| Curtain Up
Crash, burn, Unsteady landing Can�t keep up with what people are demanding They all want some much of me I can�t even decide for myself what I want to be Same day in and out I don�t know what I�m all about When was it made clear? The reason I was to be here. As I struggle to grasp the concept Of A life with out failing Over the years I see my mistakes And I can�t get it right, no matter what I do. Tasteless anger spews from my lips In a defensive state, I am confrontational Must protect the little bit that I have left What I am, the tiny ounce of me that still burns It wants to escape, to tell them what I am I haven�t been the real me for so long I am confident that that part is all gone. I have to play this game, if I don�t, It all has to change The loneliness is empty and cold I feel so much despair, I am so scared. But I will never tell any one of my fear I am tormented by the demons that I steer I will be the strong one Always end up being the wrong one I�m in this play for the long run As the Curtain opens another time I sigh; the pain drains the life away Inside my soul is crying And I am dying So much for trying So I continue denying And forever desiring For the life that will never be. |