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                                                                                    You�re Still here!
                                                                                            Chapter 7
                                                                                          by Ellasblues

Disclaimer: Characters property of Kevin Williamson & the WB. No copyright infringement intended. I love DC and I am only trying to fix the damage that PS and KW did to this wonderful show. This is my third fanfic Summary: the main couple is P/An with a few other characters thrown in. to keep it interesting. This takes seven years after the season finale. In that time there has been a lot of changes and I would hope for the good. Please feedback is always appreciated. I need to say a big thank you to Michael for helping me make this a better story.

Pacey�s Hotel suite

Pacey quickly removed Madison�s hands from his face and stepped back from her in an attempt to keep his distance.

�How did you find me Madison?� he asked cautiously and with some measure of detachment. He putting his hands in his pockets he leaned back on the chair.

Madison noticed that Pacey was being standoffish. Quickly summarising that there was something going on that he didn�t want her to know about she causally glanced over the closed bedroom door. Returning to look at him square in the face she noticed something that he had never revealed to her, a look of contentment and satisfaction. In that moment she saw something else that she had never witnessed in their relationship. Putting two and two together, she knew in that instant that Andie was in the bedroom. She chose to smile at him while knowing exactly what to say in order to get a reaction out of him while she fought to contain her fury at his betrayal.

�You thought you could trick me, telling me you�re going Capeside for the weekend.� She tried to act as if she wasn�t bothered by his deception but Pacey could read her eyes. This act wasn�t working out as she hoped.

�Very smart, you know how much I hate Capeside and you knew I�d never go with you to visit your brother.� She tapped him on his chest in a flirty way.�

�It was perfect plan Pacey and you thought I�d never have a clue about your secret little trip to Minneapolis. But you forgot one thing� she paused, �when I couldn�t reach you on your cell phone, I called your brother�s house and talked to what�s his name�ohh�yes, Jack.� Her tone changed as her words dripped with anger. �I forgotten how nice he was and he was only too happy to tell me about you visiting his beloved sister Andie this weekend.� Her smile faded quickly.

�Madison, I didn�t tell you about visiting Andie because I thought�� Pacey offered as a defence.

�I know what you thought; you thought I wouldn�t let you go. Pacey I thought you knew me better than that.� Madison tried to sound reasonable in order to restrain herself form screaming at him.

�You seemed a little upset whenever I even mentioned Andie�s name.� he looked up to her.

�And why wouldn�t I, she�s the one that got away right?�

Pacey fell silent, �Oh Pacey dear, surely you didn�t think I was unaware of her importance to you? Please give me some credit.� She wrapped her arms around his shoulders. �I should be angry with you; I really should, but now is not the time. Not when I have some exciting news to tell you.�

�Exciting news?� Pacey felt taken aback at this. Madison had gone from furious to nice in a heartbeat. She could change her moods quicker than Joey could which to Pacey�s mind was saying something.

�I�m pregnant Pacey, we�re pregnant. Isn�t it great? You�re going to be a daddy.� She gushed and hugged him tight. Over his shoulder her face displayed a wicked smile.

Pacey said nothing and could only give a weak smile in return to Madison. A cold chill ran through him and he was started to feel sick to his stomach. He desperately tried to work out when and how he�d been so careless. Pacey may have been casual in other areas of his life but he was pedantic about using contraception. How can I have been so stupid, he thought. Suddenly he knew his future with Andie was in question, a future that he knew in his very soul he wanted so badly. He wondered if his luck had finally run out. Having a baby with the wrong woman was not part of the plan. He felt foolish to think he could use her for something casual and then walk way without blinking an eye.

Andie quietly opened the bedroom door. Her clothes are sloppy as if she had rushed to put them on. Pacey looking at her in horror, stood frozen to the spot unable to move. He knew by her gestures and her look of worry that she had heard Madison�s news.
She tucked her hair behind her ears and sought to compose herself. Pacey noticed Andie�s face was streaked with tears and that she couldn�t bring herself look at him in the eye. Andie shifted her gaze between Madison and Pacey her while trying to put together a coherent sentence.

Very softly she spoke. �Um�I�m not sure what to say�I guess congratulations are in order.� She brushed the tears away from her face.
Pacey freed himself from Madison�s grasp and walked over to Andie. As he went to put his arms around her she flinched from his touch.

�No, No don�t touch me.� she flattened herself against the wall and made her way to the front door. Pacey reached out for her but Andie pushed him away and put out her hand to stop him.

Madison, seeing the distress on Andie�s face stood back and enjoyed her handiwork. She was unable to hide the fact she was happy with the mess she had created for Pacey and now for Andie as well. She loved Andie�s reaction and felt she couldn�t have asked for more.

Pacey�s noticed Madison�s reaction. �Madison,� he quietly but firmly said �Could you please go into the next room, I need to talk to Andie alone.�

Madison, realising that Pacey�s only interest at that moment was Andie, vainly tried to protest. Pacey, in no mood for her games, cut her off quickly before she could do any more damage. Madison reluctantly left the room worried about the possibility that her plan hadn�t worked. As she did she glared at Andie with contempt

As Madison left the room, Pacey turned his full attention to Andie.

�Andie, please� he said as she reached the front door.

Andie stopped, letting her hand rest on the doorknob. She turned back to Pacey and finally made eye contact with him.

Pacey desperately asked �don�t go now when I need you the most McPhee.�

�You don�t need me Pacey, you never did.� She replied sounding wounded. She was on the verge of tears again and began to turn the doorknob.

�I always need you Andie, and I�m scared to death that if you walk out that door you won�t need me anymore.� He moved towards her.

�And is that such a bad thing to not need each other?� she asked. �It�s why I moved here, you don�t know how scary it is to realise that you need another person. That you need them so badly that they become your everything to point you feel that you can�t breathe unless they�re around. It�s not right to love someone that way Pacey. It isn�t sensible.� She fought back the tears as her love for Pacey tugged on her heart.

�And when did love make sense Andie? Because of all the human emotions love is the craziest. It makes you do the stupidest things.�

�Like being in love with the same guy for sixteen years?�

He got close to Andie and placed his hand on the side of her face and let his thumb lightly touch her cheek. �No, for being the guy that tried to run from it for sixteen years McPhee.�

A tear ran down Andie�s cheek and Pacey gently wiped it way. � I regret it took me so long to understand that the love I was searching for� he whispered �was found so long ago, it wasn�t perfect but it was true. And I need you. I hunger for your love Andie.�

Andie let her face rest on Pacey�s hand. Closing her eyes, she felt for a moment as if she and Pacey were the only two people on the planet and the world was spinning around them. To Andie it was as if the real world had disappeared around them along with all the problems that came with it. But the cold reality of the situation woke her up from her daydream. Her eyes fluttered open and she pulled way from Pacey. She reached for the doorknob again and this time she didn�t hesitate to open the door. Caught off guard by her action, Pacey could only stare at her.

She turned back to him trying her hardest not to cry. �You�re a good man Pacey and I like to think I had some thing to do with that. So I know you�ll do right thing and right thing for you to do now is to support this baby and that means you need to support Madison .Her and the baby deserve one hundred percent from you, so it would be selfish of me to demand any of your time away from them. �

�Andie� Pacey interrupted moving towards her

She puts her hand up to stop him �Listen, you know I�m right. I know this is hard to hear but this is also hard to say. A long time ago I encouraged you to go to Joey because it was the right thing to do .Now I encourage you to show Madison the respect that she deserves as the mother of your child .It�s never really been goodbye with us Pacey� she paused stiffing small sobs �but maybe now it has to be.�

Andie smiled sadly �Goodbye Pacey J. Witter, I�ll always love you.� She turned and closed the door behind her. Once she closed the door, she ran to her car and broke down completely. Screaming in frustration and lost hope she slammed her fists into the steering wheel, crying out his name and asking God why she would never be happy and why could she never be with Pacey as she so desperately wanted to be.

Momentarily stunned, Pacey buried his face into his hands. He knew that once again he had let Andie go without much protest. Once again their shared history was one of sad goodbyes. He couldn�t understand why their relationship never seemed work. He wondered why it never seemed to be the right time for them. Was it a sign? Pacey didn�t want to believe that it was.

All he knew was that Andie was the one person that made world liveable for him. At sixteen she had opened his eyes to a world of possibilities while she pushed him to conquer the real world. She would always be by his side to take his hand and reassure him that she was there to catch when he fell. For now, he would have to deal with Madison. He knew that he didn�t love her but he would love the baby that was growing inside her no matter what. What he needed to do now was to figure everything out in his life. He needed to let Andie go for the moment but he knew that it wouldn�t be long before he would find her again and never let her go. He promised himself that and he quietly promised Andie he would keep his love for her forever and a day.