| Title: Curves of Time Part 2 Authour: Eaglewolf Contact: [email protected] Date: July 14th 01 Spoilers: Nope Summary: Dawn lets go Rating: PG14 Pairing: S/D slight B/G Distribution: Feel Free :) Just tell me where Feedback: Yes please, nummy! Disclaimer: Joss, Fox, and everyone else in their sandbox own it. Dawn sat staring out the window, the same window she had sat a year ago and whispered a farewell to Spike. She missed him now, just as much as the day he'd left. He was the one person in her life who had actually *listened* to her. Sure, Giles and Buffy listened but they had their own lives and couldn't always make time for her. She smiled sadly, she still missed him but every day it got a little bit easier and he did still write from time to time. He'd even called a couple of times, but not for long. The last time he'd called he'd said it would have to be the last time. He wanted her to go on with her life, he thought she didn't know about the calls he made to Giles. He called once a month, to ask Giles or Buffy how she was *really* doing, she'd been visiting them when he'd rung the last time. She knew she shouldn't have eavesdropped, but after years of practice she hadn't been able to stop herself. But she knew he called, and she loved him all the more for it. I've got pictures and letters And a few other things you left behind. I'm surrounded by memories I can't erase from my mind And I don't know where to start Nobody said it would be so hard Dawn sighed as she put the last letter from him down on the windowsill; it had been a few months, he'd been in Russia when he'd sent it. She turned and looked around the room. That was the corner where he'd first kissed her, her bed was the first place they'd ever made love. The memories were surrounding her, holding her even tighter tonight than normal. She felt the first tear trickle down her face. She missed him; her heart ached for his arms around her, still. A year after he left it was still him she dreamed about. She still woke up from horrible nightmares screaming his name, but she knew it was time. Time to put Spike and her memories of him away for awhile. How do I let go How can I face this world alone Now I'm holding on for dear life But life won't let me I know, So how do I let go. Do I run out and look for another Someone just to hold Or stay under the covers Never coming out until I'm old? I'll do whatever it takes Somebody please just show me the way She bit back a bitter laugh; Spiked had left her so she could date other men. Human men. It had been twelve months since he left and she hadn't been on a single date. A few men had asked her out, but she'd always said no, because in her head she still belonged to Spike. They had a special bond, but if she never tried...if she never even kissed a human before Spike came back, his sacrifice would have been for nothing. She sighed; she owed it to him to try everything she could, she couldn't stay hidden under the covers forever. But she also knew, it wouldn't be fair to whoever who ever date for Spike to still be in the forefront of her mind. However, she also knew, that cobwebs would never gather over her memories and love for him. How do I let go How can I face this world alone Now I'm holding on for dear life But life won't let me I know, So how do I let go. How do I break the ties Every road stood from your soul to mine She sighed again, then sat up straight. 'I'll always love him; he'll be back one day. I just have to let go of him for a while and then when he comes back...when he comes back, we'll see where we are.' Dawn knew she wasn't really alone, she had her friends and family. She just missed Spike. He had been a part of her for as long as she could remember; letting go of him was easier said than done. Theirs was a bond stronger than time, deep down Dawn knew that. But she needed to for just a moment, lock him away in her heart and try to forget his cool hands upon her, setting her on fire. How do I let go How can I face this world alone Now I'm holding on for dear life But life won't let me I know, So how do I let go Oh how do I let go. She knew it wasn't going to be easy, but she owed it to Spike. She couldn't hold onto him forever, not when he'd asked her to give him up. He knew that until she tried the day, she would never know if what he was asking of her was worth giving it up for. He loved her enough to let her go, because the thing he wanted most in the world was for Dawn to be happy. She gave up one last tear, smiled as she thought of him, sighed and stood. "Anything for you Spike, anything." She walked over to the phone and dialed a number. "Pete? It's Dawn. About that coffee....." Half a world away Spike looked up at the moon, and smiled. |