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Do prisoners need sleep?

I searched it on google and found zero results.

I also searched "Do prisoners have a right to sleep" and also found zero results

They had something called "initiation". One thing I remember is they poured hot candle wax on my back.

I also remember we had to sit for a long time on the floor in the front of the room while someone talked a long time. I think this was the night we were "officially" members. I think our parents were watching.

I am in pain now from thinking about how much time he spent drinking, smoking pot, and going to AIESEC meetings, and preparing for the party - and how we didn't talk to any homeless people and how we didn't get my laptop working. And how he erased my back up files from the pen drive so he could reformat his computer, when we started out to work on mine.

I am in pain from the loss of Priscilla. She would understand. She would feel empathy. I think now of the scouts again...

I was thinking of how I memorized the 12 things a "xcout" is

trustworthy, loyal, helpful, friendly, courteous, kind, obedient, cheerful, thrfty, brave, clean, reverent.

I memorized those things, but I never thought about them or what they actually meant. I never thought about the fact that the scouts were originally created to prepare future soldiers.

If I were in charge of the scouts I would change the list... I would first take out obedient, then reverent.

I would change it to something like

caring, cooperative, empathetic, understanding, aware, observant, wise

we will call the boy sensi.

sensi is a very sensitive boy. he has no family. his father died. his mother was not there for him when he was growing up. his brothers and sisters are too busy with their own lives to have time for him. and they don't accept his beliefs. they don't understand him or his feelings. they try to change him. so he left them and started wandering around the world.

a few days ago he arrived in a city called curitiba in what is called by some "the state of parana in the country of brazil". not everyone calls this place by the same name. there were people living there a long time ago who didn't even use words like city, state or country. we will call them the "old" people. now the "old" people are controlled by the "new" people. the new people came on boats from a part of the world a lot of people call europe. but that part of the world wasn't always called europe either. the new people call it europe. to make a long story a lot shorter, we will say that the new people killed a lot of the old people and then moved into the places the old people used to live. they created what they call borders and maps and drew lines on the maps where they decided the "borders" would be. not everyone always likes these maps or these borders. sometimes people kill each other because they can't agree on where these lines should be, or if there should be lines at all. most people these days though agree that there should be lines, they just don't agree on where these lines should be. we might say these lines are all drawn by pens filled with human blood from those killed and wouned fighting about where the lines should be.

so anyhow, sensi had many feelings while he was in this place called curitiba. too many to list here right now. but the point of this story is to help us understand why sensi left curitiba when he did. some people were a little surprised when he left. and some were a little sad. no one really understood why he left, but someone asked for an investigation because they wanted to know why he left when he did. they liked having him around and they miss him, so it hurts that he is not around anymore. their pain from the loss of having him around motivated them to ask for an investigation. so this story is about that investigation.

we will start the investigation by talking to the people who saw him last. we will ask them to tell us everything they can remember. we will ask them to try to tell us how they think he was feeling, because we know that if sensi feels too much pain somewhere, he leaves. so we suspect that he left because he was feeling too much pain. we will also ask the people who saw him last if they asked him how he was feeling. we know that sensi likes it when people ask how he is feeling - as long as they really listen and accept his feelings. sensi doesn't like to be around people who tell him that he shouldn't feel the way he feels.

to be continued... maybe!

i saw that duane "liked" the comment by vincius when he told me don't be discouraged. this hurts. i thought about sending her a msg saying it hurt... but i will wait to see if she ever writes me again.

it hurts and discourages me that no one has asked why i was feeling discouraged. or what would help me feel better, or what i need.