| julie's closet |
| 4-23-02 I watched "never been kissed" tonight with miriam and my parents. I love that movie. For some reason not many people think about those things. Like lol about the penguins that mate for life. No one ever thinks of that, or the possibility. I guess they have the idea in mind that if it doesn't work you can always get a divorce. So it's not as much of a risk as it was before. That's of course that's a horrible way to go about looking at relationships. "nothing to lose". Because in the end, nothing to lose, becomes nothing to gain. I love movies that bring out those points and put respect for things like that in them. It makes me hope. Sometimes I think I'm the only one waiting for it, for that one solitary moment when I just know....I forget that I'm not the only one in the planet just wishing they knew why love was so hard to go through, to be in, to find and to keep. Sometimes you get so caught up in what you lack, you forget to see the many things you have to offer. Relationships cannot survive without both sides, what you can give and what the other can give. Love is an action and a feeling. You can't be in love without totally giving up yourself and only wanting the well-being of the one you love. Love is unselfish. Sure, I've never been kissed. I'm still waiting for that moment, when the world disappears and all that is left is me and him standing there and in that moment I'll know that he is the only man I'm supposed to kiss for the rest of my life. But I know God will send me the man I'm going to marry at the perfect timing, and when he does I will understand why I had to wait and be patient and trust. Give up control of a situation that is totally beyond your reach. Have faith that God will take care of you, because he knows me better then I even know myself. |