In Loving Memory Of Regon Carter

04/11/78-07/20/98

This is Regon on vacation about a month before her death.
On July 20th 1998, I had a piece of my heart taken from me without my consent. My baby sister took her own life. What I didn't realize at the time was that she almost took mine too. But then she came to one night in a dream and told me to grow up and move on. Because of her, I met my angel Janette, my best friend. The only thing that I regret is that Regon never got to meet Janette, and vice versa. But, like the song I chose says, I know she's smiling down on us from Heaven. I love you Regon and you will always remain in my heart...


My Angel Janette.


I am going to now share with you some poems that I have wrote since Regon's death. Most are about her, and one is for Janette and the things she has done for me. I love you Janette and this page would not be possible without you.

Insane

I close my eyes, the crimson color fills my brain,

I begin to choke, as I slowly go insane.

The picture of you laying lifeless, without a breath,

The saddened faces, the horrid odor that only screams death.

That pale cold face which held so many smiles,

Now beaten and battered showing your trials.

Those sweet blue eyes closed to hide the pain,

The awkward resemblence of the man who drove you insane.

That beautiful voice which repeated, "Oh daddy not again."

His only reply was "Bless me Father for I have sinned."

His face showing a smile with one more kick,

Smiling as he repeated "stay still you little shit."

You have gone from me now, beautiful sister of mine,

But with the hopes of seeing you again later in time.

I carry you deep inside my heart,

Where finally, not even dear ol' dad can keep us apart.
*Heather DeVon Carter*

Defeated

I open my eyes, wipe the tears, and force myself out of bed,

Slowly making my way to the mirror to look at my once beaten face.

I begin cussing myself for the words that were left unsaid,

The whole time being eaten alive by the memories I cannot seem to erase.

I see within myself the life you gave me,

The part of my life filled with good.

You were my life, you opened my eyes up to see,

Always making me laugh like no one else could.

You always showed me that love was real,

How Life could be so sweet.

You kept from me the pain you wouldn't allow me to feel,

Who knew that the blows would cause the pain to be your defeat.

I carry you now only in my heart,

But the warmth you put there is needed.

Who knew that in such short time we would be forced to part,

But know that not you, but it was him that was defeated.
*Heather DeVon Carter* *10/24/99*

As Long As You Are There

I wake up each morning with the feeling of loniness,

My world so cold and dark dwelling below.

Stumble to my feet, to await your kindness,

And the sunshine you bring with one hello.

I cry out to you seeking comfort and love,

Fearing that my burdens will turn you away.

The joy you bring is like a gift from above,

Telling me that through out it all, you will stay.

The feeling of acceptance fills my heart,

The love pushin the clouds away.

And as we bid our farewells to part,

You give me the love and strength to face another day.

You see just the feeling of being loved,

Brings the opportunity to be able to love and care.

I know that no matter how hard I am pushed and shoved,

I am protected as long as you are there.
*Heather DeVon Carter*

I would like to leave you with a picture that I drew of Regon. And I will include a picture of myself. I hope you all have enjoyed my page because for every person that has seen this page, Regon's memory will live on. Thank you and I love you all.

This is the drawing that I did of Regon

And this is Me *smiles*

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