| Second Chance! Part 5 By Ellasblues Disclaimer: Characters property of Kevin Williamson & the WB. No copyright infringement intended. I love DC and love Pacey and Andie. This is my second fanfic and I hope you like it. Summary: It takes place three years after the finale. It seemed like forever before Pacey could put into words what he needed to say, to explain to Doug what has been going on for the last 7 months. That for the first time in his life he had really made peace with himself, that he really felt happy even though he lost the only women he ever loved. He laughed to himself, which made Doug look at him strangely. That was a lie that he always believed that she was the only one, but as the months went by he knew that he was wrong and now he was determined to fix the mistake he made so long ago. �I really don�t know where to start, I mean I could start at the day Joey told me it was me she always loved or�.� �How about you start with tonight and why I caught you kissing Andie in the kitchen?� Doug cut in. �Well, I can�t explain that, I just know it was meant to happen.� He rubbed the back of his neck. �How is that Pacey? Why would you be kissing Andie when you�re supposed to be in love with Joey?� �Because it is really hard to be in love with someone when they tell you that you�re the wrong person. That the last two and half years was a mistake and should never have happened.� He avoided Doug�s eyes. He didn�t what to see pity in them. �She said that? I just can�t believe that Joey would say that.� He tried to comfort him but Pacey moved away from Doug�s touch. �The funny thing is Doug, that I agreed with her, she was right. I knew that she loved me but I also knew that she loved Dawson and that one day she would figure it out.� �Figured what out?� �That he was always the one she was meant to be with.� �I am sorry Pace.� �It�s okay Doug, at least I didn�t have to spend the rest of my life always wondering who she really loved. What kind of life would that be? You would have to be a fool to want to live like that. I was a fool for way too long.� �It sounds like you�re handling this well.� Pacey shuffled his feet. He was handling this better than he ever thought. He hated to admit it but he hadn�t felt this free since the day he left Capeside to go to the Caribbean. He would never regret loving her but he regretted all the time he spent trying to get her to pick him. �Don�t get me wrong Doug, I wish it could of work out but sometimes you just need to move on with your life, no use wallowing in my self pity.� He tried to break up the tone of the conversation. �And Andie is moving on with your life?� He glanced at Pacey as he unbuttoned his shirt to get ready for bed. �It�s not only about moving on Dougie,� he smiled cheerfully, �It�s about growing up and really knowing what love is all about. I had that with Andie at one time, even though it got screwed up.� He hesitated. �I was an idiot to think that I could find that with Joey, but with Andie it was always possible. It was easy. In the back of my mind I have always known it was her but was too afraid that it would never be as good as it was the first time round. I�m not afraid anymore.� Doug could see Pacey was serious and that he really believed what he was saying. He was relieved that Pacey had finally grown up on his own without the help of a women by his side. �I am proud of you Pace, for the first time you know the answers.� He pat his brother on the back. �You know she never stopped loving you!� �I know �� He smiled sadly �It�s the one thing I always know.� He felt guilty because he knew one time in his life he had stopped loving her. �There were days when I felt like packing it all in but just knowing that she was out there made the world better. Knowing that someone loved me with all my flaws and still wanted to be there for me, how could I not fall in love with her over again?� He was embarrassed by his statement but this was how he felt, he wanted Doug to understand even if it made him look corny. Doug studied him. He knew Pacey was laying his heart out on the line, something that Pacey didn�t do too often. �Now, you know how I feel about Jack.� He started to chuckle as he never thought he would be having this talk at three in the mourning with his little brother. Pacey started to laugh too, not sure what was funny. �Who ever thought we would be in love with two people in the same family.� Doug continued to laugh. �God only knows? � Pacey threw his hands up in the air. �Let�s get some sleep.� Pacey nods his head in agreement, pouring your soul out was tiring business. As soon as they left the kitchen they saw Andie carrying her suitcase. She was startled by the two, she was thinking she could sneek past them before they were finished. �Um, Doug could you tell Jack that there was an emergency and I had to leave.� She couldn�t look at either of them in the eyes. �Tell Amy I�ll see her soon, also that I love her very much.� She wiped a tear from her cheek. All Doug could do was nod his head. He backed away from the couple to leave them alone. Pacey�s face had completely dropped. He did not think she would do this, that she would run away. It wasn�t in her character. The fact that she was leaving because of him hurt too. His eyes would not leave her face, he wanted her to look at him. She could feel his eyes on her, she was afraid he would see how scared she was. Once she had enough courage, she gazed straight into his. �I am sorry Pacey if I gave you the wrong idea in the kitchen. But you and I had our chance a long time ago, maybe in life that�s all you get. � She knew she was lying but in her mind it had to be done. She turned to leave. He didn�t believe her, what she had said was her way of protecting herself. He wouldn�t let her leave now, he knew it didn�t end here that this was only the beginning of the relationship. �I spent most of my life loving the wrong girl, so before you leave Andie, I want to say that I�m sorry. Because the time I wasted with her, was the time that was going to make my life worth while, I was with the wrong person. I want to spend the time I have left with the right person and that is you.� She stopped dead in her tracks. She turned slowly to him �If I am the right person then you�ll understand that I need time right now.� She gave him a weak smile. �So take all the time you need, God knows you waited a long time for me to get my head out of my ass.� He replied. She kissed him deeply; she wanted the kiss to show him how she really felt for him. �Thank you Pacey.� She quietly breathed and with that she left. |
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