| Title: Driving Author: Diamond Tears Rating: R I guess. Slight and very vague sexual description. It mentions the deed but it's not to graphic... Pairing: D/S Distribution: Here @ Dreaming of You. If you want just tell me where it's going! Feedback: Bring it on! Summary: Buffy's gone and Spike and Dawn feel like getting away. Spoilers: The Gift, but keep in mind that this takes place a good four years in the future. Disclaimer: Joss Whedon is king of all things in Buffyworld. I am Queen of everything else. Note: Song fic, the song is 'Driving with the Brakes On' By Del Amitri... Love this song... If you haven't ever heard it it's so beautiful. If you've read some of my other stuff you know I love their work... :-) Note: ** indicates that until the next set of lyrics these are Dawn's thoughts, *** indicate Spike's ~ indicates the start and end of the lyrics. Driving... She could feel his mouth baring down on hers. She didn't know how she got up the courage to leave with him but it didn't seem to matter to much. Sunnydale was miles behind and there seemed to be miles between her head and her heart. Things felt right, her hands, his hands and in the moment they were. She had never been had before. He could smell it on her. She was scared, but she trusted him. Some thing no one else had ever done for him. He kissed her softly, his hands slowly undressing her. She followed his lead and everything depended on him. She was soft and tender beneath him and he was in total control, holding himself above her. She stared up at him, not willing to take her eyes off him. The tears ran down her face as the pain of the last four years surfaced again. He was the only thing she had left and had no intention of letting him slip away. She felt him lose his strength as the moment captured them both. Her hands fell away as he let himself down. He buried his head in her neck and she breathed heavily against him. The moment was over and the reality set in. She closed her eyes and felt his hands slip from her hip and face. ~ Driving through the long night Trying to figure who's right and who's wrong Now the kid has gone. I sit belted up tight, She sucks on a match light, glowing bronze, steering on. And I might be more of a man if I stopped this in it's tracks And said, come on, let's go home. But she's got the wheel, And I've got nothing except what I have on ~ ***I broke my baby. I gave her all I am and I took her innocence. How could I do that? How could I do this to her as if it meant nothing? As if it were goodbye to Sunnyhell. Was it her I'm in love with, or the idea of her? The idea that she might love me. But I saw it in her eyes. She's scared. She staring ahead at the road. She hasn't said anything and I wish I could break the silence. Her face still holds the trail of tears. She was crying. Bloody hell, what have I done? It's never been so perfect before. Never lifted so much pain. Never been so profound. I've never been so happy and in so much pain at the same time. I loved her with all I had. And I took everything that was her. I made her cry. I caused the tears that still fill her eyes. I made love to the Dawn.*** ~When you're driving with the brakes on When you're swimming with your boots on, It's hard to say you love someone And it's hard to say you don't ~ **What have we done? What have I let him to do? What did I do to him? I've lost my child. In everything that's happened until this moment I've still been innocent. Like white snow on the crest of a mountain. Now I'm nothing, I'm just another girl. Will he see me as just another girl? Will he leave me behind, in the memory of sex and the moment? I have no answers, and his expressionless face offers me nothing. I want him to say he loves me. So I can tell him how much I love him. But he's said something and I can't believe what he's said. Take the wheel Dawn. Be strong. Don't turn back now. Be brave.** ~ Trying to keep the mood right, trying to steer the conversation from the thing we've done. She shuts up the ashtray, and I say it's a long way back now Hon She just yawns. And we might get lost someplace So desolate that no one where we're from would ever come But she's got the wheel and I've got to deal from now on ~ ***Way to go Spike. Play the insensitive guy right now. Look at the poor girl. You stripped her of her home, the last shred of sanity she had left. You took her and all that she gave you and now your asking if she wants to go back. You've made your choice. Deal vampire!*** ~ When you're driving with the brakes on When you're swimming with your boots on, It's hard to say you love someone And it's hard to say you don't ~ **I answered him no. Sunnyhell is no longer home. What's home now but having a undead being *in* me. Is that home? Is he my home? Say something Spike. Please, even if it's only that your done with me.** ~ But unless the moon falls tonight, unless continents collide, Nothing's gonna make me, break from her side ~ "Dawn?" "Yeah Spike." "I love you." "I love you too." ~ When you're driving with the brakes on When you're swimming with your boots on, It's hard to say you love someone And it's hard to say you don't ~ The End... |