Lately, my feelings have been feeling like crap. I feel so confused.. I want to cry. And even the person I trust most is hard to talk to now.. Doesn't seem like he cares. Love is a hard thing to deal with. It's pain.. And it makes us forget about other stuff. I sometimes find it amazing of what Love can do to us. It's kind of strange. My friend likes this guy and I kinda feel hurt. My friend likes this girl. I kinda feel hurt.. And my friend is going out with a girl. I feel very happy for them, but yet. I still feel sad.. I don't know why I feel this way. Why do I feel sad about people liking other people? Or someone being with someone else... Is it because I wish I could be with someone too? That I wish I could be inlove as well? Or because I Love that person? I feel so down. So low. So sad.. I dont know what to do. This has been bugging me this whole week.. I don't know what to do.. I want to cry. I don't believe that Love is quite a good thing sometimes. The Love through Jesus Christ was so great and powerful. He died for everyone. Even though our heart was against him.. But yet, he still went through all the pain just to save us from our sins..
I don't know what wrong with me... I feel so shallow because I want to Love someone.. I want to be inlove. I want to be happy, and know that someone loves me too.. I believe that this is shallow.
And thinking Deep.. feels.. unhappy. I want to Love someone, but because of that, it's just being shallow. I have no reason of loving that person, but, I want someone to Love. There is no one to Love. My problem is that I could form a great friendship with someone, and if I suddenly fell for them there could be a problem, sometimes I think it may be wrong to fall for your friend/close friend because I think that they just think of you as a friend, they won't feel the same. And the friendship is just friends. You could feel like Brother and Sister.. What ?I believe now is that. There is just no one for me to Love now..
And then I think. Maybe it's because we stayed for friends too long, and I've kept these feelings to myself for too long.. It's too late now.. |