Troy Tells Emily the whole story of how Joanna really died, and also, he turns down a good job opportunity just for Nora.
TROY TELLS EMILY THE WHOLE TRUTH November 19th Emily: How did Joanna die? Troy: I loved her so much, Emily. Emily: I know you did. Anyone could see that. And she loved you, too. Troy: Yeah, she did. We couldn't stand to be apart. Emily: She was so beautiful. Troy: Yeah. Yeah, she was. Maybe that's why I was so jealous, you know? God, I didn't want to be, Emily. I didn't. I know that jealousy was always colin's thing, you know. He was always so jealous and so possessive about everything. Emily: He had his demons. Troy: Do you know how many times I wish I had never -- never even known Colin? How many times I wish I had never even been born his twin? God, things would have been so -- things would have been so different with Joanna. Emily: I don't understand. You -- how is Colin responsible for Joanna's death? Troy: You want to know what colin has to do with Joanna's death? Emily: Everything. (He stares at her in a freaky way and it's silent) (Next scene) Emily: I don't understand, Troy. W-was colin involved in Joanna's death? Troy: Look -- let's start at the beginning. Here, sit down. (She sits down) You remember how Joanna and I were with each other, right? Emily: Yeah. You were so in love. You adored everything about her. I remember hoping that one day I'd be that much in love. Troy: Oh, Emily, be careful what you wish for. We argued a lot, too, remember? Emily: Of course. Over just about anything. Troy: Yeah. We were constantly battling for control, you know? That didn't stop when I got to Africa. Emily: You still fought? Troy: Yeah. No. No, actually, not at first. Actually, at first, everything was perfect. We didn't fight at all. We had found this great place. It was incredible. It was on the cliffs. It was overlooking the Zambezi vever. We had so much fun decorating it. You know Joanna. I mean, she just threw herself into it. God, I wanted to share everything with her. I wanted to share all my hopes and my dreams. I wanted tell her about my family, about you, about mom and dad. And about Colin. Emily: But she'd never met Colin, had she? I mean, he wouldn't even come to your wedding. Troy: No. No, Colin and I -- well, you know, we had been estranged for a few years, since even before Joanna and I started dating. But Joanna definitely knew. Emily: That he wasn't -- he wasn't a very nice person sometimes. Troy: Yeah. Yeah. And I told Joanna how close Colin and I were as kids, how, you know, we sometimes switched identities just for kicks. Emily: So things were going pretty well for you in Africa. Troy: Things were going so well that we never saw it coming. (Next scene) Troy: My work was going so great so great that I had never felt so appreciated as a doctor and -- and a a person. I'll never forget the day the Masai chief gave me the amulet. Emily, I was so proud. And it wasn't just because I had cured him. It was because I was finally accepted as a person. But unfortunately, by then Joanna had already began to hate Africa. She wanted to go back to the states. But I wouldn't listen to her. I knew Joanna loved me. I knew she would never leave me, so I figured I could have both -- I could have Joanna and I could have Africa. Oh, god, I was so arrogant. Emily: What happened? I mean, if she wanted to go home but you wouldn't agree -- Troy: Well, Joanna did the only thing she could do. She knew it would drive me nuts anytime that she paid attention to another man, so she made sure she paid attention to every man that would come near her. She knew what she was doing. She knew she was torturing me. As soon as she realized that I was helpless, she just kept on doing it. Finally, we had a huge fight, and I yelled at her. I said, "Joanna, you got to stop it." She looked at me right in the face, and she just laughed at me. She laughed at me, and she said, "if you want me to stop --" (Flashback) Joanna: Make me. Troy: "You got to make me stop." I knew that she loved me. I knew -- I knew it. But I couldn't control my jealousy. And she just kept torturing me. And then -- Emily: Then what? Troy: And then that's when Colin came into the picture. Things were never the same again. (Next scene) Emily: What did Colin have to do with Joanna's death? Troy: We were fighting constantly then, and it was just about that time that I got a letter from colin. He said that he was sorry for all the problems that he caused me and that his marriage to lanie was on the rocks and that he wanted to come to africa. And in a strange way, I wanted him to come. Emily: Why? Troy: I guess I wanted him to see how successful I was, you know. I wanted him to meet my beautiful wife. When I went to tell Joanna that Colin was coming, she just got mad at me. And she yelled at me and she said that if I didn't start paying attention to what she wanted that she would make me live to regret it. And once again, I didn't listen to her. Emily: What did she do? Troy: She did the same thing she did before. She just drove me crazy, flirting with any man that would listen to her, any man that would come near her. It was a couple days after that that I got another telegram from Colin. He said he wasn't coming to africa after all and that apparently he had a chance to reconcile things with Lanie and that he was going to take it. But when I went to tell Joanna, I found her with someone in our bedroom. Now, of course, I knew it was all a setup. I knew it was just another one of her games. But in that moment, something just snapped. I couldn't help myself. It was more than just simple jealousy or anger. Something dark inside of me began to take over, and I knew that this time I wasn't going to just get mad, I was going to get even. Emily: By flirting with other women? Troy: No. No, I took it to a whole new level. The next night, I came home in different clothes. I parted my hair different. I even took off the amulet that I always wore. She called out to me. She asked if it was me. (Flashback) Joanna: Troy, is that you? Troy: I said it was. And then I went into the bedroom. I didn't speak. She was surprised that I was so forceful. I just made it seem that all I wanted was her. Then, afterwards, she grew curious. She kept asking me what was going on. She asked me about my hair. She asked me about the clothes. (Flashback) Joanna: What happened to your amulet, hmm? Troy: Finally she noticed that I wasn't wearing the amulet. (Flashback) No. Joanna: No? (Flashback) Troy: No, Troy's wearing it. (Present) That's when I told her that I wasn't Troy, I was colin. (Flashback) I'm not troy. (Voiceover)She was horrified. (Flashback) I'm colin. And now I got to ask you because the fans want to know -- how does it feel to make love to your husband's twin brother? (Voiceover) I wouldn't stop. I was merciless -- just the way she'd been when she was flirting. She was crazy with guilt. She loved me. She never even thought about being unfaithful to me. She ran from the room. (Flashback) Joanna! (Voiceover) I yelled for her to relax. I told her it was just a game, just like the games that she'd been playing with me. She was already gone. I tried to catch up to her. She thought she'd betrayed me. I screamed that I loved her and that I was sorry. (Flashback) Joanna come back! (Voiceover)That's when I heard her scream. [Joanna screams] Troy: (Flashback) Joanna! (Present) Our house was really close to the cliffs, and she fell off the cliffs and she died. I killed her, Emily. Emily: Troy, listen to me. Joanna's death- it was still an accident. Troy: Yeah. Yeah, that's what the authorities said. That's how it was recorded. It was recorded as an accident, not murder. Emily: Because it wasn't a murder. Troy: Oh, come on, Emily. Come on. I was so jealous and so angry that I didn't just get mad, Emily. I got even. Emily: Come on, Troy. Please don't do this to yourself. Troy: I got even. Joanna was dead. The one person that I loved more than anything in this world was dead because of me. Emily: I'm so sorry. Troy: I was so numb. You know, I couldn't feel anything. I went out to the bars and I got drunk. And I told anybody who would listen about what I did. Emily: We always knew that joanna had drowned, but -- Troy: No, Emily, Joanna didn't drown. The cliffs were high. It was a long fall. Emily: I wish I could've been there to help you. Troy: No. You wouldn't have liked being around me then. I didn't have any feelings. There was no more anger. There was no more jealousy. There was no more getting even. The only thing I wanted to do was help people. But after that, Africa was never the same. Emily: So when Colin died and you came back to the states -- Troy: I figured that I could take some of the money that Colin had left and I could try and make up for what he did. Who knows -- maybe I figured I could try and make up a little for what I did, too. Emily: I bet you never thought you'd fall in love again. Troy: No. No. Then Nora saved my life. Emily: You were on some stairs, right, and you were going to fall? Troy: Yeah, and she saved my life. Something inside of me just opened up. She saved my life in another way, too. Emily: I'm so glad that you found her. Troy: Yeah. Me, too. After I met her, I realized that I could love somebody else just as much as I loved Joanna, but without all the -- without any of the anger or the jealousy or the bad feelings, but just with love, you know? Emily: I am sure that she feels the same way. Troy: I hope so. And when I finally got Lindsay to confess, I knew that I had finally gotten the justice that Nora deserved, you know? I knew -- I knew in my heart that I could be good for Nora. Emily: Oh, you are. Troy: I knew that I could take all of the mistakes and everything that I learned from my mistakes with Joanna and I had another chance to do it all over again. You know, it was like the skies opened up for me and I had a second chance. I don't know if I deserved it. Emily: Oh, yes, you do. Troy: But I know how happy she makes me, and I don't ever want to let her go. Emily: Then don't. (Next scene) (Nora walks in) Emily: Nora, hi. Nora: Hi. Emily: I was just telling Troy not to worry about me. I'll be fine. Nora: Why is he worried? Emily: Oh, he's just being a big brother. They tend to do that sometimes. Think more about yourself and what you need to do. Troy: Right. Emily: I'll see you guys later. Nora: Bye. Take care, Em. (She leaves) Troy: See you later. Oh, I am so glad that you're here. Nora: Oh. There's no place else I'd rather be. Talk about a day, huh? Troy: You know what? Nora: What? Troy: Actually, I had a heck of a day, too. Nora: You did? Troy: Yeah. I -- I actually got the most incredible job opportunity. Nora: Really? Troy: Yeah. In fact, it's so good that it's even worth giving up the clinic for. Nora: Where is this? Here in llanview? Troy: No, no, no. Actually, it's in Boston. Yeah. And, well, we have to leave right away, but it'll be great. You know, we'll find a great apartment up there -- maybe somewhere near Harvard or -- Nora: Whoa, whoa, whoa, hey -- hello, Troy. I can't just pick up and move to Boston. Troy: Why not? They have lawyers in Boston, too, you know. Nora: I know they have lawyers in Boston, sweetie. But I have Mathew, and I can't just up and move with Matthew and separate him from Sam. Troy: Right. Nora: I wouldn't want to do that. Troy: You're right. Of course. Nora: But tell me about this job. I mean, is it a wonderful career opportunity? I mean, we could work something out, long-distance relationship for a while -- Troy: No. You know what? No, no, no, no. Nora: What? Troy: Never mind. Look, I would never leave you and Matthew, ok? I would never even think of it. Nora: Wait a minute. Is this a good career opportunity? Troy: Nora, let's just forget about it, ok? Let's just forget about it. It's not like we can just get up and disappear, right? Nora: Well, wait a minute. I don't want to wreck this. I-I don't want to -- Troy: Nora -- Nora: I want you to think about this. No, listen. Boston's not that far. Troy: Hey, ok, listen to me. I don't even -- I don't even like Boston, ok? I don't even -- it's too cold in the winter. Nora: Are you sure you don't want to think about this? Troy: Yeah. I'm positive. (She kisses him) What's that for? Nora: For being you. It's not every day that a girl gets a guy turning down a job offer because his girlfriend doesn't want to move. Troy: I would never want to do anything to lose you and Matthew. Nora: Wow, what a guy. Troy: I'm hopelessly in love with you, nora. Nora: Oh. And me with you. Um -- Troy: What? Nora: However, I am going to have to spend a little -- Sam's kind of in a bad way, and he's going to need some attention for the next few weeks. Troy: Because of everything that happened with Jen? Nora: Well, it's not just Jen, you know, and -- Blair was almost killed. Troy: I read that in the paper. Nora: Well, it was so overwhelming -- the shock was that she had a complete psychotic breakdown. Troy: You're kidding me. Nora: No, they sent her to a clinic in Switzerland somewhere. And I called my sister who has a clinic over there, and she's going to try and get me some information. But in the meantime -- Troy: In the meantime, Sam is going to need some support. Nora: Well -- Troy: Well, wait a minute. What about Starr? Nora: Starr's going to need it, too. Todd got custody of the kids, which is another reason why someone's got to stay close to Sam because he went ballistic. I got to -- I'm hoping that I can be the one to keep him from doing something rash. Troy: Yeah. I guess Sam and Blair must have been getting pretty close, then. Nora: Yeah. Well, anyway, I just don't think that he's in a good way, and I just want to be ther for him as much as I can. Troy: Well, I guess Sam's just lucky that he has someone there for him no matter what. Nora: As a friend. The one man I want to be with is you. All the time, and that'll never change. (Next scene) (They're in bed... yay!) Nora: You know, I was thinking about that job offer -- Troy: Ugh. Come on, sweetheart. Let's just forget about that, ok? Nora: No, no, know what? I look at it as a good thing. Troy: Why is that? Nora: Well, the fact that you even considered it means that you actually could leave the clinic. Troy: Yeah, but I'm not sure I'm getting your point. Nora: The point is it's a good sign. It means you no longer feel like you have to make up for your brother's sins anymore. Troy: No. I'm not worried about my brother's sins. Not at all. (You could see it in his face he's still a little upset.) (The end)
