| How I really Feel. Chills, They run so deep they are to the bone Lost in myself and not being able to get past What ahs been done to me, what I have lived though And you�you are the one� You made me this way Thanks for being a good role model Drunk more often than not, Verbally abusive, Over critical I wan never able to please you were I How much more? How much more Will I ever be good enough for you? How much time have I wasted for you? Wasted on trying to please you, but never being able to do so Always trying to push for your acceptance Always wanting your praise I�m like a child who is holding their scribbled drawing Waiting to be told �Great job honey, it�s Wonderful� To have her tell me that I am beautiful I gave up on that dream, yet I yearn for it I want you to be proud for who I am And not ashamed of whom I am I will not change to be just like you I will not bend any more, I will not over look what you have done I want to let go I want to be free Just once can�t you say that you�re sorry? AND NOT BE DRUNK I�ve picked you up off the floor I�ve cleaned up your messes I�ve dealt with the words spewed with hatred �Cock sucking cunt� I hear that all It all is resounding it my head Every time something good happened, YOU RUNINED IT But you don�t care SELFISH But you don�t care I WILL NOT SUBCOME I won�t be your little bitch I will be a pee-on I will be your door mat But, I won�t be the punching bag For no longer will I talk or even look at you In the same way You are not above me You are lower than I am, I will not be the fodder I will not I will not I will not |