried to kill the pressure that kept within me since the start of the relationship and blasted the music real loud into my ears. On the junction near Parkmall a bike came out of nowhere and nearly hit me. Stupid rider even horned at me bloody hell. The road so wide, he could have take a wider turn. The journey to the bus stop was nothing to me as I am kind of occupied but waiting for the damn bus was really killing me. DeaR called and chatted with me. Hehez really felt fortunate and happy but tired at the same time. I forcefully abandon my pressures and talked to DeaR.

I got on to the wrong Nightrider after that. I got on to NR3 instead of NR5 and end up in Stan�s home town. Bloody hell was thinking that although he was already in Thailand, I seem to be haunted by him. Took a cab home from Bukit Panjang area. Chatted with DeaR all the way and the Taxi Driver was really sickening as he kept interrupting my conversation with DeaR even though he already knew the way to my house. I disconnected the call with DeaR as soon as I got off and walked quick as it is drizzling. The journey back home was really utterly awful apart from chatting with DeaR which is pleasing. Reached home at around 0230hr. Wow 2hr 30mins to home from her�s. Hehez but overall I enjoyed the day. Really loved it and I hope it stays in my head instead of forgetting it. My memory is quite lousy you know. Haha. Alright man blog tomorrow again because I will be spending time again with her!! Haha Blahz�.

Minors:
-DeaR said 139 got reach the NR bus stop, 64 and 65 at Parklane
-Stan left for Thailand 0600hr on this dayy
-Bubble tea: Chocolate Milk Tea(me), Honeyy Red Tea (DeaR)(I bought wrongly)

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09 June, Friday, +0147hr, "A Day by ourselves"

Today�s lesson was at 1000hr, TKD. I can't get myself up as it was raining heavily out there, the atmosphere is cooling and it is absolutely the best condition to sleep. I walked to the dining hall and mum was having her breakfast. She also said that the weather is really nice to sleep and if I am going to camp now I will surely get myself wet at the bottom. She suggested I take MC. Haha I was quite surprised to hear that from mum. I decided to take MC. Showed mum DeaR�s photo. She got all excited and asked a lot of questions like her age, parent�s age, siblings, studies, background, etc. she also noted that DeaR�s eyes were very small and LA is ugly. Haha.

Shortly I went back to sleep. Before that DeaR�s good morning sms arrived. I told her I going to nap awhile more. Woke up at around 1500hr. she was preparing for her bible study. She was going to meet LA at 1600hr. we discussed the later events after bible study. Soon she was on her way to meet LA at around 1630hr.

I received a call from Starhub at around 1724hr requesting me to head down to Suntec function room 323 tomorrow to sign up for my maxonline as well as collect the necessary items. I rushed out after that as I was going to be late by the looks of it.

183 send me to Clementi. When I reached the station, I received a call from DeaR at around 1750hr+ saying that she had just finished her bible study. I told her that I was still at clementi. My bad.. she will be shopping around with LA first at the mean time. On the way there I was really irritated by my earphone. The old and beloved Sony earphone had spoiled. There was no sound from the left hearing piece. The current lousy earphone wasn�t clear, uncomfortable to the ears and I can�t really hear well when the surrounding is noisy.

when I reached City Hall Mrt station, I walk hastily to Suntec to meet DeaR as LA is considered a �dangerous� person to me. She just gave DeaR her negative views on our absence to church yesterday when DeaR was walking home with her. Called DeaR to check her location and where to meet up with her. She suggested meeting at Watson.

When I reached Watson I saw her strolling to my direction. She doesn�t look very happy. I thought it was because that I was late and apologized to her. She said LA had said something again. We walked to Auntie Anne to have snack(raisin)and a drink(passion fruit)while she described to me what happened earlier on. It seems that LA had using the influence of another bible study classmate to get DeaR back to church. She even threw temper on DeaR saying the she did not kept her promise to her to go church. She also reprimanded DeaR for caring for herself and taking away my acquaintances with church members. I told DeaR that LA is wrong and that she can revoked by saying that as long as DeaR is happy, I will be happy too. Other things are secondary and mediocre. I tried to make DeaR relax and cheer her up as I find it pointless to be bothered and let such unimportant and meaningless argument to spoil our day.

we strolled around Suntec after that. We visited Nokia Care, Toysrus and crossed over to Marina centre. We walked around and strolled the park next to Esplanade, opposite Marina Square, near to Benjamin Shire Bridge. There was a faint drizzle. DeaR described the times when she jogged that park, Chinese New Year and I told her about what my mum had said in the morning when I showed the pictures to her. We also discussed what to do tomorrow and that I need to collect the maxonline modem tomorrow at Suntec.

We walked back to Marina Square and had dinner at Yoshinoya. I had Teriyaki Chicken while she had Salmon and Waffle Potato as our side dish. After dinner, we went to Giant Hypermart to get ourselves coke and a lime flavour mentoes and decided to go orchard to get movie tickets for tomorrow. We strolled back to Suntec and DeaR showed me the restaurant that she decided to bring her mum to celebrate in for her mum�s birthday on September.

We reached The Cathay at around 2145hr, got ourselves tickets to Cars, tomorrow at 1650hr. it is at the grand Cathay cinema, the biggest cinema in that building. We also met DeaR�s friend but DeaR had forgotten her name. Haha. We went Plaza Singapura to shop around after that and went Best Denki to get replacement for my earphone. After that I walked DeaR back home. Had a long wait for bus 147. unpacked the new earphones and started to enjoy my mp3s after a long time. Realized that MCWL had sms me at around 2134hr saying: �Eh� Dating Gal huh.. haha..�. what the hell..

DeaR called me when 147 was at Bukit Merah. She said that her mum also asked her the ages of my parents the moment she stepped into her house. Haha. Her dad was trying to negotiate for money to get his Bluetooth earpiece tomorrow at lavender as he and DeaR will be meeting the Seller. Dear also said that her dad gave her 8 tickets to Sentosa for the cable ride at the Beach. We were discussing who to invite. We were laughing at the idea of giving 2 tickets to LA and asked her to bring Stan (Stan leaving for Thailand tomorrow liaoz and won�t be back until September) along. I reached home, chat with DeaR on msn, blogged and after this I will be sleeping. Hehez.

That�s the details that I have for today man. Tomorrow I will blog definitely as I am sure everyday with DeaR is memorable to be blogged. Haha I will not miss blogging tomorrow. Enjoy your weekend as I will alright? Cheers man!

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08 June, Thursday, +0108hr, "A Walk Back to Victorian"

I woke up and book into Kranji to teach today. Reached late at around 0820hr. There were only 8 unit men around. WS was already there. I tried to motivate the men a little as they looked really bored and spiritless by saying that today we are just going to revise 4 techniques and that if they give me their efforts, the lesson will end very early. ST arrived in between. After my lesson, I went home to get some sleep as the next lesson is at 1330hr.

My phone battery is flat. Therefore I leave it to charge as I took a quick nap. On my way to camp I turned on the phone and received DeAr�s sms. I quickly replied her as she sent it in the morning. When I reached back to office, I realized that they had switched me to OCS but I wasn�t informed. Therefore I said I head down to OCS but actually I went home.

Reached home and quickly took a quick 30mins nap. I overslept a little by 20more mins and quickly rushed out to meet DeAr. I reached Dear�s place at around 1750hr if I am not wrong. Her brother was watching the latest episode of Naruto. Haha shortly we left for Parco M1 le.

Before going to M1, we went to the neighbourhood mall as Dear wanted to make deposit while I need to help my sister to transfer $17.95 to an account. We arrived at Parco and got ourselves bubble tea from the usual store. This time round I got chocolate milk tea and Dear got Green apple green tea. M1 store did not display any w800i. Dear wanted to check the price of that phone. We asked the store assistant, it was out of stock temporary and selling for $368 for a plan upgrade.

LA and Stan, the always late couple were late as usual and asked us to wait for them. Therefore we strolled to Bras Basah and visited her cousin�s shop. Her cousin was really busy serving a few customers. We walkd around and checked out Tecman, a Christian book store.

Finally the late couple arrived. We walked to Raffles City, Dear and I rushed to the toilet first while the late couple went ahead to meet Grace. When I came out from the toilet, there was a performance at the atrium. Some Caucasians producing different combinations of sounds from anything they can find but not from musical instruments. Soon Dear was out from the toilet too and we found Grace and the rest at the exit of the escalator from the MRT station. Johnny arrived and we head down to Funan to have our dinner.

On the way there, Dear and LA catch up with Grace while Stan was talking to Johnny. I entertained myself since I am not familiar with either side. Dear then walked beside me after awhile. Hehez.. We settle down at the food court and ordered our food. Dear and I had beef noodles. Haha I was sitting at the edge of the table, therefore I can�t get involve in any topic going on in the middle. Dear sat next to LA as usual.. However Dear did make effort not to left me out today. Hehez.

After dinner, they decided to go to boat quay to hang around. Johnny left after dinner. It was a quiet, peaceful and pleasant stroll with Dear. It was quite relaxing and calms the mind. We found a spot and sat down along the pathway, next to Singapore River. Grace played with Dear�s phone and the late couple was taking photos with the statue of Sir Stamford Raffles. When they are done, Stan took photos of each other in random together too. We also took a few photos of Dear and me using Dear�s N70. We took photos with Stan�s camera around the statue after we had sat long enough. We also played with the camera inside one of the Victorian buildings and some symbolic structures on grass patches. Soon the camera ran out of battery.

After all the smiling and flashes, we stroll down boat quay passed Canaugh Bridge and had a snack and drinks at Macdonald�s. Jeryn called Dear on the way and YX popped out behind us just outside Macdonald�s. We went to the toilet, Dear and I got overselves Macnugget Meal upsized. We got ourselves seats on the 2nd floor and chit chatted. The topics between the others were on church and cellgroup. Kind of unpleasant but it seems that after YX arrived, the topics switched to holy..

We headed home after that as it was really late at around 2330hr on my watch. The rest took the line heading west while LA, Dear and I took the line heading east to Bugis. Actually planned to send Dear all the way to her lift but the time restricted me and I only can see her off from the electronic barrier at Bugis MRT station. After that I carried on my journey and Dear called when I went passed Buona Vista station. We chatted about LA�s negative comment again when they were walking home and other things regarding the what happenedtoday.

I reached home at around 0030hr. Went MSN to find Dear and she transferred me the photos. Her mum thought we had a quarrel as she said DeaR was speaking quite loudly to the phone haha.. Stan also tried to transfer the files to me but kept gotten disconnected on the process. It is about 0228hr now and I am feeling really drowsy already. I got to go to bed already. Hehe tomorrow meeting Dear too. Hurrayz!! Haha. I think tomorrow meeting her dad on the way out for don�t know what reason. (sweats). Lets see how it goes. Good night everyone..

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07 June, Wednesday, 2359hr, "Jacq's 21st Birthday"

I spend the whole day in headquarters today. Got no lesson elsewhere. The morning was really boring. Nothing really interesting. Afternoon Geo, Ty and me went to Spec Mess to have lunch. After lunch they prepare to leave for OCS while I went swimming with West Team. Seems that my breast stroke is better than free style liao. What the hell..

I rushed off real quickly leaving behind all my campmates and rushed straight to Pasir Ris after booking out. On the way in the train, I am so tired that I slept all the way to Outram station from Boon Lay station, without waking up at all. When I woke up, I realize that DeAr had messaged me. Sms chat with her until I reached Pasir Ris station. Walked around and it really reminds me of the days when I was recruit and hang around there everytime before I book in into Tekong. DeAr was going to meet LA before coming to Pasir Ris but she arrived without them as they are late again. Hehe great to see her.. We went to Watson's to get her facial foam followed by Macdonald�s to have DeAr�s dinner. Shortly the late couple arrived. We wrote Jacq�s birthday card and we walked to the chalet.

Before that we went to Cheers NTUC to help Jacq get a block of butter. We looked for the unit number k2002. When we arrived, Jacq gave a warm welcome. As soon as we got seated, she served us with food. Her barbequed food was one of the best in many chalets I have been to so far. We had vermicelli, fish ball, chicken wing. Stingray, satay and prawns. Nothing was uncomfortable for the mouth. All were delicious. or maybe because i am hungry.. haha. I also got to know who Yi Zhen is. I played with DeAr�s phone and took a few pictures. Haha. LA asked DeAr to show off her new bf to Yi Zhen. What the hell.. She treat bf as an 'item'? New can show off? what about her own 'old' bf? Shortly after Jacq cut the cake, we announced to leave already as I still got to book in very early the next day.

We left the chalet and on the way out we each got ourselves capsules from those machine. I still own Stan a dollar as he passed me his last dollar to get us participating in the fun too. We had a great time today as DeAr and I had lesser things to worry about I guess. DeAr decided to take the train with me. hehehez. The late couple bo bianz also took train with us. Haha we are in our own world once we are in the train as the late couple also were, playing with the handheld that DeAr and I bought for stan. Soon the train arrived at Lavender, DeAr and the late couple left. I wasn�t able to send her back today as I got to rush home to get some sleep for the next day. Hehe that�s all for today man. Be back here tomorrow for another story as we are going to meet Grace tomorrow for dinner. But in some parts of the story, I am sure u will find me stating that �the late couple is late as usual�. Haha. Cheers man.

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05 June, Monday, 2115hr, "It Commence"

I woke up at 0830hr today as the first lesson is 1000hr. Felt as though I only had 3 hrs of sleep. My body felt reluctant to be commanded and it is difficult to drag myself to camp. Though it is Monday, the day seems to be dead and meaningless. Dad and Mum were already up having breakfast and preparing for work. As I was brushing my teeth, my dad came to explain to me again that they felt that they may not be able to support me for university, that is why now they are trying their best to save up my NS allowance bit by bit. Sis is also receiving polytechnic education liao. All these higher level institutions are really expensive. He asked me to think of their difficulties.

On my way to camp, I am lost in nowhere. I didn�t think of anything on the way. I arrived finally at Yew Tee MRT station and as I was walking towards camp, I felt that Dad is also worried and concern of me. I know he wants to support me at least to university. Looks like I don�t have many choices, I need spending cash in my relationship and DeAr needs to save up to get her phone therefore I think I will have to do that again..

I remembered it was in my year 1 of poly, I did this to save up for a computer. Now that is the best way to solve the problems le. I have the heart to do it therefore I think it won�t be tough. It is a good practice for me as I can take it as cultivation as it requires a lot of self discipline, mental control and tolerance. I hope I can pull through. I want DeAr to be happy therefore certain needs I will have to sacrifice. Usually it is needs come first to wants but this will be an exception. I felt that it is worth it as DeAr also sacrifice things for me.

I had TKD lesson today, everything is the same. It is really boring. Afternoon I returned back to headquarters at Pasir Laba camp. I went to the gym as usual. I did a 2km jog on the treadmill and kicked the sandbag. I stopped when I saw blisters on my foot. Today's jog was customise to a slower speed at 11, but inclined at 4.0 and i am breathing through my nose only. After gymming, I went to office to take a copy of GSI. I saw the program for the new batch of instructors and peeped into it. They will be starting their course on 20/06/2006. Nice date right. They will finished their course and carry on with teaching AI until 15/08/2006 which they will be post out to unit to teach. After that I went home. DeAr wasn�t chatting much on msn and sms..

Got to go to bed le. Hehe this Wednesday will get to see her as we going for Jac�s birthday celebration at, guess where? At Pasir Ris. Holy.. Just a bit more and I will reach Tekong liao. Haha..

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04 June, Sunday, +0019hr, "Another Wave"

Today I was dragged up in the morning by Dad, he asked me to help him carry some goods to the store saying mum's back wasn't very healthy as usual. I carried a few boxes with him to the van and we head towards the store. The trouble starts, it was unexpected, the main reason for getting me up was to make use of the opportunity to talk to me about my relationship. He said he had observed the bank transactions that I made and felt that i had spend too much money. He questioned if i was paying for all the events all the time with DeAr and that if history will repeat itself. I revoked that it is different and that DeAr is a nice person. Then the argument begins..

My previous relationship was a disaster, I don�t want to talk about it but if u can find my old blog site, u can learned what happened as I remember that I did blog it. He was worried for me that DeAr is the same her. His logic to me was that if ur gf can�t share the load with you now, she will not in the future and that the both of us won�t stand strong. He pointed out the movies, couplelab, meals, ktv, etc. I explained that Dear was trying to save up to get a new phone and after that it will get better. He argued that he believes that there are things I wanted to get too and that I should save up for them too. He also said that he knows I want to get a new phone and I can get the HP pocket pc from starhub but he wants me to save up. He say if DeAr is unwilling to share the load, he advised me end the relationship if not he will have to take actions.

I got home and saw DeAr�s sms and realized that it was quite late. I quickly arranged with her the time, dressed up and rush out. On the way to Bugis, dad�s warning kept brushed across my ears even when I tried my best to forget, but the part on �end the relationship� kept striking me. I am wholehearted to this relationship as DeAr is really special and I really treasure her. I don�t want what happened in the morning to affect today�s trip so I squeeze all the pressure to back of my brain.

I reached Bugis and rushed to check my cards if my parents blocked my cards, they still appears to be working. DeAr arrived shortly in her normal attire. I tried to be normal and that nothing had happened in the morning. We went to get bubble tea. Haha our usual flavor. Dear�s throat was itchy and kept coughing after taking the medication her grandmother gave her yesterday. Her usual honey green tea should help to smoothen her throat her little. As we were walking to Suntec, DeAr was really cheerful and nice and tells me the things that happened yesterday at JB. She is carrying N70 that her dad found too. The problems start to strike me again. The nicer DeAr was to me the more pressure I felt from dad�s words. I cannot afford to lose DeAr.. She meant a lot to me. Thoughts kept running in my mind and I can�t focus on what DeAr is talking about.

We arrived at the PC show, the queue was even more fantastic than Friday�s. We ended leaving again. We walked around Marina and stopped by the Singapore River. Initially i was planning to keep it to myself as i know DeAr has pressure from church too but I felt that I should tell DeAr my problems as we agreed to share problems. It was really tough to put it. Finally I tried my best and started to talk next to Merlion. I told DeAr the problems and she suggested that we be more thrifty on food and certain things and that she will helped to pay for some events. She also said that she will delay to get w800i. Each of us will try to save a small portion of spending for happy events. She asked me not to be worry and that we will solve this eventually. I felt really guilty as I also hoped that she will get the phone she wanted that she had waited so long to get. I really wished that miracles will happen..

After that, we went back to Marina and stroll awhile more. DeAr was really nice and comforted me even when we are walking around. We got some drinks from Giant I headed to Stan�s house. During the journey, I wrote my message in Stan�s birthday card. We arrived at the bus terminal opposite Bukit Panjang Plaza and walked to Stan�s place.

We arrived at 1830hr. Rend and Ray were already there with their campmates. We served ourselves to some food. Got to know Aaron and Adnil(i think it is spelt like this). After that we had a little chat with LA on the things that happened between CY and YR lately. It appeared that they are still having problem with each other. After that XH arrived and we had a little Dai Dee session. Rend also played and he is still making those lame jokes. Rend and XH were describing about Flor who is coming later. Shortly after 2100hr, Rend left home. Flor arrived. After that, we left shortly.

I walked DeAr to the bus stop. We chatted for sometime before 960 came. I see DeAr off, walked to my bus stop and 187 came shortly. The driver was crazy and drove real fast. I arrived home fast and shortly DeAr is home too. She had stomachache again affected by pepsi she drank in the bus on her way back. I got to go ask her again see how she feels on msn liao.. I am a little tired and blogged quite briefly. Apologise for that. See ya guys..

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02 June, Friday, 2359hr, "Xmen, PC show, the explaination"

Haha i am off today, means i dun have to report to any camp the whole day. Hehez i used my polling day off which is given last month for the General Election. Hehez what am i going to do today? Haha meet DeAr of course. lol. The plan for today was to meet stan and LA for Xmen: The Last Stand, visit PC show to sign up starhub maxonline6500 and buying Stan's birthday present. DeAr woke up early this morning at around 9am but she didn't sms me, therefore i didn't know it until i went online and saw her coincidentally. Was waiting for her to wake up to discuss with her wat time to meet up but no sms received, i got bored, went online to find out the price of a wireless router. Discussed with her and decided to meet at 12pm, PS.

We were both late and arrived almost the same time at 1230pm. Meet at the bus stop just in front of PS. Haha saw her from afar, she look like a little girl. Hehez so cutezz.. We went to get tickets for 1400hr show then headed to Long John Silver for snack. At first thought of getting the usual combo 1, chicken fillet but chicken would give her phlegm therefore i ordered fish instead. We went Carrefour next to get ourselves drinks for bringing into the threatre. Stan and LA arrived finally with my watch reading 1320hr. They are never early, hopefully no dispatching company employ them in the future. That late couple bought themselves Heaven and Earth's Green tea, sweet peanuts and sweeten mangoes. LA was talking about Emerge most of the time.. DeAr and her seems to have a lot to catch up and a lot of things to say. We then went up to the arcade. Stan and I went to the toilet first while the girls went for games.

After that, it is time to go into the theatre. We walked passed a Sliter movie poster with leeches stickers pasted around it, i pluck one out and stick on my bag.. Haha ;p
Inside the theatre, i changed seating with DeAr and sat next to stan with LA on the last seat. DeAr seems to be unhappy about it. I think she still have things to talk to LA.. DeAr turned moody and reacted minimal to all my interactions. The movie begins and in front of DeAr was a inconsiderate guy who stick his head high up. I feel that he was blocking DeAr and swapped seats with her.

After the movie, LA wanted to go Heerens to have phototaking with Stan in Annex. We then carried on strolling around Annex when they are done and DeAr bought Jac's present and herself a dark brown t-shirt. We moved on to cineleisure for that couple's dinner. They dined at Yoshinoya with DeAr and I watching and listening to her talking about Emerge all the way again. I got so bored, i took out my mp3player and listen to music while she continued yakking and taking her own sweet time to finish her food. I also shared another earpiece with DeAr. They left for Emerge after their dinner at around 1830hr+. Finally i was able to stop hearing the Emerge nonsense and enduring their boring pastime.

DeAr and I took 106 to Suntec to visit the PC show. She seems to be listless, not interacting much. We reached Suntec and had fish soup for dinner. She had it with noodles while i had rice. We walked to Exhibition hall 6 to find the Starhub's booth as i wanted to sign up for maxonline6500. Halfway looking around there was an announcment telling people that they are closing already which is at 2000hr. The queue was demoralising therefore i left my contacts, business with the staff and he said he will called me another day for signing up the plan. Next was to get Stan's present, DeAr still seems listless. But i tried to brace myself.

We bought a Shokudo heldheld game from Carrefour at $10. While exiting Suntec, DeAr was still uninteractive. On the way, she didn't talk and responded very little, her friend called her and she called her back like nobody's business.. I was still sustaining body fatigue from yesterday's training session in camp, my body was aching, i didn't catch sufficient sleep last night, my patience finally left me.... I decided to stop talking and take solo.

We walked to Bugis, bought a card for Stan and we left for her house. When we reached Stamford Primary, DeAr decided to tell me what was bothering her the whole day.. She said she was unhappy when i exchanged seat with her in the Cinema and that i said that i wanted to talk to Stan only. She said i was neglecting her... What the hell. I was disappointed and explained if the whole day i talk to Stan a lot, did i had long conversation with Stan. I told her she was conversing to LA 5 times more than what i had with stan and that i did not left her out and did talk to her more than stan. it is just that she don't reply me. And if she is feeling neglected, then i should feel that too 5 times more when she is happily talking to LA. She didn't see it in my shoes.. By then we reached her lift, i was really disappointed to be reprimanded and i dun really feel like talking anymore. She asked me to wait and to finish talking before she leaves, tears starts to flow out from her eyes. That was the second time i saw tears from her(first was at Raffles city when she and Nick had problems). Upon that, i decided to dig out patience and braced myself again, abandon disappointment and find a place to talk to her.

We settle down at Macdonald's. She explained that she was also vexed by the saturated topic of Emerge by LA when she was around. I told her that i share the same thought as her and explained to her my way of thinking that what LA had vexed us should be left out the moment she left and not carried on to spoil the day with me as i am innocent. Whatever pressure i receive elsewhere like camp, i still tried to make myself fresh when i meet her instead of being moody. As for the the neglection earlier, she was thinking about herself being neglected then what about me when she was talking to LA?? I too i felt neglected 5 times more and for that should i have the reason to be moody like her? But did i got moody on her? Why hasn't she got that thought for me being neglected when she is talking to LA? If i didn't exchange seats with her, i think i probably be watching the movie like i was alone...

I explained finally to her that when she is around with me, she holds the abolute attention of me to anyone else and regardless of amount of people, regardless the environment(in cg, church, gathering, etc) and that i will never neglect her as i did talk to her more in the theatre and whatever topics i covered with LA or Stan, i will tell her in details and update her but she didn't respond nor understand my doings and my effort of attention on her. But what about her? i dunno what LA is saying softly to her and she didn't bothered to tell me if i dun ask. As long as she is around with me, my attention is only to her and her's alone. Does she thinks the same for me too?

Nextly is on Emerge topic, if she is moody from it, she can tell me anytime and let me know what she is thinking and i will help to solve OUR problems. Her problems are mine too. However there are many chances to let me know but she didn't try to tell me. I told her if she has difficulties expressing herself, she can try by starting from the beginning by bits and there is no need to rush in an explaination to me. I will listen to her. And i will stand on her side as she is the one special than the others. I felt that what we experience today is the most simple problem as LA only talks instead of influence, pressure, stress, reprimand. And if she doesn't try to express problems and tell me whats on her mind on this problem then what about more difficult ones if we face in the future? what happens when people asked me questions like what wrong with her? Do i answer i dunno, she didn't tell me? i cannot forgive myself if i got to answer people that, like an ignorant. She still doesn't learn to tell things, since the church problem last time haiz..

After the explanation, we went home. On msn her dad was planning to sell his phone, exchanging his phone for bluetooth headset, getting the recording box, save money to get w850i instead, why CY got drunk. Rarely do i managed to secure off days, haiz seems that this wasn't my day..... I go sleep to forget..

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01 June, Thursday, 2359hr, "A Flashback of Trainee"

Hi Guys, how are you doing on the first day of June? Man.. i need to go camp as usual man.. Stagnant and uninteresting commitment.. Bloody hell..

Today on the way to SPT, i met SY on bus 182. I slept on 187 earlier and wasn't aware that the bus reached the terminal until a kind hearted passenger wake me up. haha embarrassing.. Everyone was in their PT attire already when i reached office, i quickly change and soon we were down in the MPH. Sharil conducted the warmup, Mr Benny conducted the middle level interval training that we had done before during on course. After that Sharil brought us for a jog around the camp compound. When we arrived back, we had another few exercise similiar to 5BX that we did in the past before we end the training session. It ended near 10am..

I then cool myself down and did my transport claim in the office. Meanwhile i receive DeAr's good morning sms at around 11am. Hehez my soul returns back to me after i see that. Today she had argument with her mum regarding changing of handphone. Her mum wants her dad to give the N70 to her and carry on using her m1 line. She also blames her for following her brother to get the idea of changing phones as her bro recently just upgraded to nokia 6280.

I reached home, prepare my dinner and carried on chatting with her online haha. Discussing about the things to do tomorrow, pc show, church influence to Emerge, my website, her dad's N70's xxx content and i teased her. Haha unfortunately it is really late now when i blog.. i am really tired and DeAr has already gone to bed as her medicine is taking effect and made her sleepy. Haha see you guys man, i am going to bed to replenish my energy to see her tomorrow.. haha missed her already.. ;-P

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30 June, "SAF parade"
28 June, "China Town market renovated, Watch Hunt"
26 June, "Tiong Bahru Renovated"
25 June, "Sky Tower"
24 June, "The Birth Of Our Shades, Sat Duty"
22 June, "AFC moving house, Christian Resurrected "
20 June, "Fat people, peaceful stroll on Clarke Quay"
18 June, "The Clarification, Silent Hill, Clarke Quay"
17 June, "A day that rather not have"
16 June, "Short Weekend.. Sianz"
14 June, "2 months later"
12 June, "Haircut, IMM, MSN"
11 June, "Xmen 2 at DeaR's house"
10 June, "Cars, Birth of the Watches"
09 June, "A Day by ourselves"
08 June, "A Walk Back to Victorian"
07 June, "Jacq's 21st Birthday"
05 June, "It Commence"
04 June, "Another Wave"
02 June, "Xmen, PC show, the explaination"
01 June, "A Flashback of Trainee"